Ai No Gravitation

outing

2005-06-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

Just came back from today's outing Am tired, and am very lost too >.<

I'm glad I went after all, since I got to meet up with so many people in the end. Craymel,Aiko,Raijin,Jin,David,Brian,WeeLi,Iris,Sandy,Amanda,Aoi,Shinnoir,Kaede,Funky were among the few who came and I hung out with, while I managed to spend some time with Whitney's gang too, but they sort of dissappeared in the end.

Basically what we did the whole day was hit the arcades and create havoc wherever we went. I wanted to play Pop'n Music since *yesterday* but the machine was taken over by so many people TT___TT I only managed to play a few rounds, and I still can't find both Cobalt and Powerfolk 3. I think I need to go consult Masa-chan~ Played a few rounds of Ez2D too but then I managed to pull a muscle and decided to stop for the day XD

We went to yam cha at yesterday's "Prawn House" Restaurant again, much to the worker's horror there. Yes, we were loud and we were all high on perverted topics. It's SOOOOO NOT MY FAULT. *looks at Ezel* That was one heck of an ice-breaking session X___x

I was (still am actually) worried about Aiko. Turning so quiet and depressed all of a sudden is NOT ok. However after reading her blog here I guess I sort of understand a little what she's going through. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always ears ^^ There is no need to feel so alone. Everyone is alone in this world. That's why we go out together to kill that feeling. Everyone is happy there and then because we choose to, it's only behind closed doors and sealed hearts that we then remain depressed. I know I am like that, because I rather people not see that part of me, and thus not get burdened by my emotions ^^;; I don't know if you understand this, but this is how I feel, at least.

The outing ended for me when I walked Brian off at the monorail station and I went to look for my family for Madagascar. The movie was boring though, so there's nothing to talk about that particular part of my 2 hours today. Besides, I was extremely exhausted, and all I wanted was to go to sleep =_____=||

Which is now my main problem. I can't @^%#@*%# fall asleep >.<

I'm gonna go watch Loveless now.

BGM : Out of my Head - FastBall

timeless

2005-06-01T04:24:00.000+08:00

Had a very very enjoyable today, if I may say so myself ^^ Went out after class to meet up with Kaede again, and the both of us popped by and visited the tailor together before heading towards TS for lunch.

I did want to have ramen for lunch, but Chiku-Ho didn't really look appetizing so we settled for Peng Hwa. (or as Kil would call it later - Prawn House) Since we were early and Kil hasn't arrived, Kaede decided we could just start drawing there and then, and we did. I kinda felt disturbed by it cause the waiter and waitresses kept coming over to check on us. We were watched, and I thought they were planning how to kick us out from there.

It turned out though, that they wanted us to draw for them too So in the end we had to call Kil to find us instead and he accompanied us while we drew. James, or whatever he prefers to be called now, joined us awhile later. I don't exactly appreciate my friends being called ma lat lou, or whatever it means. But whatever, as long as the two didn't mind >.< In the end I couldn't draw right cause I was freezing and Kil was cracking up too many jokes -mostly about prawns, that I passed half of my work to Kaede. So in the end, the drawing was signed, well, Kaede and Kaede

We made off to the arcades with great haste, and spent some time there before splitting up. Jin, a friend of Kil's, brought us to a shop to get Miaka's gift but I was being picky =___= In the end Kil brought me to Endah Parades anyways, and I picked out a nice little gift with his help. I just hope Miaka likes spots. A LOT. Later had dinner at the foodcourt, with indian songs to fit the background.

(Not exactly the candlelight dinner with violins as promised hehehhe)

And I got home safe and sound after that cause Kil accompanied me back home all the way till I reached my station. XD That's ridiculously nice of him really, and I very much appreciate that ^^ Thanks ya *huggles*

Will be going to watch Madagascar with mum tomorrow as well. *sigh* Seems like everything is crashing in on tomorrow. I suddenly feel like I might have one friend too many huhhuhuh~ ah well. Not that I'm complaining mind you XD

Oh yes, forgot to mentioned. I've created a msnspace, whereby I set up my other blog. I find it quite hard to blog here once in awhile, since I cannot control the crowd and I have no idea who's reading what. (So much for freedom of speech, yeek) However msnspace only allows people on my messenger list to view, so it sucks to be you if you don't have me in your messenger XD

I'll still blog here though, of course.

BGM : Night Out - Pop'n Music

useless

2005-05-31T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yay~ I spent the first official day of my holiday being a total bum.

Basicly my day was like this : Got up for class, came back, Pop'n Music, went out, came back, Pop'n Music, eat, Pop'n Music....and you get the picture.

I admit Pop'n Music can be very addictive. XD

I *just* finished an art for Kaede, who has been demanding since forever. Well, just few days back but it felt like forever cause he wouldn't let go <.< And I can't draw! I suck at drawing cause I haven't been practising lately.

Thankfully there's Kil-chan who kept me company, not to mention give inspirations XD Thanks....again~

Will be going to meet Kaede tomorrow, then Kil-chan later. I think there's a CF outing tomorrow at TS, so anyone interested can just join. I don't really care, just going cause Kil-chan asked me to *laughs*

BGM : Kodou~Whenever - Okiayuu Ryoutarou

lifeless

2005-05-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

280505
Saturday

finally got my cosplay costume going somewhere! With everything that was going on I seriously thought I had to kill my plans TT_TT youkata~

Went out to meet Ayase and Kaede somewhere in Titiwangsa (I have no idea where XD) to visit Ayase's tailor. We had lunch while waitng for the tailor to return, and got to know my better half a little more ^__- Oh yea by the way, I've decided to cosplay as Eyes Rutherford afterall first, cause it's rather simple and nice, and I don't want to cause a stir with my parents about me cosplaying this year. =__=||

Later the 3 of us went *somewhere* again to get our cloth materials. (Seriously I am one lost kid >.<) Kaede and me then left for Amcorp Mall to meet up with Ezel and Hisashi. Feels so nice to go out and have nice chats with sane people once again ^^;

I arrived at the lrt station near home *quite* late, and dad offered to fetch me back from there XD Glad he's not upset or anything. Yea, the power of informing your parents early. Anyway at least we got back, at the rate both Ezel and I kept waiting for his next train, or the next train....or the next train, we might as well just camped there for the night XD

-----------today--------------------

Woke up to face frustrations -______-||

I couldn't get Tactics for weeks running already!!!! T_______________T This sucks. And it rained. It rained, and it was cold. <.< When I'm in a bad mood, everything just doesn't go well. It gets worst when I don't know the cause for my moods.....

I think it's because I don't feel so well lately. Something is eating me up, cause I'm not eating, that's for sure. My whole family went out for dinner with my cousin, while I stayed at home, blogging this. I'm glad at least mum understands how tired I am lately, and said I could skip the dinner if I felt like it. =3

I want to go back to hugging my pillow. *hugs*

Was doing that when I fell asleep and Shinnoir just had to call and wake me up <_< Kuso gaki

BGM : Kokoro no Hadaka - Rurouni Kenshin

heartless

2005-05-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

I don't like being responsible of things I don't get appreciated of. So I skipped school today and left all the problems for other people to handle. Heartless, I am. But I ain't exactly in the perfect of mood lately, so me showing up in school today would just result in me exploding at some people's face.

Which almost happened again. Seems I am exploding at everyone one lately. This tension is getting me into loads of trouble =___=||

So I made a slight mistake yesterday, and that made a few hiccups along the line of duty. I am sorry for that. However, I cannot swallow the part where useless old farts starts pointing fingers at me accusing me of being guilty when they've done absolutely NOTHING to help. And I'm pointing this point blank in your face Ivy Cassandra.

"But it's YOUR FAULT"

I will NOT tolerate some useless prick of a Ass.Head who did nothing to help ease the mess that we were in, while I was toiling and trying my best to cover everything up till late at night all the time, while having to live up to all you useless people's expectations, say that in my face. I really don't have to entertain you, prick. But thanks for hanging relententlessly on my shadow and reminding me of my mistake, that was, by the way out of forgetfulness because I had so many things in mind and so few hours of sleep. Which of course, is because of people like you who is part of the organisation and has such a bloody high rank but wouldn't lift a finger to help.

And my apologies to Thevini and Valli. Thanks for holding me and my *voice* back in the Prefect's room in time before I really gave her a piece of my mind.

Lately I'm not my usual self. Things just gets on my nerve very easily =____=|| Mentally not so sound, I know. It was so bad yesterday, that I seriously needed isolation. So I headed off to the Form 4 block quietly and spent practically the whole day there, and I believe I fell asleep there too, despite the class being so humid. <_<

*sigh* I know I shouldn't be so selfish at times. I also know that Raihana relies on me more than anyone else in the board. I know that I should have been there for her and at least help her. I'm tired. We're both tired. I guess I just couldn't care less >___< I deserve to be condemned.

Tomorrow's the start of the holidays, and I hope good things would turn out soon. I need to de-stress my self for now. Even though everything is over, exams and all, I cannot quite settle down yet.

BGM : Cobalt - Popn Music (Finally got the song collections X3)

the good the bad and the ugly

2005-05-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

The Ugly

Me. Had a vicious row with Raihana today over many things. One involving her being a ridiculous ass who's totally irresponsible. She made a total mess out of everything, and I have to clear it up. I don't exactly like you pointing fingers at everyone else when you screwed. Thanks for screwing up my accounts and stuff, I *really* appreciate it. I got so pissed off I just walked out from the prefect meeting and left the school grounds, knowing full well I am not going to practise for tomorrow's sketch performance. Whatever it is, I'm still in it tomorrow =____=||

The Bad

Moral paper was a killer today, I had no idea what I was crapping most of the time. Felt like I was armed with a Cobray MAC-10 .45ACP and just shooting rounds >__< I hope I can at least pass with dignity. To make things worst I kept falling asleep. crapz~

The Good

Always save the best for last X3 Went out to Times Square again, thankfully this time I don't have to deal with any mad essentric juniors like yesterday *sweatdrop* Met up with Masa-chan first, and then Joshi, then Aiko, then Kilmasis, Bunny and Michiko@Icerose. It's been fun, thanks everyone ^^ I'd say it was a good celebration for my short freedom. Aiko said Masa-chan is pretty....~ I think she's the first to say that ^^;; Unless, you're talking bout the part where you see his side and his long hair practically covers his eyes like a pretty gal, yea~

and NO, I do not have the hots for Masa-chan X__x Omg why is everyone asking me this now? Even Kil is asking in the wee morning <_<

Whom by the way, kept me company all night until about 2am via sms while I was finishing some work for Teacher's Day *tomorrow* Thanks ya *hugs* Hope you do well in your presentation later, and not doze off instead O.o!!!

BGM : Everlasting Snow - Hikaru no Go

Title-less

2005-05-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

Sat for the 3 papers today, and it was more or less quite easy. That's because frankly we all know whats coming out for Bio and Chemistry >=3 That's cheating, but that's life. Sometimes it makes you wonder if the Education Board is stupid or what.

Went all jittery when it came to my Accounts paper, but it was fairly easier than I had assumed. Only damn thing was my pen ran out of ink, and I couldn't write the name of my class in ink X___x!!

Tomorrow is the last paper, and I so do not have the mood to study. All I've done is flip through the notes, and spent the last 2 1/2 hours on the phone with Shaun.

Shaun is beginning to act weird, yes in THAT sense. Aiko sure is damn right about things at times =____=|| however much I wish she wasn't. So he finally tells me, and I am totally at lost. I would prefer to just keep quiet and not say anything, but I cannot tolerate myself pretending and let things go by again, and hurt someone else *again* talking to him today about *that* part reminded me of how regretful I was about it all.

Sheesh. I can't believe I still wept over it when talking to Shaun even though it's been like...months.

I'm a sentimental sucker that has no life >_< And I hate that.

BGM : Kimi ga suki dayo - some poppin music song that's been stuck in the head forever. (Not like I mind :3)

temptations

2005-05-24T04:15:00.000+08:00

I've done practically nothing for the past 3 days. I am such a sick procrastinator. *goes back and opens the thick book of Accounts..yeeessshhh....*

I have 3 papers later in about 5 hours time, with Bio 3 and Chemistry 3 and Accounts 1 being hurled at my face all at once, I'm pretty calm for someone who's about to screw up her exam results.

I can't wait for school to end today though =3

I will NOT participate in any school presentations unless I'm asked to *nicely* All you buggers who've taken advantages all your life better go find a replacement. I'm sick and tired of all of you. In fact, I LOATH people who abuses their authority just because they have a nice looking title. I wish your presentation good luck.

Just BTed the whole Angel Sanctuary manga, and began reading it instead of my revisions (yea, I'm definately pwn in procrastinating) I love the story, I love the art, I love Kaori Yuki. (though I cannot believe she made my fave angel Raphael into a total SEX PERVERT) Need I say more? I just can't wait for 2 days later and I can resume where I left off.

BGM : song, what song? I can't even hear myself think!

3 Things~~

2005-05-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
- Kaede
- Suyin
- Rachel

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
- Kaede
- Shining_Tears
- Namelesswind

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
- My hair
- My fingers?
- My arms? X__x!!

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
- My fat legs
- My eyes
- My brain

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
- Chinese
- Uh....Chinese
- some say I look European..for some reason

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
- cockroaches
- being alone in crowded places
- sense of inferiority

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
- sleep
- rations
- money

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
- red bracelet
- grey t-shirt
- baggy pants

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS
- Gackt
- Miyavi
- Malice Mizer

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (of the moment)
- Tsuki no Uta - Gackt
- Lost Complex - ICEMAN
- Joushou Gaidou - Miyavi

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
- love
- happiness
- communication

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
- I feel very lonely lately
- Mind ish blank. Very blank
- I'm yuri

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
- watching the world
- reading (anything cept porn =__=)
- leeching MP3s

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
- Jump off a highrise building
- enjoy a good manga
- watch anime

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
- Pyschologist
- Animation Designer
- Young billionaire

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
- Singapore
- Tokyo, Japan
- Disneyland, Japan

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE
- Toya
- Aki
- Kazuki

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
- make sure my anime collections goes into the grave with me
- travel
- swim with orcas in the ocean

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
- plays rough
- able to hurl insults faster than most of you who's reading this
- beats the crap out of people I can't stand

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK
- can be a bit of a vain
- temperamental ; very emotionally unstable
- enjoys spotting at cute guys ^^;

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
- Cikgu Fong <<--he IS a celeb amongst fangirls ^^;
- Gackt
- Takahiro Sakurai

meme shamelessly ripped from masamune

daily updates

2005-05-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

Mmnn.. I did mention that I won't blog until after the exams. I now official take back my words and stuff them back down my throat. I'm bored. Just finished Add Maths today, and now feel very reluctant to pick up any book.... it's on EST tomorrow *eep* Below is some of the better update bites for the last few stressful and somewhat boring days. I need a better life.

**~~8th APRIL~~**
Mum's Day!! Bought a pair of pink pig slippers for mum. Now it's aptly called the pig slipper for the mother swine of all pigs XD You get the idea~ Also bought a Fuji plushie somewhere along Petaling Street, it's shooooo cute ^__^

**~~10th APRIL~~**
Nii-san announced his plans to go camping at Sg.Congkak, which is where I'll be going to, but in July ^^ Nii-san finally decided he's had enough being a babi at home, so now he's going to be a babi hutan for a few days~ *laughs*

**~~11th APRIL~~**
Nii-san came to pick me up from class, and surprise surprise. Sorng Yoong nii-chan purposely tagged along with nii-san to meet me ^^ That's so nice of him. It's been awhile since we met, and we spent the short ride back home insulting Backstreet Boys. *sweatdrop*

Nii-san : *tunes up the radio volume* Hey hey listen to this. It's BSB's new one.
S.Y : Wow.
Me : Aren't they supposed to be dead?
S.Y : yea man, those bitches
Nii-san : Their songs damn emo wei.
Me : Kinda different from their sappy love songs, ah well.

*conversations continues with loads of BSB insulting from me and Sorng Yoong nii-san, and then*

Nii-san : I actually kinda like this song. It's cool
S.Y : *looks at him* fuck~

Gawd I love his one liners to smitherines~

**~~12th APRIL~~**
Guava flavoured ice-cream is kinda nice. Jun Jun has a tendency to get her tongue stuck to the ice cream stick.....don't ask how.

Nii-san's quote during dinner time really sent me rolling around laughing.

"Getting A's nowadays are like Ikan Bilis. When you get you get alot."

Mum broke the news that she's going to Beijing with dad...and my kid sister. I can't go *pouts* Anyway, there's a good and bad side to it. I now have 6 totally freedom days without parental hassles, and 6 PEACEFUL days without a screeching brat at home XD Yay~ Already making gila plans to catch late-night shows with nii-san-tachi.

BGM : Sail Away - Enya

Fanmix forumer outing

2005-05-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Really, it was fun while it lasted X3

A bunch of the Fanmix forumers from Singapore and Penang dropped by KL to go on an anime shopping spree. They were here from Saturday till Monday (yesterday), but I daresay they only managed to anime shop on the last day, when I took the courtesy to bring them around town.

At first on Sunday, I couldn't contact them at all, and was already past the verge of giving up and wanted to spend the day at Amcorp to visit Hisashi and Ezel. Time of decision making : around midnight (?) Then 'dear' Max called my hp at 3.oo am @w@ He's ssooo lucky I was still in front of the computer then, and not in bed or I would have skinned him alive <___< My hp ringing at volume 3 in the dark of the night without a SINGLE sound downright scared the living hell out of me. And I was forced to wake up early the next day to meet them by 8.30 am. And it's Labour Day's holiday. >____<

Told mum I was going out to have breakfast with them, met them at Bukit Bintang Monorail station on Monday morning. It's the first time I met them, I'm still quite shock that Xin Li is going 20 soon >___< I had always assumed that she was only....15+. We then went for breakfast at McD @w@ The irony of irony... I mean, to travel hundreds of miles here to have McD??? It's like Malaysia has no food in the city in the morning. Which is true, there isn't =_____=|| We then headed to KLCC to get tickets into the Twin Towers (DON'T ASK! I never suggested it) then dropped by Kinokuniya to pick up some mangas. You are my princess is nice, only I never expected it to be a BL manga due to the totally harmless title ^^; Once again, imagine kids begging to buy that particular manga, parents will start suing everybody.

Hoshi actually fell for my sarcastic remark that my dad owns Dynasty hotel *sweatdrop* His damn innocent yet blur look sent all of us into fits of laughter. And he kept reminding me that he's a guy <_< Thanks to the time in the forum when I was utterly shock to find out he's a guy ( who happens to squeel like a rabid fangirl online and raves on and on about Tenipuri ) We left Dynasty after they checked out and went back to KLCC, just in the nick of time to get to the towers. That, my friends, was the STOOOPIDEST thing we did in the entire day, and in my entire lifetime >__< I don't really see the point of queing up for ages, freezing to a degree that my sinus could freeze, going through all sorts of security procedures, listening to the guide who can't speak properly and has gender issues, for 10 minutes at the skybridge, then come back down again. 10 minutes!!! The nyooness. And believe me, there was nothing much to see either. Two towers, and all we got to inspect was the bridge....... wow.... talk about big time dissapointment.

to quote Max : that's what you get for free

I'm so glad we didn't actually have to PAY for that. I would have seriously kicked myself in the ass if I did. No wonder no locals ever go there, they don't give a hoot about it.

Next, we stopped by at Sg.Wang's Suncomic, and they totally splurged their money there. Heck, thats Singaporeans for you *laughs* I've yet to meet a scarier impuls spender compared to Roy. While Su Li practically bought the whole set of Spiral~ Suiri no Kizuna's manga x___X!! my member card was badly abused *lol* After parting with Madness and Max later on (they had to take the early bus back to Penang) the rest of us had a bite (my dinner+breakfast+lunch), and then headed to S&M. I was planning to ditch them there and get to Amcorp when mum called and nagged me to get home early, and I got myself into a small argument with her, lastly was forbidden to leave for Amcorp. Damnation. PJ isn't exactly that far you know *twitches*

But instead of going home, I decided to stay behind and accompany them till their bus arrived....an hour later than scheduled. Call it a form of rebellion, whatever X3 had loads of fun then, I'm surprised at how well we actually click ^^; They're about the most animated bunch of people around. Meaning to say it's easy to spot that they're anime freaks =3

Mum called again to make sure of my whereabouts, sarcastically asking how long I plan to have breakfast with them =___=||

You know, it's not like I see them everyday. It's not like I can just call them up and invite them somewhere to YamCha one of these days. It's not like I can just call them and have a nice chat either. They're a bunch of people I know that comes from faraway places and Coconuts knows when's the next time we might group up together again, so why can't she just make allowance for this ONE TIME? Dang.

At least, I have secured at least 6 places in Singapore to stay-over if I ever head to Singapore for a holiday, hopefully at the end of this year. Hoshi and Roy seems to be extremely interested in offering their places, those perverts *laughs*

Will post pics once it's uploaded ^^ll but that might be after a week or two. I have exams coming up soon, so this shall also be my last post for the month. jya matta na

BGM : Your Eyes Only - EXILE

a hit back to reality

2005-05-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

I wonder if it's much more relieving or heartbreaking to know that you're not the only one having problems with your family.

Sometimes I feel glad, I suppose to know that others understand how lonely I feel, and I can go to them to pour everything. Sometimes, I wish I am the only one who has to go through these messes.

After a 10-hour long ceramah, most of the girls were in tears. It happened when the lecturer made us write a letter to ourselves for us to read in the future. He picked a few girls to go onstage and read out the letter that they wrote, and Veanne was included. Some of the girls at the back were already in tears writing their own letters, and when Veanne got onstage and started weeping, things got even worst.

I've seen Veanne cry before...once. She's a very strong, stubborn girl. I know, the one thing she hates the most is to let others see her weaknessess, and it must have been quite a toll to allow the whole F5 population to watch, and cry with her. Siew Teng, who always had that cheerful smile took it the worst. She couldn't contain anything anymore, and broke down. I accompanied her outside, and in the midst of sobs and shrieks, learned everything.

I felt like crying. But my tears can never fall that easily.

It's ironic, that the Councelling teachers have no idea the real reason why my friends cried. She had assumed we were despairing over our SPM and poor results. They have no idea. Yesterday, I witness how fragile life is. How everyone is desperately trying to please others, how people like Carmen and Veanne and even myself are fighting so desperately to get our parent's acknowledgement. I saw and it hit me for the first time, that we never show our true colours to anyone, even the closest people we trust.

It's as if we know, everyone have their bags of burden, let's not lag them down with our own.

The ceramah was supposed to be about Studying for SPM, in which Xiong Ie started sneezing after I told him so. Says he's allergic to bullshit <____< In the end things took a personal twist, and most of the chinese girls I know, tried to hid it back.

To Carmen, Veanne, Siew Teng, Sook Yee and others : Be strong, just focus on whatever your dreams are. I'm glad to know the few of you, and I'm happier to know you're willing to share your other half with me. *hugs* Trust, is a hurtful thing. Don't trust me, just take me as a place to relieve your problems, I'm better off that way.

And about Xiong Ie, yes we are talking again ^^ I'm glad.

BGM : Tsuki no Curse - Loveless

Singing sensation?? XD

2005-04-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

I think we managed to pull our ELS programme just nicely today XD

We have a special programme every Wednesday for about 15 minutes, and today the few of us just went ahead and sang our hearts out XD We sang Simple Plan's I'm Just a Kid, which earned us a round of applause from the small crowd. But when we belted out our 2nd song, Stay the Same by Joey McIntyre....PWHOORRH!! XD XD The crowd got bigger than I had hoped for, and the best part was they started to sing with us. Especially the Chinese gang that was hard to convince in the beginning of our programme. Later, Shana awed the crowd with her singing and guitar skills. She played Can't Help Falling in Love, and she CAN sing! wootness X3

After today's event, we officially got the acknowledgement from the Headmistress for our efforts, and she's pleased. Pn.Savitri's pleased, and that's about good enough.

Mum has already given the greenlights for me to go out this Sunday and Monday (holiday). Madness-tachi and the bunch of Fanmix forumers from Singapore are coming down then, and I've already half given my word to bring them around previously. Only problem is they'll be at Subang, and I'm damn lazy to get anywhere that far =_____= I don't enjoy the KTM train rides like Kitsune, for one thing.

----------ANIME----------

Marchen Awake Romance
2nd fansubbed episode out and available. Get it from animesuki XD

Love Monster
Manga vol.6 is finally out. Wanted to mention this earlier but kinda slipped my mind.

BGM : Kono yo ga Hatetemo Hanarenai - Ayashi No Ceres

maketa maketa~~ whheeee~

2005-04-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

We won the first round against ACS Ipoh, lost the second round to Sri Aman girl school. And that's about it.

I even met Yen Shine at HELP after like what....a year and a half now? And he's already taller than me!!! I remember in F3 I had assumed he was Wye Ee's little brother who tagged along to Kasturi with her =____=|| That shorty ish taller than me now!! Gaarr~ And to make things worst, he actually petted my head like I was the little girl instead...that creep =___= He's the debater for Kepong Baru school, not sure how they went though, I think they died-ed in the first round itself, since I didn't see their name later on.

And I got to know a guy, Marcus, Who's a friend of Thevini and Rashvin-tachi from Kajang High. He's one of the funniest, most sporting debater I've seen XD XD It was like, OMG he's so hilarious. I've never seen a 3rd speaker so funnily spontanious, cracking jokes on the spot. Besides, he's quite a nice guy. And I thought Jia Hui was good...dang~ Then there's another, Alex, A Sri Lankan foreign student studying in HELP whom we met on the first day itself. Actually, he was interested in Thevini, and made moves to get close to all of us ^^; It's a good thing Pn.Savitri was actually fine with it all. Alex was about our only supporter during both debates..*Sweat* And somewhat like our bodyguard cause he followed us around EVERYWHERE, even to Dunkin Doughnuts after we lost. It was only after we bid goodbye on Sunday that it dawned to me how freakingly famous Alex actually is.

For one, he's a national cricket player for Sri Lanka. Cricket is LIFE in Sri Lanka. He's ex girlfriend is an actress O.o And he has the hots for Thevini now...OMG~ He even called up his MOM in Sri Lanka and told her about us...well mostly bout Thevini I suppose. I doubt that'll be the last we see of him, cause Thevini and Rashvin is hell bent on going back to HELP for the next few debate rounds (yea, just to see him XD) and I'm tagging to support Kajang High if they make it. And yes, to see that really really cute guy there in HELPs >__< I know most of you must have already heard about it from Thevini, she's been telling the WHOLE world about my blunder, including to Pn.Savitri.

What happened?

I was practising my speech along the walkway with Rashvin, and was going quite fast when this cute looking chinese guy who looks like Cikgu Fong for some reason walked past. My first reaction when I saw him was that I thought he looked cute, and suddenly muttered : OMG cute guy! in between my speech =_____=|| He heard me, OMG, paused, turned around and smiled sheepishly >______< That was about the most embarrasing thing ever....*sweatdrop* Obviously Rashvin and Thevini saw the whole thing...and won't stop talking about it......kyaa~

Reputation in school is officially dead <___<

I'm just glad that none of these happened on Sunday, because my mom and nii-san came to watch. Which was another horror. My nii-san purposely woke up early to make it for my debate. I think that's about the first time in the history of my short 16 years of living. They suspected that nii-san was my boyfriend, and just about self-comfirmed it when they saw nii-san feeding me some fruits after the debate at the makan hall ( I had my hands full with stuff then ) I was cornered and interrogated promptly @w@ WTH....nii-san was just suddenly, very nice. Or was he just trying to cheer me up, since I did mention I didn't feel like eating doughnuts anymore.

But thanks for staying up late with me the night before while I was completing my text...

After Sunday's debate, Thevini's sister dropped me off at Times Square to meet up with Aiko and Chris (it was Aiko's birthday!!) I was a bit early, I think Aiko was still in class then, so I headed to Borders, the new bookstore there. I spent ages just reading Angel Sanctuary there XD It's in english, and ish not wrapped up. Gawd I don't have to buy mangas, I can just go there and read. They have BL mangas that are not wrapped either....abunai abunai~ what if an innocent kid just flips through the manga ... and ends up with a page with two guys kissig? O___o Imagine the parent's horror.

Then headed up 'home' around 3pm, found Camelia and Rei-kun there. Chris and Aiko came awhile later, and we had havoc everywhere XD I've come up with the conclusion that they're about the most perverted pair of couple I've come across XD So cute!!! *glomps* Joshi came later, and his hair is like Cloud Strife already ^^; Xiao-Ying, Jace, Teh-O came too, but left early. Later, the 3 of us (Chris and AikO) dropped by in Sg.Wang to get Aiko a deck of tarot cards WOOT WOOT!! I have a good friend who likes tarots!! OMG the happiness~ And I know where to get a new deck of English tarot cards, DOUBLE HAPPINESS!!! Now I just need the money..... @w@

And thanks for fetching me home so late at night ^^|| Especially since you guys were so busy having plans then... sorry nyuuuuu~~~

-------------today-----------------

Thevini finally came to school today, after skipping school yesterday. We had loads to catch up with. During recess, Sandy came along and began bursting about Tommy and his bastardly ways again. Please, don't mind my language. Anyway, he's really gotten on my nerve this time round, and I'll gladly give him a piece of my mind the next time I see him. She was getting all fired up I had to drag her to the Prefect's room, and we had loads of havoc there, with curses and stuff flying in the air. I think we got a bit too loud too, and words got out that we were fighting in there.

Which in fact, we weren't. Of course

But, Pn.Salina than sent for Thevini and me to see her after recess to explain stuff. She assumed that the both of us were fighting. The both of us looked at each other and burst out laughing. I tried to explain, and then she asked if Sandy had an affair or some sort with Tommy, and the both of us burst out laughing again. Gawd, we went hysterical with laughter in the teacher's room. Then she thought that Sandy and I were fighting (prolly over some guy or something in her mind) and I had to talk another lenghty round explaining to her that's not the case. And she let us go, with us laughing all the way back to class.

I can't believe that anyone would even think about me and Sandy ever fighting ^^; I really cannot imagine the situation where we'll end up fighting.... lol~ BGM : Kokoro no Hadaka - Rurouni Kenshin

Finally figured out Streamload

2005-04-21T18:23:00.000+08:00

I got my streamload account lately, and JUST JUST figured out how it works. Dang.. sure took me a long time. I'm an idiot that doesn't understand how things works....Explains the reeking of my brain, overloaded with junks not meant to be there. *Sigh*

Currently on a manga streamloading rampage XD I finally have Apochirpha!!! *huggles self* I love Platina to smitherines~

Shinnoir nii-san >> I have the mangas you requested last from Desperate-Love, I just need to know how to pass it to you.

BGM : Place - Hoshi Soichirou - Sukisyo!

Fong Sensei ish cute

2005-04-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

Just completed watching a few more animes during the very limited spare time of mine. Loved them all XD

Kasho no Tsuki
Has a little BL teasing, but not so if you keep in mind that Kagetsu is still in a unisex form until he unites with another. Not exactly recommended by yours truly, the animation is only so-so but certain parts are quite...erm...nice ^____^

Loveless
Haven't got this one? Please, make your way towards the nearest wall and do yourself a favour. Bang your head on it. Warning though, it's BL so guys might not enjoy it. However, the animation is absalutely gorgeous. There's hardly any anime out there that can match the watercolour like CG of the anime. Worth the get for those who appreciates good art. Get the manga too while you're at it.

MaR (Marchen Awaken Romance)
So far I've got only one eps of this, it's really nice and cute XD Follows the manga. Alviss is a bishie, nuff said. XD

------today-----------

I have a cute BIo teacher in tuition. It just hit me lately that he's actually a bishie (Apparently I am very slow in realising stuff like this) I'd understand if the Chinese girls are oogling at him (he's a chinese, of course) but having indian friends confessing that he's cute is ...wow~ Thevini just declared she'd be the happiest girl in the world if she married him. Don't ask any questions....O___o

BIo class is on Saturdays, and I can't go for Bio class this week. Damnation. Can't even get a replacement class for Bio. DOuble Damnation.

Dang. I need a life.

BGM : Reverse - Mitsuki Saiga - Nurse Witch

change of blogskin

2005-04-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

I changed my blogskin again...cause lately I have been very very much addicted to Kaori Yuki's work ^^;; I'm not THAT familiar with Angel Sanc, but I love this layout for some reason..... Wish I can get a Count Cain BL with Riff though..... *begins to imagine stuff again*

*shakes head away*

Kay kay, nuff said. Some changes includes the links to other blogs. Wye Ee's blog link is now Shinichi (upon request). Yagami and Hitokiri Sien's blog link has been added ^^ Among other random changes here and there. If the wordings aren't too clear, be it either two small or something, just drop a line and say so ^^ Personally I think it's fine.

--------TODAY--------------

I feel like I belong to Wye Ee's family O____O

So far, I've almost always have lunch with her on Sundays. We'll have Wan Tan Mee in Petaling Street with her mum ^^ And her mum's so warm and nice *smiles* I kinda feel guilty U___U Then today I even tagged along with her parents to shop at UdaOcean woot woot!! Mum was running late in picking me up, and her dad insisted we all go for McDonald <__< THEN he insisted that he'll fetch me home when I informed mum I'll head home by myself O_____O

Yaaahhh I'm so grateful ^^ A bit uneasy and guilty-stricken, but grateful nontheless

At one point, Wye Ee refused to go back to find her mum, and I refused to go wait for mine, and we changed directions, looking for each other's mum O__O It felt like we were planning to change families for a moment there *blinks blinks* Come to think of it, we really DO look like sisters. A few friends have asked if she was my sister, and nii-san once joked and ask if I had a twin we never knew =_____=||

BGM : Jakunetsu Blade - Bad Luck - Gravitation

a day out with minna-san

2005-04-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

An outing with a few CFers. What fun!

Went for class as usual today, and then met up with a bunch of forumers at S&M plaza after getting Getbackers 26 (YESH! FINALLY ISH OUT!!). At first, my only goal was to meet Camelia, and get the Meine Liebe ps2 game for her. Turned out to be a 8 party in the end. XD Surprisingly, Hitokiri, Yukiko, Aoi, Ayase, Shingo and BMJ popped up too XD.

We had a hard time grouping up though, with Hitokiri, Shingo and Yukiko leaving for Popular while we waited for BMJ and Camelia. Then, we decided to look for them, only realising there's two Popular bookstore in Chinatown. First we went to the old bookstore after I lost the bet. It was 7 against 1 >____< but I was right after all *laughs* Hitokiri was waiting for us opposite the new Popular... and Shingo-tachi went back to S&M plaza <___< Wild goose chase under the drizzle of rain....And Hitokiri bought a huge Gon plushie!! OMGNESS!!! It's SHoooOOoo cute!!~ Later after much debate, we settled to Yam Cha before anything else, and BMJ brought us to a weird....place somewhere opposite Kota Raya, a place I never expected to even exist O___o Anyway, the place ish rather cool ^^

I think we spent about the entire day there, chatting about everything under the sun. Everything was just hilarious, especially Shingo who shared his 'communication breakdown' epic in Penang and Japan. Boy, we were so noisy the small mise was on the verge of experiencing another tsunami wave =___=|| Besides that, the two guys were constantly reminded that they were sitting with a BL-loving fangirl group, with gang leader Ayase cheering us on with BL topics, and then the exchange of BL goodies sprawling over the table. I can still remember BMJ's horrified look when he saw the Sukisyo BL drama, and I accidently mentioned too loudly to Hitokiri what it was ^^;; whoopsie~

We then left for Sg.Wang by Monorail, and headed "home". By that I guess most of you realise I meant Suncomic *laughs* Anyway, the Harukanaru Soundtrack cd that I wanted hasn't arrive yet, so I didn't get anything >.< Not like I had the money to nyaa...must save up to get a new set of Tarots ^^;; Then met up with Lowiesclw ( I think that's how you spell her name....) and split up to different locations to eat. BMJ and Lowies wanted vegetarian, Camelia, Ayase and Aoi wanted to hang around while the rest of us headed to Times Square for dinner(?) It wasn't a good dinner. For starters, Hitokiri accidently dropped the salt bottle using her Gon's tail, causing to smash dramatically on the floor, and the owner was definately not please. In fact, she was smashing a huge ice-block right after that with a huge poking thingy. We suspect she was venting out her anger *sweatdrop* The food, sucked. Lastly to make things worst, the owner totally ignored us with a hard face when we all apologised when we paid our meals. Shingo said she must just be bitter cause she doesn't have much patrons. (we were about the only ones beside another couple who weren't eating)

Around that time, there was a SERIOUS communication breakdown with everyone *sweatdrop* Ayase thought we were in Low Yat's 4th floor, and that sent the 3 of them on a wild goose chase. Then Ayase told Jun Jun-tachi who were already at TS that we were in Low Yat, and they headed there too. BMJ-tachi was upstairs in the arcades looking for us. At last, I called Jun Jun and made them come back to TS, all 5 of them. Hisashi, Guest18, Celica, Hikki_Mikage and Jun Jun. WOOT! 3 guys and 2 girls jaywalking late in the evening!!! O___o abunai yo....abunai... Later went upstairs and caught BMJ in time before he decided to go up to the 10th floor to look for us O__o Ayase-tachi came back about that time too, luckily that ish ^^;

We spent a little time at the arcades, I finally got to EZ2D again after so long ^^|| was a bit rusty though. Bumped into Tommy there, I think he's fine for now ^^ Once he gets genki again I can start calling him Sotong again. I found another Sotong...BMJ =___=|| I noticed when he was dancing double and his movements sorta reminded me of a squid at certain points. Everyone left quite early, and we left awhile later too. Most of us took the monorail back, and I headed home alone *Sigh*

Thank you minna, for the small outing. Everything happened in a very unexpected way (like every other time) but I enjoyed myself to bits ^^ Quite a good break for me from everything *laughs*

Things to remember? 4 things. When going to Japan 1) take crash comm skills from Shigo 2) learn sign movements 3) always bring paper and pen (and erasers if necessary) 4) learn Bahasa Malaysia

I'm still rolling over the floor recalling everything ^^;

BGM : Rain of Pain - Da Pump

AFS!!!

2005-04-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

I couldn't get out of debate TT____TT Help me....~~

I guess things aren't that bad.

We had to meet Pn.Savitri today, and she got us in with a few *minor* details. Like, all the pro schools are going in (yea, like we didn't know THAT) We'll be competing on the 23rd of April, that's a Saturday, at HELP's Institute main block....wherever that is. We'll be going against, of all the schools in Malaysia that consist of 13 states and probably more schools than you think, is ACS Ipoh. X____x!!! Why...... Anyway, I suppose it's better than going against St.Micheal, who falls under the same group too ^^;;;

I've gone surfing for information on our debate topic, which we've been set as the Government. My verdict? We're DEAD!!!!

Even more so since the headmistress has informed us she wants to ATTEND our competition. We're screwed, big time >___<

Gawd, all of these stress and tension building. Just directly before the school mid terms even @w@ I don't think I can handle it..... wootness~

Oh the bright side. I went to see the doc today after experiencing with some chest pains. (No, that's not the bright side...) Her husband, a volunteer and the AFS (izzit AFS?) organisation and I talked about the students exchange programme. Then, out of the blue he called the headquarters and made me talk to the lady in charge O___o He actually MADE them send the forms to me, instead of me going to them (which was my first intentions) He let me in on most of the requirements, and stuff like that. Mum was listening most of the time, and *she*, no I, has decided that should I want to go for the programme, I'd take the year long exchange programme after SPM. X___x!! One whole freaking year!!~ And a whopping 20K minus expenses @w@ I love my mum, but she's actually making me feel very guilty for even considering spending such a scary amount of money on myself U___U

Of course, it's not certain that I'll even get it in the first place. Just hoping for the best ^^

Oh yea, after all that talk and excitement, chest pain was forgotten XD

BGM : Never Surrender - Tezuka Kunimitsu - Prince of Tennis

the rain

2005-04-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

It's been raining a lot lately hasn't it?

I don't know when it began, but i feel more and more attached to the rain. Sometimes it feels, like it's pouring out everything inside of me. Perhaps that's why, I love to stand and walk under the rain so much lately. It doesn' bother me anymore, but rather soothes me late at night, being alone in the hall just watching from the window ^^ I can't sleep lately, too many things just burst right into my head the moment I lie down. And believe me, nothing is pretty when you're deprived from sleep.

That aside, I'm glad that the volleyball competition held in Sri Garden for the past week is finally over. Apart from the fact that it's been dragging me down academically and exhausted me both mentally and physically, my efforts in making everything go smooth for the sake of our dumbass school has gone totally unappreciated. Some people, it seems, needs to be seriously yelled at in a very desperate tone budge and give cooperation. This happened with my girls that were under my charge. Being selfish, and inconsiderate of others, I finally saw the true self of people that claims to be other's friends. In the end, I totally lost my temper and gave them all a piece of my mind, but careful enough not to name anyone. I did, however name those who were extremely helpful, just a reminder to them that were totally the opposite. Veanne and Sharmila, Goddess knows how much I love and appreciate everything that they've done. Thank you both especially so very much ^_^ On the last day, I took desperate measures and forced everyone to switch duties and roles, which went on very smoothly (thank the Goddess U__U), mainly due to Veanne and Sharmila insisting on handling the most back-aching jobs until the very end. And Maha was very cute. I made her rest from her post after being under the hot sun for days, while I took on her position. She felt SOOOoo guilty for not doing anything and was begging for something to do <.<

Friends, when forced into difficult and trying situations, shows their true colours.

Special thanks and apologies to Wee Li-chan, for troubling you with my homework, and making you worry over me >__<

And a plus side. I'm officially malay-nised. No thanks to the scorching hot sun and a bottle of useless so called UV proof lotion. Heck, if I were to wear a tudung now on one will suspect my origins XD I can even pass for a Chindian woot woot!!~ I don't understand how come other's are having peeling skins and I'm not. At least, when their dry skins peel off, they'll go back to their original skin colour no? I feel like mine is going to stay forever....~ And my dreaded acnes I thought I've gotten rid once and for all!! Well, not exactly, but I did manage to keep them to the very minimum lately it's hardly noticible. Now it's popped up like daisies again.

After all this, I don't want to be involve in anything related to any school outdoor activities. The teachers can find someone else capable enough to handle the Merentas Desa, thank you very much. Hell, I don't even want to be in the debate team, at the rate it's dragging me behind in everything. No, if what happened is the cause of my lack of enthusiasme is playing in your mind, you're wrong. I'm not the only one anyway. Rashvinder-tachi whole heartedly declared they don't want to be part of any debate anymore. Nonetheless, we have no idea on how to break the news to Pn.Savitri. Either because we feel guilty inside, or she's just plain scary, we just can't.

Oh, and something important for everyone that's reading this. I'm changing my handphone number soon, as soon as tomorrow if all goes well. Something totally idiotic I did haywired my sim-card, resulting it to be rejected and extinct. I've lost my most precious collection along with it, the numbers of everyone I know. So I'll need to start collecting back from you all. However! Please do not post your number here, capish? You'll never know what kind of pyschotic serial killer or peodophile might be lurking here. PMs will be sent to those who have forum accounts that I frequent, others...somehow or rather I'll get your numbers, and send you a text message soon ^^;

- Holding on to an undeletable past, "this rain can wash everything away" that's what I wished - Gojyo, Gensoumaden Saiyuki

Rain
wash away all my pain
drain away my tears
flow deep within my blood
extract away the fears

Rain
make this all go away
if hurt and dejection
is what it's all about
i'd rather have no emotion

when the thunderstorm is over
don't expect a rainbow to shine,

Rain
a drop of tear you come
far above from heaven's eyes
the screams of my heart
louder than Lucifer's cries

Rain
pools of blood is what you seem
on this bloodied hands of mine
trickling down innocently
like a cup of the finest wine

when the darkness has passed
don't expect a rainbow to appear
BGM : Rakuen~ Fanatic - D.N.Angel

i'm sorry for everything

2005-04-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Ok. Here's my turn for a say. YEs. No excuses from me here anymore this time. I was ticked off. I was VERY ticked off. I have been so ever since all of everything happened, but I never really said anything, I didn't want to, and I couldn't. Until... yea until I went ahead and disturbed Xiong Ie. I should have known better, and just shut up. Anyway, it did agitate me abit, more or less the reasons you know why. For awhile then, it felt like you took what you knew like the discovery of the 8th wonder of the world. =___=|| And I didn't see the point of that.

Look, I'm very fragile inside... and even though I did brush aside that I'm ok, things like emotions just doesn't go away like that in an instant. Especially since this is the first time it's happened to me, I take it rather badly. And believe me, I'm not very good with my emotions. You can say I'm emotionally unbalanced, whatever. I still cry.... I still regret too. I still wonder, about everything that happened. Why the hell everyone has to keep things from me. It's straining you know? When you know the whole world knows something about you, but you yourself have no freaking idea about what's going on. In the end, I suppose I most regret being who I am. I know it may sound stooopid that I'm get worked up over these stuff, but hey, I'm human too.

I'm sorry. Both to you Michy, and Xiong Ie.

Lately my moods have been very unsettling. Michy you know that too, at the rate you see me blowing my fuse in school and all. Raihana wasn't my first innocent victim. I'm sorry for being so stressed up. I'm sorry for having such a hard time with everything now. I'm sorry for blowing my top on you like I did. I know I don't have the right be angry at either one of you, so I'm sorry.

I'll be fine in a few days. Being away from school and having so many things to handle now itself in Sri Garden, I don't have time to layan my own feelings, so being numb for a week or so will be good. The workload is keeping me from even thinking straight, so I don't feel anything now.

I'm having enough to coop up with school and other activities, I don't need more strain on my social life, between my friends even. I don't want to, because of me, prevent you and xiong ie from ever talking to each other again, or whatsoever. You two can ignore me for all I care, perhaps that might be the best for all of us too. I'm pretty much tired to do anything. Frankly, I've had enough.

To Xiong Ie >> I'm sorry if I made you feel guilty. I shouldn't have said or asked anything in the first place. And after such a long time when I thought I could at last talk to you, I blew everything away huh... such a dumbass I am.

To Michy >> I'm sorry too. I forgot it's your blog, and there it's your world, you have EVERY RIGHT to blog what you want, what you wish. As for Xiong Ie being your friend too, you had every right just the same to talk to him whatever you wish. I had no right to prevent you from talking about me, about Joshi... or anything in the first place. Sorry.

To everyone else >> Please completely ignore the post above. But since you've already reached to this message, I assume you've read the rest. PLEASE do not give any opinion on who's right, who's wrong. I DON'T WANT TO READ, HEAR or SEE ANY DAMN COMMENTS. I DON'T NEED anymore fire being added in. Thanks. And I'm sorry too, for whoever that is reading this and is worried or something.

Just leave me alone for a few days, and I'll leave you all alone for a few days. Hopefully then everything will be fine, and things can go back to normal. Let's just forget about the whole issue, kay?

BGM : pieces - W~inds

thanks for the weekend minna!

2005-04-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

Now then, the weekend ended with quite a nice tone for me.

Went to meet up with Hisashi on Friday after school to watch Hitch. Believe me, I chose the wrong movie =___=|| Though, It WAS enjoyable, but it's really more of a romance movie suitable for couples... and we're not <.< But I dare say we were almost acting like one o.O Anyway, thanks for the movie, and listening to my constant rants about school. I know you don't deserved to be tortured like this by me *laughs*

Then, went to look for Wee Li-tachi at Times Square on Saturday (yesterday). I just had to go since she made such a huge sacrifice to go out ^^ Met up with Wee Li, Iris-chan and Yagami. Was actually expecting Joshi-tachi, but it turned out they went to TS today instead, the whole gang of them. Dang~ It's nice to see ya again Iris-chan!! You're still as cheeky as ever...please, just let that subject die wei T____T

Anyway, I'm just going to declare that I'm fine now ^^ In case some of you still don't get the message, or won't believe me for some reasons......*looks at joshi and hisashi* I know I'm no more alone now, I have great and wonderful friends like you lot of people! Who have nothing better to do than to waste time reading this!! Woot woot!! XD *huggles everyone* Special thanks to Aiko *glomps* and to Wee Li *glomps*, who's always been there for me. Thanks Ezel, for your nice prep talks at times ^^ I really, really appreciate those. I still don't get what trust *really* is, perhaps it's because I can never learn now to trust myself with my feelings? ^^;;

Eeee...I got drenched wet again today (hooray...bleh) Happens when you roam around Petaling Street aimlessly in search for anime at the wrong time. I just got Tactics 9-16, couldn't get Count Cain (bummer). I want Count Cain!!!! Just got info from Cruelneko that it really IS Shounen ai after all X3 OMG it's a dream come true!!!!~~ *turns into kaede goo* Anyway back to where I was...where was I? Ah, right. I'm coming down with flu again!!!~ X3 Oh the joys of being sick. By the way, I won't be in school for the whole of next week.

Which serves as a good thing. There's just a few peeps I really don't feel like facing for the moment. I just felt badly stabbed and the last thing I want to happen is finding myself flinging at the poor girl with maddening rage like how I sometimes burst into and kill her. XD NO MATTER how much she might deserve it. No, I'm not going to spill what happened or who is it. As much as I hate her and her right now attitude, she at least deserves to remain anonymous. For my sake <.< For a moment, I was dying to go to school tomorrow to seriously trash her in the face, but nah. I must learn to keep my cool ^___-

I know I have more to say, but I can't think. This usually happens, I always find good things to blog about, but once I sit in front of the computer, WHAM! Lost data. I blame my cousin for this. Sher Au is just the type of Cancer guy who won't give up being beaten by me in online checkers XD XD

Shinichi-chan!! Genki da ne!!! Mou nakinaide kudasai!!!! *huggles you*

BGM : Karin - Kazuki's theme - Getbackers - Hoshi Soichirou

we lost in debate

2005-03-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Everything is going so not well today.

First we had another building rocking experience yesterday, around midnight and my whole family had to rush down 13 flights of stairs. AGAIN! I was lying down on my bed enjoying Count Cain vol.6 (Ok, I'm not supposed to do that...lying down while reading) when I felt like some devil was rocking my bed, until I realised the bundles of necklaces I hang around the handle of my cupboard was actually swaying X___x!! We also noticed that the water from the swimming pool downstairs spilled out, woot woot!!~ Coolios XD

Thanks to mother earth's farting, I didn't manage to get enough sleep. Obviously Raihana didn't either, and she was late to school today. THAT caused us precious time in getting the skirt for Mei Yi. Pn.Savitri almost choked us to death, and I think she's still dead bent in killing Raihana later *sweatdrop*. We then headed to Jalan Ipoh Girl School for the debate against TTDI (Which we lost by the way XD)

Went there and realised their first speaker was Hazwani, a girl I befriended quite sometime ago during the Merdeka performance last year. Dang, she's a very good U___U I don't like their third speaker's guts. I know, I know, it's his job to degrade our points, but to the point of using flowery insults to hit us, ughhhh <.< I wish I could strangle him. And Syaheera-tachi noted that he's cute looking. WOOT! Him? Good looking? <.< You people definately fail as bishie hunters bwahahhhaaha

We lost, and I'm very relieved. At least, we don't have to toil around for it anymore. Pn.Salina's already majorly pissed off with Pn.Savitri for keeping me from my prefect duties. Uh, but we still have to start practising for the debate competition organised by HELP Institute, which starts off somewhere next month.

I'm also officially labelled lesbian in Jalan Ipoh school =___=|| That's thanks to Ayase who spotted me during her recess hours in the canteen, and she practically pounced on me with a mega glomp. Oww~ XD And she wouldn't let go *lol* I noticed, in fact everyone noticed, the horrified looks on everyone else when we were still hugging ^^;; Thank goodness I didn't fall off into the longkang behind us..woot~ (eto, been using woots alot lately) I also bumped into Shalini, well actually she spotted me first. It's been AGES since I met her, ah rindunyeerrrr~~~ *huggles* She's agreed to accompany me for Bio classes now ^w^ I'm not alone anymore wheeee~ Yes, lately I'm afraid of being alone. U.U

And that's about it. I got home and fell asleep before I could take a shower, and didn't wake up until dad had to violently shake me. No, I'm exxagerating lah. I think I need to go back to sleep... I'm being deprived of precious sleep lately, I swear I have bags around my eyes now and look no less than a mutated panda.

BGM : Fantasy - Nana Katase - Hikaru no Go

Aarinfantasy rocks!

2005-03-28T19:10:00.000+08:00

FWAH!!!!~~~

Spent the whole day in school practising for tomorrow's debate >___< My eyes hurt, my head hurts... and my stomach was empty the whole day, despite the fact that i ate a hearty place of nasi lemak after recess .... uh~ I really need to understand the term diet and it's main purpose <.< Anyway (lol I really love this word), we'll be goin against TTDI tomorrow, and of all schools in Jalan Ipoh, wherever that is *sweatdrop* All I know ish, Ayase-tachi studies there (In the middle of nowhere that ish) but I won't be meeting any of them cause they have an examination going on.

It's ok Ayase-chan!! I know you're fretting because it's your birthday and you have exams. Think about it...my birthday is during SPM trials <.<

But there ish good news too! (at least for me XD meh) Now am currently in a BL high mood, since I went and re-registered in aarinfantasy, and OMGBBQ GAWDaMNit!!!! =3 Lots of yummy stuff to download su!~ Currently getting Sukisyo's drama cd, Sunao's Image album (Because of Hoshi Soichiro <3), Sukisyo's game ...there's lot of that by the way, Okane ga Nai (No idea what it is, just heard that it's nice from the hardcore fangirls) and Silver Chao's drama CD. Uh...can die of happiness XD This is actually better than KeixRyu.. [ cue : Truckloads of tomatoes hurling at Kaede, courtesy of a very angry Megumi-chan ] BL ish LOVE~ nuff said. Ah, and I also got Iceman's live act on Shining Collection suu!!!~ ( Gravitation, in case you're wondering )

My computer is running low on space.... I need to burn off most of my stuff, but I dunno where to begin. Yarks.. my mp3 collection itself has somehow accumulated to a whopping 4.3Gb without me noticing U__U

Kyah...I'll get back to that later, I need to go get changed now. Am going off to Sedaya College to watch the fund-raising event, or whatever it actually is. Mum is actually casual in letting me out lately, what's happening @___@ I think somehow she and Kitsune's mum has switched roles... woot woot!

Till then people. Wish me luck for tomorrow!!!~ XD XD

BGM : Making Better Place - Seki Tomokazu

*Edited*

Nyaaa, just came back from Sedaya College. Though it wasn't much, I had my fair share of a good time there ^^ Thanks minna-san who was there to accompany lil' old me nyuu~ Setsuna, Hisashi, Yumi, Gan, Ciel XD XD I enjoy rocking to Glay's songs, yea!!~ Only thing is I am dead certain I was the youngest there, and was the ONLY one who had my mum escort me right up to the stairs. I noticed that the few guys that approached me for the tickets were like O.O WTF! SHE BROUGHT HER MOM!!!!~ <.< Lol. It was funny when the guy, Brian, was it.. said to mum : Oh, the gig ends about 10.30, you can pick up your daughter by then ^^ *groans*

Ok. So I admit I was VERY glad mum decided she'll let me party with my friends alone, despite the fact I DID ask her to come along and see. I, at least wanted her to understand I enjoy J-rock, apparently she still doesn't =___=|| But.... she's so darn encouraging me to do things I love lately!!!~

Looking back, she' NEVER stopped me from doing things I wanted since the beginning of the year. I still get to go out, though not as often. I've been to ALL the outings and events I wanted to, even this last minute planning to Sedaya, which is BTW held at night. Dad urged me to attend EMINA instead of going for a family function, how cool is that? XD XD Hey, my parents aren't messengers from hell after all. *huggles*

Oh yea, anyone noticed that it's Monday, and I still have my streamyx connection? XD hehehheheh~

BGM - Shining Collection (Live Performance) ~ ICEMAN (DANGNABBIT! I love this PV!)

Wicca book in Popular

2005-03-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

Fell in love with a book I came across in Popular today. Tarots and Spellmaking.

The book has quite an insight of tarot reading and magick, and much need explainatory on the magickal tools needed for spell makings, not to mention quite a handful of general spells and works that can be done with the tarot cards. I wish to get that book soon, the part about self-initation attracted me, I would love to be initiated, I suppose. Unfortunately I didn't have the chance to browse through the necessary preperations in the book cause mum was already waiting for me outside. Though I had enough money to buy it on the spot, I didn't. I know mum doesn't really appreciate the fact I'm into Wicca in the first place U___U She's not exactly against it, but she doesn't like it.

I know it's not good to do things behind my parents back, but I just need to explore a bit before being stopped. I want that darn book!!!! I have yet to start any curses yet, so I think I'll start with some simple spells... nyuuu~ I want that book suu!!~ <.< I forgot I don't exactly have a place to place the altar or perform any small rites.... bleh~ I also need to get a proper deck of tarot cards...having a few deck with animes on it just doesn't feel right. (I drool on the bishies instead of concentrating when doing tarot readings U.U)

I called Hisashi earlier and had a nice long chat with him, talking about his rather complex emotional turbulance. In fact I should thank him, for talking with him I now realise I'm really ok. Yea, so I was dissapointed in someone before, but I've figured I don't care anymore. I'm not irritated with anyone anymore, like I was a few days back. (Heck, then, everyone got on my nerve =___=||) I'm glad he's happy now, so that's that XD Life as a lonesome gal who hunts bishies mercilessly is resuming on a nice pace, I'm glad. But it's weird though, I scare myself. He was the first guy I have ever seriously wanted to get close to and know more about, to understand. (Dang I sound so oddly mushy =__=) But after awhile the feeling just died-ed. Nyah. I have unstable hormones..... I feel like, I am actually an emotionless whacko who just lets go too easily. XD

Wye Ee, or Shinichi as she now prefers to be called, actually had the nerve to say I look feminine today <.< I don't even know if I should take that as a compliment or an insult... I bet she's brawling all over laughing her guts out by now. Remind me never to wear that dumb pink baby T ever again.

Lastly a bit on updates. There's some fund-raising performance in Sedaya College tomorrow (MOnday) around 7.oopm onwards. I'm not sure until what time though. They have some live band (by youths I suppose) performing. Entrance fee is RM3.oo, according to reliable sources (blah, it's just Hisashi) Sedaya College is in Cheras now, somewhere in Taman Connought. For those of you who are direction blind, sorry can't help ya. I'm no better off. Reason why I'm promoting? Hisashi and his Tenshi band is also part of the performance, and they're doing an ALL GLAY PERFORMANCE WOOHOOOO!!!!!~~~ XD <<-- So I'm a huge Glay fan, so beat me up then XD I'll be going there with Mum ^^ Only thing I'm worried bout is Hisashi is actually eager to meet her...

BGM : Stay Away - Larc~En~Ciel

enima <--> anime

2005-03-27T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today's the day of Emina <----> Anime.

Arrived there rather late, about 1.oopm thanks to Nii-san's driving. Actually, he's innocent really, but I just feel the need to blame him for something. Besides, he was late a good half hour from picking me up from school, drives recklessly until I almost spilled the drink I was only unto my uniform. I "almost" have the rights to blame him for anything. XD

Nii-san, future nee-san-in-law (Cherry) and I headed to MMU together. The both of them are apparently still in shock that a huge 3-day event has taken place in THEIR university, right behind THEIR faculty, and they have no idea about it. =____=|| Mind you, it's 3 days.

But anyway, the whole event was downright dissapointing. It's rather small and uneventful if compared to successes such as CosMas and CF. The fact that I didn't have my camera and am not cosplaying, plus having Aoi following around me so much that it's freaky didn't really ease the situation. On lighter notes there were the few usual cosplayers, and some rather nice looking goth cosplayers XD XD Darn those were cool. And...that's about it.

Explains why I got home very early today. Sigh.

Good news is, Ayase introduced the tailor she's frequent, and apparently she does quite an ok job and the pricing ish like...dirt cheap. Thing is, she can't do fancy costumes U__U Luckily BMJ revived back the SDK thread and sort of reminded me of cosplaying Sakuya. I was SUPPOSED to be in that group along with Masa-tachi. One of these fine non-raining days, I'll have to hunt that tailor down.

Oh, and today's both Hisashi's and Aoi's birthday, so happy birthday to you both. To Aoi >> damn you're so bloody ungrateful =___=|| At least they bought you a freaking cake.

Mum justed threated to cut off the streamyx line by Monday, thanks to my baka ototo here who has no damn self-control of his hormons (yea, girls) Kids nowadays...sigh. I wish I could hang him upside down until blood spills from his ears. Anyway, if you don't see any updates here soon, you know what happened. Till then.

BGM : Just a survivor - Sukisyo

he's got a gf now

2005-03-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

Nyaaa Another once in a blue moon post >.< I'm darn lazy, I know. Please, feel free to shoot the brains out of my skull XD

I WAS intending to continue blogging after my last post, but something came up and I feel into a thwirl of depression for awhile until about, woot, yesterday? And got better ^^;; I'm an angsty girl, yes I am.

And then there was the debate nonsense that I got stuck in. It was rather difficult to blend debate in with school life, and Pn.Savitri is no angel when it comes to drilling us. Luckily, our efforts paid off on a very nice note, and we won our first debate ever XD Yayness!!~ Until we realised we'll need to suffer another week for the next round...boohooo~ And to think, our next round is against Taman Tun Dr.Ismail...waaahhhh The horror >.< I'm torn between wanting to lose and wanting to win. I want my sleep time back on track desu~~ In fact, I haven't been sleeping well, but those are due to other reasons. So today, lucky me managed to collapse when I forced myself to sleep, hitting my darn head on the bed's pole. I don't remember much after the major pain.

1. Tailor refuses to do my costume. She says it's impossible <.<
2. Debate in on Tuesday, I have no idea what on earth the topic wants
3. Mum is getting on my nerve, like what she does everyday as a routine
4. Prince of Tennis the anime ish going to end...WHYYY!!!!! >.<
5. The guy I liked all this while just got himself a girlfriend, and I'm still grieving T__T

Yea, the major reason for my foul mood ish those stated above. Why do my life have to end up in turmoil? Cause I choose so, or else life would be meaningless XD XD Woot am I trying to say here ish... that I have no idea what I'm saying actually. Sorry for wasting everyone's time XD XD

Went to Sg.Wang, Low Yat and Times Square today despite me being unwell. I wanted to get the tailor once and for all, since I failed to do so last Sunday (shop closed =__=) I walked all the way to Sg.Wang from Petaling Street under the rain, only to reach there and get rejected INSTANTLY. Damnation. I was flabbergasted. <.< Now I don't have a tailor, unless I decided to switch cosplay plans...great~ Then headed to TS to meet up with Yagami, with my evil intentions of digging out information about her and Joshi. So she does like Joshi after all XD It's darn easy to make her admit actually, all I needed was two tokens to EZ2D. Was still playing when we the group of shrieking she-males (damn DAMN emfeminate duos) barged in and I decided to get the hell out of there. It's not them I can't stand, but their banshee screeches U__U Believe me, they're good. So the both of us, Yagami and I headed to Low Yat to get blank Cd-Rs. As usual, I can never find the particular shop I want, got lost, and just cincai bought a stack from one of the unknown shops. I suck at navigations T___T I know I should have gotten nii-san to shop for it, but that'll about take forever to happen. It took him 2 WHOLE MONTHS to get the anime list from his friend, who happens to live right next to him. <.<

Anyone have good tailors I can get to.... if I can't get one by the end of March or early April I'm going to kill all my cosplay plans for the year.

Emina Cosplay is on tomorrow, nii-san has agreed to fetch me there, and Aoi will bring me home. After I finally manage to get my transportations in order, I have the sudden urge to just continue sleeping tomorrow and forget about going. I seriously am suffering from brain damage.... huh.

My head hurts. Blah. I'm going back to downloading Petshop of Horrors.... and some yaoi anime. XD

BGM : Iluminati - Malice Mizer

back from hiatus

2005-03-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

I just got back from a month long hiatus XD Apart from the fact that I've been extremely temperamental, busted a few veins along the vein and probably made a misery out of everyone around me, life has been rather ok. Thanks for even bothering to wonder ^^

Lately, life hasn't really been all sweet and honey. One reason I hardly spend online is thanks to my fairly strict parents on exam years and my ultra-need-to-get-rid-of-soon-bad-habit, which is procrastinating. =p It's been quite a strain mentally and emotionally for me for just this one God forsaken month, but I'm glad to declare that most of the stormy part is over!!~ XD And I'm back and still kicking. Besides, it's the holidays how. It's a miracle that our teachers in school hardly gave us any homework X____x!!~ [ voice inside head : shut up and just be grateful, you twit ]

It's been a long time since I've touched any animes too TT__TT I hate exam years. I feel so left behind when it comes to the animes. Can't believe I still haven't watched FMA U.U On the brighter notes, I have Prince of Tennis box 8, downside is I can't watch it yet cause I can't find time to sit down and really WATCH any damn thing. Apart from that, my list of collected but unwatched animes seems to grow longer and longer as days passes by... Dead Aggressor, POT, Hachiyou (vol 9-17 came out), Tactics.......I was hoping I could enjoy them during the holidays, gawd I've never been more mistaken x___X!! I think I should just gulp down some Inui juice and die off...~

But let's here about something more cheerful, shall we? Besides, I need to post this down so that I won't forget in the near future, or the distant one. Whatever.

On Saturday, went out with 7chai to S&M Plaza in Petaling Street to look for the badminton court that's on the rooftop. I was like : WTF!! There's a badminton court THERE? O.O We went in anyway, and recomfirmed with Hikki@Amanda about the bookings. Apparently she booked the courts under her school Confucious, but the counter guy was a bit skeptical and suspected her of lying to get cheaper rates. Well duh~ No one will believe people that are going like...7Chai, celica...me....to be of secondary grads. U_U We left after telling the guy to extend the timing to 3.oo instead of 2.oopm, and left for lunch. Had vegetarian on 7chai. Ok, so I never expected the food to be that good, must go back there again sometime soon. Did I mention I don't really feel comfortable with the fact that he's a bit like Ciel in spotting small gestures? These people are so observant they SCARE me.... he instantly noticed how I felt when he recounted the car accident thing. I suppose he knows how I felt about certain things, and I suppose EVERYONE knows except me huh? >.< Later, we practically walked around aimlessly while I began to swing my cellphone aimlessly and swished it across the street, where (of course) it shattered O___o. Luckily it still works. <__< I at least managed to call mum and told her I'd be late home, cause we did a last minute decision to head to Suncomic, considering he has no idea where on earth it is. There, we met up with Sandy (another last minute planning) for awhile before walking all the way back to Petaling Street. Leg hurt like HELL when I got home, but hey, can't complain much ^^ I got Hachisyou~ am very glad that I bought the right volume of Count Cain too XD Cause I bought the wrong MAR volume.

On Sunday was the White Day outing, and I was late >__< Had tuition until 1.10pm, met up with Ayase in S&M plaza, and we still didn't have chocolates meant for the outing. I think we reached Times Square just after 2.00,grabbed our chocolates over at Watson then dashed to the foodcourt only to find the place empty, save for Aoi. We naturally headed to the arcades, made lots of noises meeting everyone, and got the hell out of there. Yesh, this is the first time I've been to TS and spent less than 15 minutes in that place and NOT SPEND A SINGLE DIME. I'm so proud of myself, of course, the fact that the EZ2D machine was down did help a bit. Then I somehow got dragged out by Hakuryuu to go shopping x___X (not a big fan of shopping, mind you) And to cut everything short, I ended up having a really nice long and relaxing chat with Hisashi over a cup of apple juice at Tutti Fruiti ^^ There's so many things I just had to catch up with him, and talking with him has ALWAYS been really nice and comfortable ^^ I'm just sorry things haven't been too right for him lately. Poor guy. Kilmasis came along quite sometime later, I think bumping into us quite by accident. Actually, he wasn't sure if it was me, so he stood by the railing and was practically STARING at me until I decided to acknowledge his existence there *sweatdrop* I gestured him over. He came, he sat, saw the one cup of apple juice with 2 straws, sweatdropped, then attempted to flee <.< He didn't manage to get away, and by the end of the day almost everyone ended up in Tutti Fruiti, somehow. (Do I look like Sakura (Naruto) cosplay material? O.O I seriously doubt so Kil~) Which reminds me... I have failed to witness Kil para-para once again, drats. Regretfully, I had to leave darn early because my aunt had invited my whole family for dinner, OF ALL DAYS! OF ALL LAST MINUTE PLANNINGS!! Hisashi walked me towards the monorail, and I went back home alone by then. I should have brought a katana or even a shotgun with me, to both ease my irritated self and to ward off the two bloody bastards that disturbed me up to no end at the Salak South LRT station. Mum came and picked me up, then we headed to Subang. Had steak for dinner, and I guess it was a good dinner after all. Sher Au was there to entertain, one guy who have yet to fail in tickling me silly just with his lan si attitudes XD He recently got very addicted to para-para ( before you can even think about it, NOT GUILTY )

Came back home well after 12.30, which broke my self record of not being at home for 13 hours. Not that I'm exactly pleased, mind you. I have unwanted bags under my eyes now ~____~ And I was totally unprepared for the debate stuff too, my bad. The competition is on next Tuesday, and here I am slacking off and not caring a bit. Someone should bite my head off~ And you know, after a whole month of non posting, I feel I need to talk alot, but I have to shut up for the time being as not to bore myself as well. I'll keep my thoughts for my next post.

(Damn, why do I feel like I'm writing for the sake of others instead of myself? This isn't right...) It's supposed to be my blog, my bloody rights for thoughts right? Wrong.~ I have fear for chains of effect, but I do want to open up a little bit more, perhaps to myself. Please do not anticipate the next post. *bows*

BGM : Le Ciel

blood means nothing!

2005-02-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

Saturday is definately not the day to wake up early U.U Especially if you didn't sleep a wink at all like me. But I still had to drag myself to school anyhow, because there's a Parental Seminar today in school and I was expected to be present, to be the guest receiver. Frankly, all I did was stand by the gate, sees someone, deep bows and greets with a smile (and a half asleep face =___=") The only other useful thing I did then was to climb some chairs to reach the wall to fix the dumb clock which still didn't move after all I did anyway <.< Changing batteries and all, not to mention almost crashing down on my teacher O.O

And then, there's the part where gossips spread around like wildfire. Typical in a girl's society *laughs* Anyway, the prefects were talking about what happened in 5 Harapan some time yesterday ( I think ) where the students voiced out their dissatisfaction towards Pn.Savitri classes / way of conducting class...however you want to call it. Apparently one of the students, who was, in my opinion, darn full of guts and darn lack of fear stood up and immediately accused that Pn.Savitri doesn't conduce her classes properly and the whole class dislikes that. O.O That was after the whole class was punished by the said teacher for not passing up their Oral assignments in time. Apparently she made them do a thousand sentence writing punishment that went like this :

"I will finish and pass up my oral assignment today"

Or something like that. Freaky. Imagine Form 5 students still being punished like that.... >.<

I have no comments bout anything whatsoever. Pn.Savitri's my debate teacher, and I find her quite alright. At least here's a teacher who shows enthusiasme in what she does. XD

Went straight for tuition class after school, still stuck in my uniform. Why is Malaysia so hot lately...=____=" I was a bit too early, and went off to my two major stops around Chinatown XD Went to S&M plaza and got into serious dissapointment when the guy said DMC 3 was out of stock TT____TT Actually, I knew this was coming but I was hopeful anyway. I think my dissapointment showed clearly, when he asked I told him I was praying to play it first before Aniki comes back next week ^___^;; To my greatest joy he told me to return tomorrow and he'll get the last disc for me, which is technically his since he kept one last one for himself. WAAAHHH He's such a nice guy TT____TT But I turned his offer down in the end, cause I was pretty guilt ridden ^^; He probably wanted to play just as badly. So finally I left with only Taiko no Tatsujin, which he had kept for me previously. Taiko is another sell out too, and I needed him to save it for me U.U"

Taiko ish fun!!! A little hard to get used to at first, but it's fun XD XD I love the Katamari song that's in the game. Boy, I'm slow in getting my games =___=||

As for night time, mum and I sort of made a mutual motion that we both hate talking to each other. We seriously can't talk, or see eye to eye anymore. Not with her being unable to understand others and being so overly critical on small matters, not to mention being hyper sensitive. I probably am just as bad, being very stubborn and defensive too, and an ass when using words. What I hate to admit is I'm actually following her traits in many things >.< I don't even remember when was the last time we had a NORMAL NO HEATED ARGUEMENT conversation. Anyhow, I've grown and learnt how to deal with it best. The tighter I keep my mouth shut, the better things turn out. Only my opinions trigger explosives in her, perhaps it's because I'm the only one who has opinions in the first place, and she doesn't like to be wrong. It's not just mum by the way, I've stopped talking to my younger brother unless necessary for more or less the same reasons. I'm already tired trying to please everyone. I wish Aniki was around.... while everything goes down in the dump I'm glad our relationship is bonding stronger than ever.

Sharing the same bloodline and DNA doesn't mean anything. You don't have to love someone for the sake of the same blood. Why force yourself when you don't? What is family really about? There has to be something more. I'll find out one day soon, kanarazu ni!

BGM : Bloody Valentine - Gackt

valentine's over

2005-02-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year, and Happy Belated Valentines minna-san, if that counts for anything in the first place =___=||

I spent my Valentine dating my reference books.

But it doesn't matter since it doesn't bother me much ^^; Though, I was dissapointed that I couldn't head to TS after school to meet up with Kitsune.

On Sunday though, I managed to join the CF outing for Shoji's birthday ( Happy Birthday again buddy!) mix Bachelor's party. It was a rather large outing, and McD certainly couldn't cramp us all in. In the end we spent the entire time at the foodcourt upstairs on the 10th floor, with short trips to the arcades time and again, of course. I can't and certainly won't name everyone who attended, obviously the fault of my reeking memory. A few new cfers that I've not met before were there too, like Kilmasis and Kyo (who ish a girl @.@) Such nice people! Kilmasis was the only one who cosplayed that day, as Sasuke from Naruto. <<-- He's good~~~ It was also nice to meet up with Natsumi again, she's so warm and fuzzy XD. Xiong Ie cut his hair *again* It's shorter than ever! O.o Hey, he actually looks more boyish than before, plus I couldn't recognise him at first U.U"

I haven't got the opportunity to check into the CF forum for pictures and Bladewing's videoclips, which I hope he has uploaded (Oh man I'm so sorry for buying stupid expensive batteries for ya U.U) Might link them here for all to see here as soon as possible ^^.

Gaahh..it's been so long since I updated I'm totally clueless on what to blog [ cue fuzzy bgm ] Dad got into another accident just earlier when he and mum were about to fetch my imouto from night class, right infront of HUKM, the hospital. >.< The car is quite bad, wherever it is now. Mum is still joking over the way dad was cursing his way home, and dad is giving mad suggestions that we should call up Lillian Too to find out what it means, feng shui wise. At least, they're not that upset about it. Must be the Chinese New Year weather.

Speaking of Lillian Too, the feng shui lady who has her own tv show? I watched a bit with dad awhile back and heard the craziest things from her. Apparently, the Rooster and Dragon are not just friends, they're secret friends. Her definition of secret friends sort of means that they're closer than close, tight knit-ed friends. Hah! I was rolling all over the floor laughing when she kept repeating that they were secret friends. Why? Simple. Mum ish a Rooster, and guess which animal zodiac mine is? Exactly. Secret friends? We can't even sit together peacefully over meals =____=|| It's not something I would like to brag about, but it's a fact. Even dad was amused watching the show, and kept giving the as-if look to me through out the entire duration of the darned show.

Oh boy, finally completed my Oral preps and the debate preps. I'm still gaping in astonishment that our debut debate session will be held in front of the entire school for the closing ceremony of the school's coming English week. Might as well dig a hole and bury myself alive X___x|| I need sleep~

Anime updates! XD

1.Sukiyo Eps 5 is out already, but I seem to be unable to torrent it down for some reason...drats
2.Honestly, Meine Leibe is GREAT!!!! I just wish someone would torrent host the other 6 eps U.U
3.Rozen Maiden is surprisingly entertaining too. No it doesn't have scores of bishies like my other faves, but quite the opposite. You'll see lots of elegant victorian styled living dolls ^______^ Recommended by Kaede.

And does anyone know where I can get Ai no Kusabi?? TT___TT I want nyuuu~~~

BGM : Secret Garden - Gackt - Rebirth

bought my pants for CNY!

2005-02-05T23:52:00.000+08:00

I am speechless. Utterly shocked to my bones. O-M-G X3

The last thing I expected happened. I can't believe it's TRUE!!!! OMG!! My aniki bought a PSP!! I'm so overjoyed I can actually cry. Finally! There's a PSP at home and I can play to my heart's content even at night when I'm supposed to be sleeping. It's so darn cool, I'm reeking with excitement XD And to think just a few weeks back I was rather heartbroken when I found out the price for a PSP, not to mention the games which cost about RM200 each. That, which explains why there's only one game for now. But hey, I'm not complaining. The graphic is so awesome, it puts even PS2 to shame. Aniki mentioned that Final Fantasy's Advert Children movie will be out in PSP format as well, wow. Perhaps that's why FFAC was postponed time after time, and might mean that Kingdom Hearts 2 will be out in PSP format too XD Ooohhh that's cool. The only downside for my aniki is that the system is all in freakin' Japanese <<--- according to him, and he couldn't name his PSP until I got home ^^;;

Ah yes, I almost forgot everything that happened today. I headed to Times Square and met up with Mei Vern and Siew Teng. They were going to help me hunt for pants I wanted to get. We went to have lunch first, at Kyros Kebab. That's the lowest rated plate of spaggeti I've ever tasted. I never knew you fried the noodle *sweatdrop* Later we went down to Sg.Wang for the hunt. I'm so sorry for being so picky --;; I don't really go out and buy clothes much, and I wasn't interested in anything jeans-like...gomen U.U" Anyway, I got what I wanted in the end, I'm so happy! Now I'll need the sneakers to match, might get that tomorrow if the whole of KL isn't jammed up, like today. Bumped into Shinnoir at the arcade X__x what was he doing there is anybody's guess, and Sandy bugged her way through, until she met up with me at Sg.Wang. I believe she called during her class...naughty XD I also got Soukyou no Fafner from Suncomic, following the recomendation of Ah Seng. I'm not sure if it's a wise move, but since it's quite popular, shouldn't be that bad. I'm not a big fan of meccha you see, and no, I've not watched any sort of Gundam whatsoever. Yes, I think that Vandread is boring, not to mention YURI. After Sg.Wang, we returned to Times Square because Sandy was already half begging to hit the arcades, thinking that the Taiko machine is calling out to her. Crapz, she can play! I'm amazed at the rate of her improvement, it's astonishing really. According to her, it's because she plays a lot of the PS2 game? O___o Later Sandy and I went back by LRT, of course, after being escorted by Shinnoir there. What I didn't realise, was that Pn.Asmatul (or PJK teacher) was in the same train with us the whole time. I wonder if she overheard our conversations *sweatdrop* I don't think I'd like to think about what I told Sandy then, I pretty much regret confessing what I did to her U.U" And no I don't mean the confessing I am a yuri part, you pervert reader.

Things happen in a yin-yang manner. You have good things, you have shit happenings.

I lost my mum's watch, yes it's stupid but true. I don't really want to go into details, but of all places, I left it the arcade after it feel of my hand. I'm bloody cursing myself for being such a dimwit, but what's done is done, no use crying over split milk, and I confessed to mum about it. She was quite sore at first, but everything's cool. Dad on the other hand, just HAD to rub it on, either to irritate me or to prove his point about responsibility. Either way it's pissing me off damn right. It's not like I WANTED it to happened, and things like these couldn't be helped. I'm not trying to say I'm innocent and it's not my fault, it very well is, I just don't like it being mentioned again and again, trying to make me feel even more remorseful than I already am. What do you want me to do? Hunt it back? It's not like I haven't done that =____=;; Dad's just sore because aniki lost the cap for one of the car compartments.... wonder how that happened... anyway it feels like he's trying to rub it in onto me.

I'm having writer's block right now, can't think straight because I'm very tired. Will blog again in the next round, till then see ya folks.

BGM : Just a survivor - Sukisyo

gotong royong

2005-02-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

Thank goodness it's Friday. I don't think I can take another day of school after such a hectic week. I can't feel my legs, it's quite numb after all the straining @.@

We had our first (and probably the last) gotong-royong session today. Everyone in school, save most of the teachers *of course* joined in and cleared the school grounds. It's a real in your face situation when you as a student is doing all the hardwork while the teachers are resting around and barking orders at you. Of course, anything worst that this is during House practise and we're under the sun the whole time while teachers have the privilage to use umbrellas, sit and laze and the ultimate joy, bark commands --;; It's also a wonder at how frequent the teachers in charge, or Pn.Norizan / Pn.Edahwati and the Pengetua, so to speak, uses their logical sense of thinking, in other words their brains. Take for example today, I don't see the point in getting students to move ALL the desks and chairs from the hall to the upper hall, which requires the students to go up at least two flights of stairs, but the desk and chairs would have to be taken down again for events like major examinations, meetings and so on. And that was what exactly happened today. We got them upstairs, and the teachers announced during the very last minute that they are holding a meeting in the hall, and requires more chairs. Guess who had to bring them down again? --;;

That aside, I would also appreciate it if our dear Headmistress would stop being such a pain to us prefects and giving us a hard time. She apparently is suffering some major boredom complexes and depression due to her retirement soon, and is picking on us to pass the time. First, she restrained a hell lot of our usual duties. Then she added loads of unessesary work. The last straw was when she insisted that the prefects are strictly not allowed to sit during hall assembly, which can spand up to 2 hours at times. According to her, doing so would degrade the prefects. That's the about the stupidest thing I've heard from her -__-|| I would like to see HER stand for 2 hours straight, listening to herself giving speeches...@.@ I don't quite remember what else she has laid down for the prefects, there's simple to many, and mostly questionable ones that I don't have time nor care to look into.

I don't even have the energy to watch any anime now...though I'm dying to do so, I don't quite recall when was the last time I actually watch anything. I just finished downloading 3 eps of Sukisyo (gawd it's so fast XD XD) Currently trying to get Rozen Maiden and Xenosaga as well. It's a sad timing since my computer's speaker just got busted all of a sudden. I need to change to using earphones to watch animes, which rather irritates my mum for some reason. She can be quite fickled minded about sounds. She absalutely hates it when I play my MP3s, perhaps because it mainly consist of Japanese (she can't understand, thus dislikes it, declaring it's totally gibberish...great) and J-rock, which is even worst thanks to the heavy instrumental background music. Yet, she detests it when she sees me listening yet she can't hear a thing --;; Thinking about it is quite tiring, really.

I think I'll just tuck in for awhile. I'll need some rest before continuing my homework marathon later tonight. Someone please PLEASE highlight our school's homework plight to the school board. These teachers are simply oblivious to the fact that we are not studying just their one subject, and gives homework without much consideration TT___TT Soon, I might not even have time to sleep when mid-year comes...waaaahhh~ damn this SPM fever.

*editted*

Oh yea, Sandy mentioned about her cosplay plans again, which believe me sounds rather sukebe...coming from her. If you haven't already heard, she plans to be a miko-maid, completed with cat's ears and tail. The only thing is, she's lacking a partner. I somehow got dragged in and drugged to agree to try and make a male version U.U" I'm going to cosplay as a freakin' waiter. Anyone lend an apron?

BGM : We are the Stars - Ragnarok The Animation

debate team

2005-02-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

I got selected to represent my school in the english debate team. X3 Finally, I have an outlet to flaunt my natural talent muahahahhah~ Frankly, I'm not very sure if me going for it is such a good idea, but hey, it's my last year in school. So heck with it XD Mum said she's not at all surprised about the news when I told her about it, I saw that coming >.<

Chinese New Year is next week!! Why is it that I don't feel the hype? Doesn't seem to affect me much this year, except that I get a much needed week-long holiday. Apart from that Siew Teng and Mei Vern has already made disasterous plans to crash at my place and turn it upside down next week X____x Somehow I can't wait for March to come...then again, I feel like I'm dreading April approaching. T____T I dunno why but I'm beginning to despise April nyuuu..... help~

BGM : Rising - Echizen Ryoma - Prince of Tennis

life sucks

2005-01-31T18:22:00.000+08:00

This sucks. Everything around me sucks. Life is a complete dump. If this stupid cold does not go away soon I swear I will explode. I want, at the very least, my voice back. Mainly because some twisted fella thinks it's actually cute @@ Anyway, I got my second bloodtest back, what the hell, I'm fine after all. But thanks to me walking under the rain from Sg.Wang to Petaling Street yesterday, I got a little unwell, thus being forced to stay at home today. I ALMOST got sent to the hospital by dad for observation and ALMOST had to go through another round of blood testing. Someone needs to knock it into my mum that I don't have lung infection.

A bit of a flash back of what happened lately. On Friday's meeting I dropped my position as President of the Olahraga club, and Shamila is taking over. I'm glad she is, for the others who were competing for the position just sucked. I'd be damned if Rajaletchumi gets the place, everything will go down the drain. Why did I drop my post? Easy, it's annoying. There's too much to be done and basically, I am very positive I cannot handle it as well as I should like. Besides, I'm not as power hungry as you bitches would like to think. C'mon, just try and use your brain to think even if you don't have one. I know you like Veanne, the whole lot of you chinese gang. But the one and ONLY reason why I objected to her being Prez was because she was already holding on too many posts in various clubs. She can't possible handle us properly, it's simple logic really, makes me wonder where the heck your senses are. And I don't like betrayers. Before the meeting started you lot were smiling at the three of us, during meeting you stab me right in the face by saying I'm trying to rampas the bloody post in front of EVERY SINGLE MEMBER? Really, go to hell already. You might be holding on the grudge that I managed to hold that post last year over your *dear* Amy Ying for all I care, but it's not my problem. But I'm warning you, that was the last straw bitch. When I myself hold on to a grudge like this, hell I'll let go anytime soon. I'm not satisfied by the fact that Mei Vern and Siew Teng had to hold me back, and that I lost my voice at that time, or I might have KILLED you there and then. But anyhow, I got to be Head Quarter Master when the new teacher in charge found out I was ex-prez. She was quite annoyed by the fact that I didn't inform her about it and went through re-election.

Frankly enough, I don't care if any Convent students are reading anymore. I'm tired of smiling and being nice to everyone. I'm cracked, so sue me. I don't need to control myself over my own blog anyway, sucks to be you if you dislike what I write.

Apart from that, I'm VERY FINE, thanks for even wondering. XD So don't bother worrying, there are other things in life more worthy of your worry.

On the lighter notes, I'm glad I got in touch with a few friends lately. I've been missing you guys to bits X3 Although not everything went exactly how I had hoped it would be, and things that happened that I wasn't aware about... it just kinda hits back at you telling you that life isn't always that sweet. However it is, I'm glad everyone is fine, sort of, but still fine nevertheless. *huggles everyone* Xiong, if you're still reading this... just so you know I'll still be around if you need someone to talk to, or just to listen. I'm sorry for anything I said too. I don't have the right to have said most of what I said. Hope everything's fine with you. ^^

Went out to Sg.Wang after class yesterday to accompany Rei shop for her new year clothes with Starry. Well, that was the initial plan. You really can't escape Suncomic when you're there. We spent ages there, I bought another anime and a couple of Spiral mangas. Ah Seng mocked me when I told him I forgot my Suncomic card -___-|| And yes! The Haro plushie is finally for sale!! But sure is expensive...gotta save~ gotta save~ We finally got our butts out of there after much procrastinating, and went around BB plaza to shop. Rei, has very particular taste in clothes. She won't wear this and that , those that have this and certain colours. Scary. I wonder if she even bought anything after I left. I also met Yoke Kwan sempai yesterday after returning to Petaling Street, she's doing part time there and we chatted for awhile. Kyaaa I so missed her T___T Now at least I know I can find her every week and catch up with her. X3 X3

I'll need to log off now, my sister is rather bugging me about using the computer. She plays Maple @@ I need to change my blog layout, version whatever it is. I might attempt so later tonight, since I know I won't be going to sleep.

BGM : Valentine Kiss - Atobe Keigo - Prince of Tennis

2005-01-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

The frog dissecting session, is something I'd rather forget =____=; I don't understand the thrill of torturing one by cutting it open and flicking around with it's internal organs with a blardy scapel. To me, that's just bloody inhumane. At first, I did think that it was alright. In fact I was the one who did the catching and putting the frogs into the jar, something practically everyone refused to do, and did the cutting up part. I was doing just fine, and sanely, until Nik came along, shove me over telling me that's not the right way to examine the frog. She literally splattered blood everywhere and began to poke every damn organ, and I was very irritated. Then I noticed our Bio teacher doing EXACTLY the same thing. She had another group's frog, was slicing it like you would a piece of steak, and began to DIG up the organs very swiftly and naming each of them to the group. The bloody frog is still alive for crying out loud! How the hell can you people do such a thing?! Shit, if you want a session of show and tell kill it first la. It totally disturbed me, a bit too much and I got a bit emotional >.< Next thing I know I forced myself to the toilet to wash up, and came back angry. I felt soooo bad and disgusted that I actually went through the experiment.

I'm sorry I made such a mess out of everything. I just felt bad and started to cry for no reason, I'm sorry U.U" I know I'll suck as a medic student. I felt even worst when Raihana came to me the next day quite hurt, when Izzati lost her 'cool' on her, because of me >.< Apparently Izzati was irritated that Raihana kept asking what happened to me, and told Raihana to leave me alone for my sake. By the way, thanks Wee Li, I really appreciated you being there for me. *mega hugs*

Later after class, I asked Hazwani what happened to the frogs, and she noted that she saw them being cleared away into the rubbish bin, half dead half alive. You know, it doesn't take much to just kill them off and stop the pain. They won't be in coma for long you know. And I could have choked Farhana on the spot when she said it's ok, that I can just get another frog to replace the frogs I brought. Shows how much people appreciates lives nowadays, bloody inconsiderate people who treat animal lives as pieces of dirt.

And as luck would have it, I'm down ill again U.U" It's torturous. It's been about 3 days now, and I don't think I'm getting any better yet, just the medicines are getting yuckier. I might die from the medics before dying from the illness. And the greatest part has to be that I lost my voice. Totally for the first few days, and it was damn hard to talk to anybody. I couldn't do my duty much either, and getting messages across was as easy as trying to read with your eyes closed. Sandy was one of the few sensitive and smart enough ones that used note writing to communicate with me, she just HAD to know which cosplay costume she should go for, and I don't think she really like my answer X3 I got bullied during Blue House practise by Rei as well, taking full advantage of me not being able to argue back. I will so get you for this after I get my voice and strenght back. Despite all this, I still qualified to represent my house in the 100m, 4x100m and lontar peluru for the upcoming sports day. XD Thank goodness.

I'm not any better today, actually much worst, but I'm slowly regaining my voice. I think I was already half-died-ed in school. Thevini said I look as if I'm going to die soon =___=;; I went home after recess, (my first time in secondary school history) mum came and picked me up. Got a hell load of scolding from her for insisting to go to school today. That's because yesterday she had suspected I've got dengue @____@ Knowing me, I refused to go to the doctor anyhow. I went today, just to prove to her I don't have dengue, nor lung infections. Our family doctor informed that there were dengue patients who had no fever, no rashes, and not much pain before finding out they had dengue. Which means, I'm exactly in that position. So unlucky me got a jab. She wanted my blood sample to run some test and check my blood count. I hate needles ~___~ And mind you, the amount of blood she took was scary. She suggested I take tomorrow off too, but I can't do that since there's a meeting after school which is really important to me, and I insisted I don't need a MC. Got another round of frowns from mum there.

*editted*

I just came back from night class, and the nurse called about the blood results. In dengue cases, the lower the blood count is compared to the norm is fatal. Mine, on the other hand is way above the norm, which is also not right. @___@ Meaning my blood count is unstable. Now I have to go through another round of blood test TT___TT Gawd I don't like her needles!!! They're huge!!!~ Besides that, the medicine doc gave is pure evil. It's totally disgusting. And I'm supposed to gargle the damn thing for a full minute.... I'd rather stay sick.

BGM : Yukimura Seiichi Voice Message - Prince of Tennis

aniki kowaii!!

2005-01-23T14:56:00.000+08:00

My ototo has really done it this time.

All four of us siblings went out to the nearby pasar malam to get the frog for my bio class on Monday. Ototo made my imouto cried in the car on the way back because he was being the immature idiot that he is again. Naturally I tried to make him apologise to her, for making her cry over something so harmless. And being the brother that he is, he rebelled back and cussed at me. Twice. Usually he would more than twice, but he triggered aniki's temper and got a hell of a smacking from aniki. Aniki was driving, almost reaching home when he suddenly turned to face my ototo at the backseat and *I Think* almost strangled him O.O The car was without a sane driver for a good 5 seconds or more. Aniki hates cusses, one thing I credit him for. He got so angry over it while I was pretty much used to having my ototo cuss around like a lunatic. Perhaps it's because he doesn't live with us now, and he doesn't know what goes on at home much, so he got very VERY mad. The last time I made him that mad was year...years back ... And he's still regretting for hurting me then. In the end, ototo-chan got a serious, like dead serious warning from my aniki.

I told mum about it, but she never uttered a word about it to aniki. I think aniki feels bad about what he did, over-reacting or not. Personally I don't think he did, and what he did might put my ototo back into his rightful place again and show some respect to people, something he's rather lacking I'm afraid. At least they're still on talking terms, for now. When's there's gunbound to chat about, you can't be angry at each other for long. Besides, my imouto broke the ice by singing I am Cow and the Banana Phone over and over again. Now she's driving us all nuts.

I bought two more animes yesterday, Tactics and Bleach. I'm slow when it comes to anime...yea ~_~ Haruka (Tactics) is darn kakkoi XD XD His outfit is simply awesome, so I'm trying that one out for cosplay.

This years cosplay target :
1. Haruka - Tactics
2. Eyes - Suiri no Kizuna

I, unfortunately don't have the budget nor time to do more than two, unlike Masa-chan who's rather nuts and already planning on 14 O.O And yes, I've decided to drop Vincent Valentine for now. I still lack the confidence in cosplaying him ^^;

BGM : Scarlet - Ayashino Ceres

died-ed..again

2005-01-22T09:19:00.000+08:00

I have no idea how to blog this morning. I have so much to say and don't know where to start. This happens when you don't blog for a whole week ka...

I just finished catching up with almost EVERYONE's blog, especially Masa's one which is like....really long XD I'm so sorry I couldn't read your blog for such a long time, and so not updated with what's going on lately in your life U.U" Gomen~

And then after this I'm going to start a new blog for a completely different purpose, but I'll fill in about that later. I'm also trying to revive my dead self in a few forums, like CF for instance. I haven't been there for ages ~___~ I need some stimulation to keep me alive X3 Because the excuse of having not enough time to go online is a stupid excuse for being horribly bad with time management, I think. ( kyaaa homework is growing on trees!!!!) Besides, my parents are still pretty ok with me using it once in awhile... for now.

Kyaa~ I'm so happy, dad's finally decided to get a new printer and scanner and fax machine (whatever that ish for) Gawd finally, then maybe I can fit in time to manage a DA account. XD Come to think of it, I haven't drawn anything for ages as well. ~__~||

BGM : Wing Area - Hoshi Souichirou - Goku - Saiyuki

aniki ish a sukebe

2005-01-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

I am not a backstabber. Label me one EVER AGAIN and I will ram you down with a bulldozer once I get my license. So SHUT THE F**K UP DAMNIT! If you spit venom about my like that, I'd rather you do it in front of my face, instead of being such a cowardly jerk and doing so at the back. I don't backstab my friends, unlike you. Friends or foe, when I see them as incapable of doing something or holding any position whatsoever, I state so. I'm not stupidly power-hungry like others. Neither am I stupid enough to vote for people who are friends but can't do any work, like you, for instance. That said, I'm good enough to name who you are. I'd rather anyway since it'll spoil the looks of my blog.

Huh. That's a relief X3 Cussings have been edited for the sake of censorship. Now, back to the daily life of a no-lifer.

Woke up wee early in the morning yesterday (saturday).. like 4.30 am to play Shadow Hearts. (yesh! I have not finished the game until now!! XD) Actually I woke up after a nightmare that kinda put me off from sleeping. Been getting nightmares a lot lately ^^; which means only... 4 things.

1. terribly stressed up
2. moods seriously haywired
3. going to get sick very soon
4. all of the above XD

I tried to put it off behind me by exploring KL a bit on my own before tuition class started. So I took a detour from the LRT to Miharja, and tried to figure a way to get across to UE3. You see, there's a mega wide and fast moving cars filled road called Jalan Loke Yew smacked in between. Of course, anyone with logical sense enough would have turned back, so I guess I lack brains, not to mention have stupidity beyond boundaries, cause I somehow crossed the road X___x Yea, almost got hit by a 60kph moving van too huhuhuhuhu~~ X3 X3 It was worth it anyway, cause there's a small anime selling shop inside UE3, which luckily has not closed down yet ^^; I got most of the animes I have which isn't complete = Saiyuki Reload, Saiyuki Gunlock whole set (don't ask why I bought it, I dunno either), DNAngel last part and a new anime called Yugo...haven't gone watching any of those yet. I bumped around the place, realising the whole building is swarmed with chinese shops ONLY, which was huh..boring. It took me awhile to get a taxi to get back to the LRT station too. Yes....dah takut dah~~ I'd rather pay than cross the road and end up in the morgue ^^;;

From there I got to Petaling Street.. S&M Plaza *again X3* and this time got myself a FMA necklace. I first intended to drop by at Sg.Wang's Suncomic, ended up being lazy..nyuu~ Oh I got a few other games too...erm, Nightmare before Christmas and FMA's game Broken Angel.<<--graphic ish damn sugee XD Finished class and I ended up at home half died-ed. Less than an hour later got dragged out to have dinner with my family at Sri Petaling O__o I don't think I even got the chance to sit down!

And yesh, I do know that there was a RO carnival. I could have gone since I got the permission to, and initially I wanted to, but didn't. So why didn't I go? Cause....I don't know either =___=|| Just didn't have the mood I suppose. Not that I regret it anyway, it doesn't matter since I had a blast with my siblings with Katamari Damacy whole morning and the whole of last night. Nii-san is madly engrossed with it for some sick reason XD He's the one jumping up and down suggesting to play that game everytime the TV is free from Dad. And apparently he stayed awake until 3 something just playing that game X__x My brother is a psycho.

Chatting with Ismat-aniki today just made me realise how much I miss all of you TT___TT *huggles everyone* I wanna go out and meet some of you guys again soon..uhh~ stupid SPM...stupid bannings on going out >.< Stupid first term exam that starts on 14 Feb <<-- Of all darn-ed days. It's bad enough I'm so darn lonely on that day T_T And below is today's (sunday) post.

1. Woke up and went to class
2. Died-ed halfway
3. Ismat nii-san is a sukebe
4. He's still a sukebe
5. had, of all things Dominos Pizaa for dinner. *bwek*
6. OMG He's SO SUKEBE-ish!! <<--muaahaha new word
7. O_o my Katamary Damacy has dissapeared!!! NII-SAN!!! *strangles*
8. quote for the day, week, month and year X3 = I'm just admiring's God wonderful creation, that is, SEIJI XD

*dodges attacks coming from every angle possible from whoever*

A note you guys should bear in mind before trying to kill me, I quoted that from someone else!!!!~~ *smirks*

BGM : Este - Crawford - Okiayuu Ryuutarou - Weiss Kreuz

simple plan's welcome to my life lyrics

2005-01-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

Great I did it again >.< I feel asleep while *trying* to study. I only woke up around 6.00pm earlier and slacked off first before touching anything school related. I am lazy, yes thank you. However, I've finally finished off all my homework, thank goodness XD Now all I have left is the rather puzzling Prefectorial Board accounts which does not tally with the other sub-accounts.

Some dang idiot from the Board is quietly snacking on our money without my knowledge!!! And I almost got into trouble because of that today after having a short personal meeting with Pn.Salina. Now I have to redo everything from scratch TT___TT

And I digged up the lyrics for Simple Plan's Welcome to My life. IMO, every single line of it is depicts my life and feelings as it is ~__~

Artist: Simple PlanSong: Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belon
gAnd no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kickedWhen you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be ok!

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s likeWhat it’s like!

BGM : Tsumi - Megumi Ogata - Magic Knight Rayearth

school reopen

2005-01-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

Phew. It's been ages since I've updated anything. I've been procastinating XD School has reopened again *groans* and I'm barely awake ~___~

So far things have quite settled down in school. Pn Salina as our new dicipline teacher is, like we expected, hell~ I got a junior under my wing for the prefectorial board and I've totally lost hope on her >.< She's way more blur than I ever can be, and I thought I was bad. Gosh~ Now Pn.Salina says that she's intending to recruit probates soon again and that means double work for me X___x!! Lately everything is so cramped together, I feel squashed nyaaaa~ Not only that, I think my name is quite "tercemar" in school already. Thanks to the bongun munak pics that's been flying around Friendster and my junior prefect drilling me with questions about the pictures, about everyone in school knows what happened during CF X_____x!! I ish the so died-ed, now I can't even face my own junior without being flushed red.

Anyway enough bout that, I don't think I'll even want to read back my own blog if I post anything more about school. *sweat* I think that, however, due to the extreme stress, I've been spending quite a lot on anime O__o Which is kinda useless considering I don't even have time to spend on watching. I bought a few mangas over the weekend, with Saiyuki Reload 4 out now XD OMGWOOTNESS Hakkai ish damn gorgeous (bah...as usual XD) I bought a few more mangas like Tactics and Kannade. In fact, I think I've found what I want to cosplay already XD There's a costume in Tactic's manga which is rather fabulous, not to mention elegently stunning. I will consider it, given that I drop my insane idea of cosplaying Vincent Valentine. <<-- Yea and then get beaten the crap out of myself by people like ...*cough* Sandy. Later on Sunday I went to KLCC and picked up the book I ordered ages ago, Juvenile Orions, and I must say I'm fairly dissapointed. It's SUPPOSED TO be BL, well, according to Cruelneko it was. I don't even see a small hint of teaser TT__TT At least, at least there's the subarashii artwork to drool on. But that's about it since I have no idea what's the plot either O.o Spiral @ Suiri no Kizuna's manga is already out as well, but since I'm not a fan of the artwork (but big fan of the anime yes!), I might not get it. Tight budget...heheh ^^;

Got a little anime updates lately as well, such as Final Fantasy Advert Children won't be out until Christmas this year. (boo!!!!) And apparently same goes to Kingdom Hearts 2 as well. What on earth ish SquareEnix trying to do to us!!!! AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!~~~ They are cows!!! ( I'm listening to I Am Cow right now actually XD )

Nii-san finally got the little kame he wanted, just a day before I intended to get him one. Luckily I thought I'd ring him up first in front of the pet shop ^^; It's a little star kame, and Cherry wanted to call it, *of all names* Expresso, until one of us came up with Express-slow... and hence the kame's name. But you should see the way it attacks his greens... O.o scary.

And that's about it. I don't think I'll blog long this time, well not that I always do. But I shall refrain from ranting shit about school for now. Ever since my blog was mentioned in the school mag and the blog url given, people have been coming up to me and telling me they visit. Now I'd be in deep shit if I ranted anything negative....for now XD Another is my parents who won't get the hell off my back and give me some peace with the computer for even a split minute. Huhh....parents. Last but not least.... I miss all of you TT____TT *hugs everyone and hugs again*

BGM : Candy Rain - Sowelu - Full Metal Alchemist Ending 4

2004-12-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

The whole entire day of yesterday was spent reminicing about how old I am again >.< Somehow or rather spending time with the three younger ones, mainly Sandy, Cray and Tofu seems to remind me I can't run about and scream while beating the crap out of friends again for the rest of my short life, considering the fact that maturity is supposed to be set in by this urgh, age.
Amazingly enough I found myself very energetic on that day, despite the fact that I've not slept
much due most of the reasons why I don't sleep at night. Though, I did creep back to bed when the darkness of the hall started to freak me out, enough to send chills down my spine. Weird that it only happens at certain hours of the night ^^; I did some last minute CD burning for Sandy and Ismat in the morning before I left, which resulted in me being late at Times Square, plus the fact that I missed the train. By the time I arrived at the arcade (the usual meeting place XD) Everyone, Sandy and Ismat, including both Tofu and Cray whom I didn't expect, was crowding the Taiko machine. I got psyched up, and decided to change for tokens, and realised I made the stupidest mistake.... I lost 20 bucks before the fun had started ~___~ I had planned to get a naruto headband for myself with that, but no, my carelessness decided that I have to do without it for now. I did, however, come to the conclusion that once I get frustrated over trival matters like these, I can hit off and dance rather swell @__@ Something ISH very wrong. Trival as it is though, since it's not like the end of the world, I couldn't help but get angry, mainly at myself for the the baka that I am. But after awhile I managed to cool down, knowing fairly well being upset only results in upsetting everyone else, thus sending a domino effect and no one will enjoy their day out. Tofu and Cray joined me, and Tofu totally pwned everything ~___~ I hate that guy for being able to master most of the hard songs so fast. But to me, the few moments there was the greatest. I can't really remember the last time I could actually loosen up and be the kid in me again. I got mega-genki at certain points and was as rough as Sandy.. or even worst XD So, I wasn't being the good sempai that is usually expected of, and I don't care, at least not in front of them three. Rather, people who has never seen me break loose like this would think I suffer from split personalities disorder. While the main plan was to head to KLCC to watch a movie, which was supposed to be a treat from Sandy, for some reason (like
the dance machine) we wouldn't budge from the place. And it got even harder to get anyone away from the area when Joshi came along, and Jared with Lin Che a short while later.
Obviously everyone was crowding around the dance machine. I'm still very much mesmerised by their skills, especially Joshi who doesn't seem to tire out playing all those hard songs repeatedly @__@ And I can't help but notice the fact that once he gets on the dance machine, majority of the spectators that crowds around are young girls drooling off ^^;; OMG~ I hope someone don't get angry about me mentioning this kedo.... Jared and Lin Che came and joined the fun later, apparently "killed" off in the Yugioh competition held in Sg.Wang. Still I very much doubt it damped any of their spirits ^^; And Lin Che is such a bad liar. You can't just go about people yelling that you suck on that machine and such, and then hitting it off rather nicely. I have a good mind of strangling him in the middle of the arcade and accusing him for sucking at being a liar, but he's too tall for me X3 Iris was also at the arcades, and right on scared the sweatdrops out of me when she glomped me from behind @___@ At the rate I screamed in both horror and surprise, in a note I swear surpasses any great soprano singer, one would have thought I was struggling from being raped -___- She was with Ah Inn and two more friends XD I don't think I told her about me having a hair cut just before Cosmas, and the look on her horrified face was priceless. Of course, nothing beats the uber long scream Bunny-chan gave when she first noticed Ciel's really bishounen haircut that night at Seiji's place. (Christmas dinner post coming soon ^^) She and Ah Inn were sharing some pink candyfloss, which tasted like medicine *bwek* I think Joshi must have seen the weird expression on my face when I offered, and declined. The thrill of eating satu ringgit punya candyfloss is long dead. We stayed there until about 2pm and decided it was high time to head to KLCC if we wanted to catch ANY movie at all. By then, I think Jared at least, was glad to be rid of us ^^;; Sandy and the two were so hyper and rather oblivious to the surroundings might have ticked him off quite a bit. But really, I don't blame them. You can't when you see them playing like that. U.U"

The five of us initially agreed to walk over to KLCC, with Ismat as guide it's impossible we'll get
lost...*I think* But barely out of TS, one of us wanted to get a cab instead. We wasted precious
time trying to bargain our way with the mandarin + cantonese speaking indian cabbie, who was trying to pull off daylight robbery on us. The non-stop rattling on deciding made me dizzy, and finally managed to get the whole lot of them to just walk. Ismat, the smart fella <.< having such a useful and safe OVERHEAD BRIDGE to use, made us jaywalk across the busy road which was already fenced up in at the devider. Not that I minded, mind you, but Sandy couldn't get herself across it. That, came to me as a major surprise, and I still can't register that fact for some reason O__o And some mad cow driving a piece of metal junk yelled his head off at us for no apparent reason while we were climbing over, the fact that he's using a language none of us understand or know, ticked me off for that one moment when I yelled back at him. If I had my way I'd run up to his sorry looking slow not-qualified-to-be-called-a-car junk and demand to know what he said earlier. I almost reached his car without even trying actually *sweatdrop* I was just trying to cross the road. The crazy part of getting to KLCC was that finally, we gave up and took a cab in front of Sg.Wang for the same price we could have gotten at TS earlier. Ismat sat in front, with the four of us cramped at the back. I think all the noise plus the dirty talks that we exchanged rather loudly made Ismat feel compelled to give a tip for the cabbie in the end ^^; Whoops~ Oh, and we didn't get to watch any movie. One reason being us not making advance booking since it was a last minute decision for everyone to head out today. After all that, we ended up in Burger King to quieten the guy's stomach. Why Burger King? Hah..refill XD I got Cray to refill it for me once, telling him it was up to him to mix in anything he liked. I have no idea what on earth I was drinking...the colour was out of place but it tasted rather unusual, but nice. Cray himself couldn't recall what button he was pressing @__@'' But hey, I ain't dead or laying in the hospital right now. We got back to TS after much debating, and back to the arcade again. Thinking back, we could have just went downstairs and enjoyed Big Macs instead. We went back to find Jared seriously hooked on that Pop'n Music machine ^^; In fact, I think he's
been playing that ever since we left... *sweatdrop* We played a few rounds on EZ2D again, I got Joshi to para-para for my sick amusement and then had to leave early... stupid blardy curfews that's getting shorter and shorter by the moon's rotation around the earth. It's punishment for forgetting to text my mother that I've met up with Sandy (which is my fault), and punishment that Digi has no coverage in KLCC *at all* until she couldn't call me and resorted to digging up Sandy's number from goodness knows where to get to me. I got one heck of a lecture over the phone, especially to mum, it was sin enough that I am at KLCC in the first place. I don't understand my mum. It's ok if I go find Sandy, but it's not if it's at KLCC. What, that place is taboo or something? @___@ Anyway, about everyone left the same time I did, each of us heading our own ways. Luckily mum didn't mention anything, or resume the long winded nagging over the phone, which is great relief.

I had a bath, and did some random sketching again before being ushered off for dinner with my aunt's family from Singapore in Subang. I felt like...urgh, why them @___@ If the both of us girls were ever made to sit together again, like so many times in the past, I was dead sure the silent tension between us would kill me off, slowly and totally unmerciful. Some wise punk once told me I don't have a choice since she's a cousin. Yea, I don't have a choice but to like her, then again I do. It's just that we don't have any common interest at all. How the heck would you strike a conversation with someone who is now like a total stranger to you is beyond me, a person renowned for being poor in socializing skills. Thankgoodness though, nothing of that uncomfortable position occured, because we were seated apart, and the table was rather lively with her uncle, Uncle Konrad joining us. He's a total stranger too, but we talked like we've known each other for ages. I sometimes confuse myself -___- Besides that, the both of us did not exchange a word at all, as if some invinsible mutual agreement has been made. The food was great though, we had steamboat, all healthy food for once XD But once the prawns were dumped in, I lost my appetite. I can't handle myself trying to scoop food out of the same pot those revolting things with large heads and big papaya seed-like eyes circling about ~___~ It's the papaya eyes that puts me off really. My uncle, who sat just beside me was happily sucking the head and the eyes off noisily, I think I could have fainted on the spot. I don't even want to start thinking if he sucked the brain out as well.... Prawns are ebil, end of story!!!!

BGM : Do I Love You Enough - Seagulls Screaming Kiss Her - No! No! No!

earthquake shakes all

2004-12-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Minna-san ^^

But I don't feel any merry-ness this year, for some reason. The hype just isn't there perhaps, and my mood's pretty much down in the dumps lately to notice much. As for today, it kinda ended with an amusing note. I was still sleeping this morning when my ototo violently shook me and rushed me out of the house. I could feel the place was swaying in circles while walking around the house getting ready X____x!! My fishtank was very unstable, the paintings were noisily clanging on the windows and the main door, which is pretty loose kept making grunting noises. The first thing that swept my mind in horror was that the building was about to collapse. Luckily there were only the 3 of us at home and we used the stairway down. We arrived down to notice that we weren't the only ones who noticed the movement of the buildings, with more and more of our neighbours rushing out using the elevator, those dumb idiots. Any sane person would know that at times like this you shouldn't be using that. Clearly some people just don't practise using their brain. For a while though, it seems that only the residents in our block noticed something was wrong, while others on the ground floor and the rest of the blocks seemed quiet. Heck, I noticed that people were still calmly eating their roti canai at the mamak stall on the ground floor of our block. Being the busybody that everyone was, we soon got the news that it wasn't only our block, in fact other condos and apartments nearby felt the same tremour. All of a sudden it was no big deal anymore, and I wanted to go back to sleep >.< I didn't sleep the whole night and I was so cosy being tucked away with my blanket and the rocking bed (due to the tremor XD) So, news spread out that Pulau Pangkor was having the same situation, and minutes later some guy shouted to us that there was an earthquake somewhere in Aceh. I think by now the rest is history. I'm just thankful that my dad decided last minute that his gang of collegues should have a holiday at Bali instead of Phuket Island.

We then drove out and had breakfast somewhere near, and mum decided to stop by at one of the new temples around the area for a look see. I was utterly shocked to see such a beautiful place in the middle of nowhere O.o It's still partly under construction, but it's like a small haven for cute animals XD I gave my prayers, and watched the ducks and geese for goodness how long. I really wished I had the digicam with me, they were beautiful, and it's rather hard to draw all the feathers with detail based on memory alone >.< Well, I did think that they were majestic for a moment, especially the geese until I saw one of the smaller goose let go a pile of watery crap just like that. That was it and it was jya babai~ errkss...I just had my breakfast. From the temple, we drove around towards the Cendana Apartments, where they said the tremour was even more violent there. Everything was already calm by the time we decided to pop by, but there were still streams of reporters who refuse to leave and I suppose am hoping for another casualty to happen or something. I couldn't care less, really. I got home and felt really weak, and my head was spinning for some reason, so I crept back into bed and slept the day through without realising it. I think mum felt that I wasn't feeling well either, because she didn't attempt to wake me up at all, something which she always does in the past.

Yesterday~

I finish wrapping up Midori no Hibi in the morning before having my breakfast X_____x!! I love it! XD It's been quite some time since I actually watched any anime, and this is one of the best so far. It's funny and touching at the same time. I didn't realise my eyes turned watery and a few tear dropped at the end of the anime. I love Orin-nee-san XD But her character rather gave my ototo the creeps cause according to him, she kinda reminds him of me ^^;; I don't think I'm that brutal kedo.. I admit to beating him up and doing most of the mean things Orin-nee-san did, but I certainly do not have a gang of idiots during my school time. I love the ending song "Mou sukoshi" It has a different feel compared to other songs, perhaps it's the way it is sung like it doesn't have a chorus. Currently addicted to it XD

In the evening, My aunt from Singapore called and said that her family's at Times Square. It baffles me as to why, of all places they can visit in their limited time span here, they chose Times Square X____x There's nothing to see, but come to think of it, there's nothing everywhere ~___~ KL ish t3h so boring~ Mum somehow managed to drag the whole lot of us there to meet them, while my ototo got away with it by faking his stomachache. I've never seen Times Square so crowded before O__o It was rather hard to move about, until the point that got me boiling and you can plainly see the veins popping up on my forehead. The only reason I was convinced to go was the fact that I wanted to pop over at Low Yat to purchase some blank cds and a few games in between. I met my cousin's, said hi and left before mum could suggest me bring Stephanie along shopping. Not that I dislike her, but it would be a pain to bring her along to Low Yat, since it's so cramp and probably overstuffed with people on Christmas Day. And yea, after about us turning 14, we suddenly had nothing to talk about ever again. In a way, I was glad I got loose from them XD I feel so mean saying this..nyuu~ I stopped over at the arcades for awhile, which was overly crowded with people who were awe-ing themselves silly around the 2 usual machines. Leon and Kenshin were hogging the EZ2D machine since 11 am that day, and still was when I reached there around 4 pm X___x Then there was this malay punk who tried to show himself off in front of the crowd and obviously Leon too on the EZ2D machine, but made an ass of himself when there were stunts he tried but couldn't pull. It was only when Leon started again that I realised their dancing pattern was about them same, Leon claims the punk was copycatting his ideas *laughs* I left soon after and got across towards Low Yat. It rained, boohoo~ It's just a slight drizzle, but it sure felt cold, for some reason.

I got myself lost in Low Yat @____@ I reached the correct floor, where they sell all the computer stuff, but couldn't find the particular cd shop I was looking for. I was already half cussing under my breath for being dumb with directions, and decided to just hentam any shop that sold blank cds. I came to a shop in one of the isolated corners and got them, and it sure took me a long while to pay for it. Trouble was that there's only one chinese guy with rather limited BM at the counter. A malay family was already there when I arrived, and I noted that they were purchasing a playstation one (outdated people...so sad..) for their lil' kid. So being the timid me who rather not barge in and demands to be served first, I thought everything would be settled soon, my turn would come.... eventually. From what I see, the dad is one hell of a stingy bugger. I have no idea what it's really about, but he simply refuses to pay an extra 10 bucks for something~ nyaa and insist to be given a rather nice looking goody bag.. for free. Wootness!! The guy also offered two memory cards for a discount price, but was bluntly refused O___o For crying out loud, you need memory cards to play a PS!! I'd so get the memory card for that price....they don't come cheap nowadays, you know. The wife soon got a little embarrased for stalling me for so long, even though I was so amused I didn't mind at all, since I was in no hurry anyways. She beckoned the guy to entertain me first while the husband "thinks" about it *laughs* I mentioned to the guy casually that it's weird not using the memory card to play, and that guy (whom I found out later ish called Wilson) and his ebilness quoted me off to the man and his family O___o!! WOOTNESS!!~ I could have been killed!!! I did try to convince the ol' man that it was a necessity for the PS...but somehow I felt like he was undetered, in fact he accused me of saying I was his partner in crime, trying to help Wilson sweet talk him... the nyoo. I could have been ignorant about his business if I wanted to, and just shut the hell up and leave and laugh to myself what an ass that fella ish. Somehow I rather pity the child for not being able to play a proper game. Anyway thanks to that incident, I met an amusing guy. Now, if only I can recall where the heck the shop is located at... cause I bumped my way in and bumped my way out blindly I can't tell where was where~ I got back to TS after that, meeting her at one of the jewelry shop. She had this sudden idea of getting me a necklace or any jewelry I might like as a gift O.O Which I personally think is uncanny, considering she should know by now I don't like them.... much. I don't like wearing them. She urged me to just take a look and see if I fancy anything.... the only thing I fancied at that time was some food to quieten my growling stomach @___@ We left without purchasing anything XD

Aniki came back yesterday too, which was a grand surprise. I kinda missed him over the weeks, and Cherry too. But Cherry couldn't make it since she had to head to MidValley instead. But Aniki was good enough. We got round talking as soon as he came back and almost instantly broke off into fits of laughters. I don't think I've laughed as hard as this for a long, long while. It all started with his mad yearning to get a pet, and of all animals, a box turtle. His reasons are simply really. They're so darn slow, you'll never loose them since you can actually measure their whereabouts using time and speed factors XD Low maintainence, and they're tiny. I have a good mind of getting one for him as a gift soon XD XD We went out for dinner as a treat, since there's only four of us. After a whole day of head-cracking and deciding we ended up at Kenny Rogers in Leisure Mall (stupid bad choice) Aniki and Ototo went off to get a Digi sim-pack for Ototo, who has a phone but never a simcard. He's been so noisy about everyone having a handphone and not him, so hopefully by getting him one, he can buck up on his grades and STFU...seriously -__- The food was rather icky, they don't roast good chicken like they used to in Leisure Mall U.U We left early, and got to check out two beautiful St.Bernard dogs arrogantly being displayed by their attention yearning master. I understand if you plan to take a rest and people crowd around your dogs for awhile, but to still be there before we came, and after we leave (plus the half hour when we waited for the chicken to reach our table) surely that guy was showing off. But, the dogs were really beautiful. They're huge too, which really is a downer since I have more soft spots for cute little dogs ^^; I'd rather have a small dog that can cuddle in with me on my bed than one that takes over the whole bed @____@

Aniki left on the same night as well, after picking Cherry up from the KTM station nearby they headed back to Cyberjaya. Poor guy still has tons upon tons of assignment to do. Somehow, his course is freaking me out so much... the work load and such. I wonder if I should consider taking the same course as he is in the near future. I'm being told against it though, my parents aren't happy I might end up in the same course as Aniki...nyaahhhness. Whatever it is though, it doesn't matter much now. I have to buck up and score well to pass through the bloody disturbance in my life, SPM before making any major decisions.

BGM : Mind Forest - Gackt - Crescent

2004-12-24T13:43:00.000+08:00

Mmmn It really looks like I'm beginning to loose interest in blogging these days. I'm pretty much disturbed by things lately, and when that happens I tend to pry away from doing anything much. Depression, whatever you call it, my parents calls it laziness XD So many things have been happening at home lately, and I think it's about time I get myself some anger management course to control this unbearable urge to yell back at idiots who barge into people's lives and make a living hell out of their daily routines.

No, I'm not ranting mindlessly about my parents. Hell no. Compared to that prick, my parents are like angels that just decended from the side of some heavenly being. If that barking mad woman ever EVER picks on my ototo, my family or my other cousins, I'm so going to blow. I just don't believe people like my mum could be so saintly and bear with her nonsense talk and critiques that squarely puts everyone off. But on the better note of things, thanks to her, mum and I talk more often nowadays. Mostly it's about my ototo and about the family's well being. I guess I should be feeling high and proud that mum is willing to tell me things and such, which shows that she trust me as a growing adult now. Though, she is that type of parent that won't take advice from a teen, no matter how sound it may seem and is more effective since if the problem is about the kids, surely the kids knows better what they want and how they want to be treated right? But no~~ I was taken aback and surprised, not to mention hurt when at one point, she brushed me away when I was elaborating a point by saying she would rather talk to another parent than talking to a teen. Ouch.

But whatever it is, I'd rather not get into detail now. Cause the more I think of it the more I feel
like getting out of the house on Christmas Eve (for crying out loud) and then slashing people to
pieces. Actually, I just wish I could slap people now. >.< This is the dark side of me talking, and
I fear you'll be seeing more of this me once school reopens, and stress starts pouring in like
overflowing lava. My temperamental moods leaves much to be desired. This is so not the way to live.. and I'm being such a hipocrite now I hate myself.

Perhaps I need to socialize more, but lately I seem to detest the very idea of going out and meeting friends. No offence whatsoever, I love you guys to bits XD But I feel a tingling sense of weirdness lately.... @__@ So much so I did a rampage clear out on the things at home, turning the whole mini library upside down and getting on everyone's nerve, and practically teared down the posters on the wall since they just won't stay on the bloody wall properly. Whatever it is though, I'm officially being banned, well kinda like banning myself to go out to any kinds of outings whatsoever with whomsoever once SPM year kicks in. I just want to have a non turbulent year and then get the hell out of here. It's been a nice year I must say, I've learnt more than I could XD But perhaps I've been having too much fun and am starting to forget my footing and place ~___~ But I'll tell you this much. The nightmares I've been having lately have something to do with this. It's scaring the hell out of me, and somehow affects my mood lately. It might sound rather stupid, but when I get repetitive nightmares like this, I freak out cause something is bound to happen. I don't know why, it just does.

Anyways, I should be changing the topic now. Let's see there is a small annoucement to those reading this. Sandy, as most of you already know ^^ is planning to have a sort of celebration party on Wednesday next week, if I'm not mistaken on the date. Celebrate what, you say? She just got distinctions for her Japanese Examinations XD The reason for celebrating early is because she's going to get her PMR results soon XD Anyway, just be at KLCC on that day. I'm not sure myself if I want to go. I pride myself in being one of her closest friends (damn I'm arrogant) and I should somehow make it for her sake. Besides, she's going to pay for the movie tickets. XD

Oh, and I've finally uploaded the ComicFiesta 04 and Cosmas 04 pictures...well almost. A small portion of Cosmas 04 is still not up yet, basically because my photobucket account can't store much. So much for a free account eh? XD However it may be, I hope it's not too late for you guys to enjoy. I will be uploading some of the small vids I took of Neko-chan para para-ing on stage solo and the finale which had most of the committee members dancing along. The only regret I have is that my digicam doesn't captures the sound effect as well ~_~ Or it would have been great.

Get it here

a whole day out

2004-12-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

I couldn't wake up today!!!! o.O Was *this* close to being late for class if it wasn't for my younger brother who was talking in his dream this morning going something like : wake up la~~ get up! get up!! X____x!! I did, cause I thought he was waking me, but I turned and saw him still sleeping on the bed O.O Wow. I don't need an alarm clock anymore XD Class was rather boring today, I ended up with a blank mind again~ I must pay more attention nyaaah~ I'm so going to pass up a blank piece of paperwork next week....

Came back home and stuck myself to the computer like glue. I decided I wanted to download something, and ended up download a fat load of goodies XD here's a few songs I STRONGLY recommend to download and listen XD

1.Shinjitsu - Yukimura Seiichi - POT
2.Kaze - Tezuka x Fuji - POT XD XD OMG!!!
3.Okuru Kotoba - FLOW
4.Plaster - FLOW
5.Mitsumeteitai - Gensoumaden Gunlock

I can't wait for Paramax's next round of mp3 downloads. Getbacker's D Magic talkshow is next!!! And they have Shido and Akabane as guest talkers XD

Mum was nice today and she offered to drop me and my ototo for class in the afternoon. Unfortunately we arrived an hour too early, and I couldn't get to Craymel. I wanted to meet him and tell him about his registration pass for Cosmas and at the same time beat the crap out of him XD That punk has practically been sending those pictures to everyone he knows O.o Worst still, he's editting everything and THEN sends it around again. I dropped by at Popular, got myself the stuff I needed to buy and then went for class. Eto..I'm sorry I couldn't make it for the small outing in Bukit Jalil with you guys nyaaa~ Even though I said I'll try to make it~ Gomen nyaa Xiong Ie, Bunny-chan..and others~ U.U" I really wanted to go, but was on very foul terms with mum yesterday, so I forced myself to go for replacement classes today so that I have no chance of going out... which kinda backfired cause somehow or rather I ended up in Times Square XD XD

I still had time after class before my night class started, so I went to the arcades to play X3 Gaaah!! All the PIU pros were there today >.<>.< Firstly, the left hand sensor KO-ed on me, and I ended up playing Easy Mode at a super slow speed kyaaa~ it was embarrasing. Then I saw Tommy at the back watching me rant all the time @____@ I totally stopped playing, and decided to watch the pros show off instead. Nyuu~ I want to play PIU too.. especially after seeing this chibi 10 year old gaki pulling it off like a pro. *sweatdrop* Speaking of which, the o chibi came running to me later on and points : You're that munak aren't you?? ^^;; My, I was taken aback by that. Actually, I was rather blur about what he was saying ~__~ Kinda took me awhile to register what he meant. Uhhhh... How come I didn't notice a chibi assasin cosplayer running around during CF?? Then Tommy and I headed downstairs to McD for a drink, and Tommy's friend, Li, joined us later. Nyaaa~ Thanks for keeping my company and then belanja-ing us fries XD XD Even though this is like..the first time we met XD Sank you!!! We went back up afterwards and I had a last round of EZ2D... died-ed on the first song, First Love even!! OMG!!~ I am so not stepping on that machine for a long time T___T Even that o chibi couldn't imagine I died-ed so soon~ garrrr~

Then walked back to Petaling Street and went for class. I forgot to bring along my sweater, and I almost froze to death XD I only reached home around 10.30pm, and realised I didn't have breakfast, lunch or dinner!!! XD No wonder my stomach is growling~ Just had a very large bowl of speggeti XD The sauce is rather watery though...ahhh whatever, I'm not picky when I'm hungry. And I should go take a bath now, I feel sticky =_____=;;

Ah yes, Bokura no Oukoku scanlation's download completed at last!!!! If you're wondering, yea it's BL..... *laughs* XD

BGM : Shinjitsu - Yukimura Seiichi - Prince of Tennis

bad pics! bad pics!!

2004-12-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

Woot! Mum saw the pictures from Comic Fiesta...uuhhh she made me show her everything >.> including those BL pics of Snoopy and the Munak Bongun pics?? Woot!!! @__@ Luckily she was in a good mood and didn't mention anything....*sweatdrop* I soo don't want to know what she was thinking at that time =____= I just hope she won't mentioned anything to dad... or they'll start interrogating me again about having a boyfriend..*gulps* But mum did try to ..uhm, console herself that those were all poses.. eehehe.. *sweatdrops*

I still haven't uploaded any pictures yet..gomenasai!!!! >.< I'm really slacking off lately. I'm half thinking of not doing so actually, since there's already tons of pics available...woot~ so selfish of me XD XD I'll get it done, somehow...sometime. I have to get back to my studies that I've totally abandoned lately, which got me into trouble again today with mum. What with Gempak and Comic Fiesta, CosMas around the corner and with Megumi-tachi coming over, I've been going out alot ^^;; A little pushing over the limits I guess, but nyaaa, I want to spend as much time with friends as possible before school starts and hell begins.

Sandy called awhile ago, and yea the both of us are still going on and on about cosplaying. XD I still have no idea what I really want to do for next year, even though I know I should have started by now, while Sandy is dying to cosplay as a Chocobo @___@ It beats me why she wants to be cosplaying in a chicken suit =3 She actually called to make plans about starting a doujin group, which I once casually suggested to her. Apparently she's very keen, and so a new doujin group shall rise.... hopefully XD I think I'm going to need TONS of help on this matter, since I'm so darn clueless as where to start? First thing first...I need members =____= So far I have Sandy and most probably Megumi, am planning to ask Wee Li if her parents doesn't object to it. Really, talking things out with your teacher is mortifying >.<

Lastly, I don't know how are things going on lately for you Masa-chan, but I hope everything will settle down nicely soon. Sorry I couldn't be much of a help...TT___TT I really wish I could do something to ease things a bit...But I'm useless... I think it's easier to teach cats to lay eggs ~___~ gomenasai....uhhh~ BUT! BUT!!! I'll always lend a ear if you need someone to listen..or talk XD Promise.

BGM : Wu Ha - Wilber Pan

minna san tadaima

2004-12-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Friday~

A post for exactly a week ago XD wootness~ Gempak Fest (Sg.Wang) was really very dissapointing on the first day, I barely stayed at the concourse level at all. I was hoping to bump into Sandy and Is (as in Shinnoir) but I had no luck... that's for doing the dumbest thing imaginable. I left my life-saving hp at home while rushing my imouto out of the house in the morning. Somehow or rather I got spotted by Jared and so I tagged with Snoopy, Prince Lui and Jared upstairs to have a look at some decks. T___T I wish I could play again...really~ *cries* but I'm officially forbidden to do so until after my SPM... yikes. That's one whole year >.< mangas ="3">.<>.< Gomenasai.... *bows* It was really dumb of me for making my own decisions to tag along and then mess up everything.... nyuu I'm so so..sorry~

Saturday~

Mum woke us up by shaking us like we were a bundle of logs, and we made extra care not to trigger her that morning because she gets rather uptight and easily ticked off when she's rushing for things. And we were pretty late. We were supposed to be at Port Dickson by 9.oo am, but we only left home at 8.30 am. XD To make cut things short, cause nothing much really happened... I didn't enjoy myself .... at all. The short tour around the Shell Refinary was marvelous, considering how I've always wanted to check it out when I was young and living nearby. Dad used to work there nyuu, so he had the honours of being the guide for the tour in the bus, since we were not allowed to get off it. It was rather interesting....that is until my eyes began to hurt and my head ached like someone drilling pins into my brain..and I dozed off ~___~ I got a wonderful trashing from dad after that (yep, he was damn mad) and that totally killed my mood for the day. Though, meeting up with Karen again did make up things for awhile, and her two sisters Amanda and Stephanie. They're a nice bunch. Especially when Steph told me where I can get Getbacker's PS2 game X3 I went horseback riding again, after what seemed to be ages of not touching a horse. XD Too bad I didn't get to enjoy it much nyuu, head was burning the whole time, even when we had a mini-telematch. The best part about the event was that I managed to get 40 bucks by just squeezing water from a sponge into a bottle. wow XD It seems that Dad's company is so rich they don't know where to trash their cash. BTW, everything had taken place in a site called Eagle Ranch, which my nii-san scoffs at cause we didn't see even a single feather, let alone an eagle XD On the way back home, we stopped by at Seremban and had dinner. We had crabs, and crap~ I think I'm allergic to crabs as well. In fact, I don't think I'm the only one XD Mum seems to get itches once she *touches* crabs. Heh, what can I say? It's in the genes XD XD

Sunday~

Life continues, and I have to get up early for tuition classes. The damnation of it all. I planned to stop by at Sg.Wang and check out the Gempak Fest after class, so I tried on the Tenipuri outfit. It's a tad bit too big, but it fits nonetheless XD I guess the size is more for the guys after all. I felt kinda weird going for classes in sports apparals XD Even weirder when I had to pass flyers for CF at Sg.Wang in it. I bumped into Kitsune, Jared, Kid-chan, Tenzan, Dai, Yuki and Kiraneko there, and somehow or rather ended up passing flyers with them XD Kitsune was cosplaying a gothic, Kid-chan as Mil...Mill ahh..the pink haired girl from Galaxy Angel..I forgot how to pronouce her name >.<>.< He remembered me nyuu...gomenasai~ I will NEVER forget you anymore XD You know, those part time models cosplaying as RO characters are actually very nice people. It was fun striking chats with them, and the guys were generous in giving pointers in things, like...pass the flyers under the air cond vent so you won't feel hot XD It's a shame that I couldn't manage to get his name at least. Harkuryuu came too, followed by Kiyaa awhile later. I got bullied when Harkuryuu came while I was inside handling Whisper @___@ We finished up at last, and then there were only the 4 of us. Kiyaa, Jared, Kitsune and I then bumped around scouting for Kiyaa's prom outfit. We couldn't find much in Sg.Wang, so we headed to TS. She looked fabulous in those gowns, I tell ya XD And she looks great in cheongsams too!! At least..better than someone I know =____= Jared and Kitsune found the joy of measuring themselves while waiting for Kiyaa to try her cheongsams.O.o Jared had nothing better to do and helped measured me too, *laughs* And we found out he and I have the same butt measurement. Imagine that XD XD He even has a better figure than I do! Omg!!~ And to think he's a guy...errks XD Mum began to drop hints that she wants me home NOW, and I left early, only to get stuck by the heavy rain, got myself dripping wet, then surrendered and decided to take the monorail, which was filled by hordes of people waiting to get their tickets ~___~ Stupid rain. Somehow bumped back to the rest again *laughs* Anyway, I'm glad I got away without any trouble for coming back late U.U"

Monday~

I had to leave home early in the morning for tuition class again~ *sighs* This time, I thought I'd just drop by a cyber cafe and spend an hour blogging or something, since I was banned from the home computer anyway. (which explains this massive post nyuu) I was well into finishing my blog, and the blardy computer just shuts off on me 10 minutes before my hour was up. THE DAMNATIONS!!!! To think that I've typed a hell of an essay (yes, much much longer than the above post) and before I had the chance to even save it down...gaaarrr!!!~ The worst bit was that I had to pay for nothing >.<>.<>.<>.<>.< Even if I say I currently do like someone, that doesn't mean a thing. It'll never, mean a thing. So there. Leave me alone @____@

Tuesday~

I spend the whole day laying on my bed. Food poisoning...as mum claimed it to be. Didn't go to see a doctor.. I refused by pretending to be asleep the whole day.

Wednesday~

I'm still sick, and still didn't get to the hospital or anything like that. I resent needles XD

BGM : Melissa - Porno Graffiti - Full Metal Alchemist

finally got to blog

2004-12-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

It took me an hour and a half to wait for blogspot to recover and let me blog. =____=

These past 3 days have seriously taken it's toll on me, I've pushed it too far XD I went and met up with Wee Li at Sungai Wang on Tuesday, for the *supposedly* outing for the Nyo forumers, which turned out fantastically dissapointing in terms of members arrival. It didn't matter much later though when we met up with Iris and then Shinnoir. We then headed to Suncomic, after getting lost in the darn place, going up and down like lost tourist ( somehow I ALWAYS get lost in Sg.Wang) I finally, FINALLY got my whole set of Seigaku Tennis Club's uniform. Ah~ Happiness. Then grabbed a bite at McDonald while sitting at the end corner of the fastfood joint. Goodness it brings back such fun and nostalgic memories XD Najwa, Ade, Nabbie, Izy_Clover and I had once passed around shounen ai drawings of Shoji in total chaos, much to the horror of the other male forumers and to the shock of other patrons XD That was more than a year ago....ah~ Wee Li and Iris, who at first refused to have anything lost to the temptation of having an ice cream each nyuuu~ After that we walked to TS and met up with Craymel and Tofuking. Obviously that would take us to the arcade, and we stayed there till Tofuking was satisfied in spending 20 bucks worth of tokens. I know I'm not even supposed to go on the dance machine, but I did ^^; but BUT!! I'm fine. My leg ish fine... Wee Li then pointed at a girl wearing short skirt and dancing on the EZ2D and commented she could dance rather well. I turned, and had to rub my eyes when I thought she was Miaka. We then went and watch her dance, and I had to rub my eyes even more >.< Only to find out it WAS Miaka!!! Ny00t!! XD She was back for a day, and was loaded with Brownies. Max and Ezel arrived after that, apparently travelling all the way just for the brownies O.o We went to McD ( again) downstairs, had drinks and just talked. Tofuking made a nuisance out of himself when he flung his wallet (omg of all things) at Cray and it landed nicely on the indian mak cik next door huhhhuhu~ Everyone are betrayers *burst into flames* I shall get everyone of you for being betrayers!!!~ How could you guys all gang up and bully me T____T We then split up and left soon after Iris rushed off cause she was late in picking up her mum ( terbalik nyuu? )

The aftermath of it all? Cray is the small eyed bishie, because wherever he smiles or laughs, his eyes turns into a straight line... like many anime characters. A small beancurd is tauhu, a small pack of beancurd if taufu-fah, while a big one is Tofuking XD XD And you guys are bad people for ganging up and bullying me.

Wee Li and I then made our way back to her place, which was pretty irritating. First we thought we'd take the LRT, and walked under the rain, which then poured heavily >.<>.< I would never sleep in her room alone. Her mum scares me too, one is because I've always been very uncomfortable with people's parents ( Heck, I can't even stand being around my own mother ) , let alone her mum who happens to be my teacher in school. Nyuuhuhuhu~ But alas, Pn.Ng is rather nice, plus she can cook good food. I totally enjoyed my stay at Wee Li's place, didn't realise we could actually talk about so many things, and I got to know more about her personality over the night, which was really cool. We were talking until we lost track of time, and before you know it, it was already past 4.00 XD We mutually agreed to sleep then and apparently, she had a bit of a difficulty in waking me up in the morning...uhh~ gomen U.U" After breakfast, she switched on the com and we both began to disturb everyone on msn~ nyuuhuhuhu.

Ne ne~ Xiong Ie you still sick desu ka? Rest more! Less vanilla coke would do you good.

Wee Li and her mum then so kindly fetched me all the way to the LRT station the next day...uhhh I feel so bad U.U" I wanted her to come along to TS with me, but Pn.Ng is scary nyuuu~ gomenasai~ couldn't do anything. But thanks for the fun time!! I really love spending time with you nyuu!! And thanks for the Full Metal Panic vcds suu~ Later met up with Wye Ee, Sandy, Shinnoir, Iris, Kitsune, Craymel, Tofuking at TS. Sandy practically screamed her head off louder than those on the roller coaster ride when she saw me >.< I made the biggest mistake of wearing the Seigaku jacket out and meet her. We then made her change and she wore the Seigaku polo t-shirt, she looked shorter and more like a boy XD The perfect Ryoma cosplayer. For once, we decided not to attack McD, and sat at the small shop just opposite McD, but somehow all of us ended up ordering from McD anyway =___= Kitsune, as usual began drawing suddenly it turned into a drawing and picture taking frenzy. I so blame your digikame, Shinnoir~ Hisashi later joined us at the arcade, and we went for makan again, this time at the Kebab snackhouse. Ohhh~ thanks for the blanja Sandy XD Now we all feel kinda bad nyuu~ We even took pics of Kitsune in the Seigaku jacket (darn..so kakkoi XD) but since Shinnoir hasn't passed me the pics yet I can't show it here for now. Please be patient su~ I recorded Kitsune dancing wearing it nyahahaha! Though it's very dark and yea, the only thing you can make out of the video is a flying jacket and two illuminous hands going up and down, like a ghostly saturday night fever. *shivers*

I don't know how it did it then, but somehow managed to drag everyone out of the arcade, rather reluctantly *laughs* and bumped into Xiao Ying who was entering the arcade. No surprise there, since she just merdeka-ed and really, where else would you go and celebrate? XD She joined Kitsune and the rest of us headed to Sg.Wang....(again) After walking super slowly and bumping our way everywhere, we ended up in Suncomics, with Xiao Ying and Kitsune joining us back again soon after. Huh~ headache XD Had another arguing fit with Ah Seng, the guy at Suncomic cause he still refuses to sell the Haro to me >.< Then we split up again with the whole gang going to Low Yat while the both of them headed off somewhere to pierce Xiao Ying's ears. o.O I am afraid of piercing I know, it's very uncomfortable with weird stuff dangling/stuck to your ears after not having anything stuck to it for 16 years. Ny00t. We accompanied Hisashi to withdraw money while having a phone number exchanging party. Suddenly everyone was playing miss call with everyone =____=;; Mum called, and woot~ it was time to head back home if I don't want my head chopped. Hisashi was such a dear to accompany to the Hang Tuah LRT while everyone else took the monorail at TS. Gomen su~~ made you walk U.U''' gomen and thanks su!!~ I feel so bad... nyaih...

Came back and had dinner...kinda pushed away my dinner plate. No appetite. I had a splitting headache and just lied down on my bed reading Kreko. I must have dozed off rather quickly, but woke up just as fast. When I checked, I only managed to get a shut eye for 10 minutes! YARGGHH!!! I still feel the pain drilling into my head and took a shower, which made things worst. Lesson learnt? Never shower then cover yourself with the comforter under the air cond, you will get hurt, or worst....flu. *sniff* I still have the pain now, thanks to sleeping late yesterday and waking up early and going for boring lessons. I think I should go back and sleep now... I have lessons again later in the evening...erkss~ But I wanna stay up and practise drawing too... hmm~ I think I'll just practise drawing till I experience extreme fatique then pass out XD

OMG I finally finished the post for this time...took me two days to complete it nyuu~

BGM : Bad Friends - Gensoumaden Saiyuki

2004-11-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

I can't feel any more stupid than this. Ok maybe the pictures below does make me feel more stupid than this, but that's not the point.

Walking blindly and aimlessly around Petaling Street early in the morning while waiting for my class to start. I think I've covered basically everwhere this time. I waited for Popular to start business and then bought a few accounts books. Thinking that I still had about an hour and a half, I went to the usual foodcourt and did some revision, only to find out later when class was *supposed* to start that the class had ended. >.<>.< I only got to meet her after class and passed her back her Doki Doki School Hour anime while she generously passed me notes she jotted for me. Aww~ thanks *hugs*

Having about an hour extra, with me absalutely refusing to go home early, I went and lepak-ed at one of the chinese bookshop, Pak Shen. Bought a few back issues of J-Point and Music Rock, because there's loads and loads of gorgeous pictures on Malice Mizer, Gackt, Lareine, Glay, Luna Sea, Hide (X Japan) and Larc~en~ciel. I love Malice Mizer *turns into goo* Wonder if one day mum will allow me to cosplay as Klaha or something... then again I don't think I have enough guts to pull it off >.< There's a small portion featuring Raphael as well, I wasn't sure who they were at first, or what their songs were like. I just downloaded a few like Lost Graduation and now am crazily hooked XD XD I once again am proudly mentally disturbing everyone with noisy music that only I seem to appreciate. Driving everyone up the wall seems to be my favourite past time lately. I am a Sadist.... Nii-san had enough of it and decided he wanted to go back to his place early huhuhuhu~ And he left me the Photoshop 7 cd yay~

I came back home pretty early after that ( it was about to rain ), ate and passed out on my bed after doing some reading. I didn't sleep for the past few nights again, and managed to make up for it a bit today. I hope I don't have those dreadful dark bags around my eyes >.< I went to take a shower and checked on my hamsters, since the cage needed changing. I thought I'd feed them first before doing so, and the dumb rat bit my finger rather hard. It's bleeding..nyao~ It's upset over something I guess, I don't understand hamster's emotions much U.U" I then decided I didn't want to change the cage myself, and got someone else to do it instead. It was only when I woke up that I remembered I'm supposed to have gone for Pn.Salinah's open house *sweatdrop* But Raihana called in later and said that the open house was cancelled anyway. And then I recieved Wee Li's text message and realised all my timing for next week is so messed up. I need to call everyone I have plans with to double check everything, or I'll end up rushing like a lunatic again.

I read the newspaper today and guess what made me smile and go nuts? Jay Chou is holding a concert in M'sia on the 29th of January 2005. I asked mum about it, and apparently she got hold of the information earlier and already KNEW I was going to ask about it. Wow. In fact, she laid down a few ground conditions that I am to follow so that I'm allowed to go. Drats. I hate bargains like that. She's agreed to get the tickets in advance so that I can get good places too, woow~ And I always thought she was against Jay Chou >.< But I hate bargains!! I'd rather pay it but mum won't have it. Garrr~ Whatever, all she wants is me to behave, help my sister in her studies and study myself. It's pretty easy since that's what I DO all the time anyway .... except the behaving part. It's rather difficult when you have a difficult mother to put up with.

Oh, and there's a small outing that was initially planned between Shin-aniki and me only, since he just came back from Johor and stuff. Then somehow or rather I've been asking more people to join to sort of celebrate Kitsune's belated birthday XD It's on this Wednesday, anyone who's interested in joining us at Times Square, don't bother calling or anything, just show up! XD And The Nyoo forum's debut outing is on this Tuesday at Sg.Wang around noon. Those who aren't nyoo-nyers, I mean, members of The Nyoo are also welcomed to join us and have fun.

I have to remember to pay my deposit for the Seigaku jackets on Tuesday as well.... hmm~

Alright. I am very puzzled. How and why on earth are so many of my ex-classmates from AMC text messaging me now? O.o Chuai Yen and Wai San.. .woot!!~ All of a sudden~ What's going on O.O Though, I'm very glad they contacted me, this is weird XD I feel like going back to Ipoh again ....

BGM : Future go! - FLAME

Pics are finally up

2004-11-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

I've finally uploaded the pictures, though not many since it's rather badly taken by my nii-san... reminds me of aoi_futaba >.<

This, is my whole family. XD The big mandarin orange (as quoted by my dear nii-san) at the back is my dad ^___^

Myself, and my two cousins Shuet Wen and Shuet Rene. And I found out that the multi layered cake at the side, is a fake. I suspect it's made of cardboard or something. When they asked the bride and bridegroom to cut the cake, they only cut a small portion that was actually white dough, the rest of the cake is just deco~ XD XD Hyuuk hyuuk, talk about recycling~

A similiar pic but with my little sister in it. She had two ponytails that night, and all of us couldn't resist calling her ding dong ever since XD

Cherry, my brother's girlfriend XD I don't know why I put this pic up, I just love this one. At that girl at the background is a pooped out me who lacked sleep and got dragged out wee early in the morning to my grandma's place >.<

The only picture of me that I'm ok with, which is quite blurry anyway -___-

Mum ish scary

2004-11-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

This is ridiculous. Mum is starting on her tempers again. What the hell has got into her lately, is beyond any of us >.< No, I haven't started another war with her, but seriously am going to blow up soon enough if I don't watch my steps ... or should I say my mouth closely enough. Started a few days ago when someone ticked her off, and she's now in a yelling spree ^^;; Does all mothers do that, or just mine? Ah well... as long as I bite my tongue and think twice, things have been ok, I'm learning how to hold back, and believe me it's quite impossible sometimes. Makes you feel stupid for keeping quiet and getting bombard.

I had planned to go out with Hisashi to Midvalley yesterday, to pay up my part of the bet that I lost -__-. We had bet that night at the buffet in Seiji's place that no one would notice us gone. The nyoo-ness, everyone did. Unfortunately, Hisashi got into some ill-fated luck and couldn't make it. I'm desperately sorry I can't make it to find you in the end Hisashi, and that you have to listen to me and mum's dumb quarrel over the phone about it. Gomen~ I just found out she has something against Putra LRTs and have unimaginable bad memory. Gomen.... I'll make it up to you soon ne? ^^;;

And I'm sooo, so darn sorry about mum yesterday too Kitsu-chan U.Ux Honestly was shocked when I heard mum yelling over the phone and then heard her mention your name so loudly in such an irritated tone O.o Shouldn't have taken my shower at that time nyuu~ *lol* Mum is in pretty bad mood lately, and you just called at the wrong time? ^^;; And I'm sorry for playing tricks on you and pretending to have forgotten about your birthday. Truth is I wanted to surprise you when I asked you out next week, but since you asked if I remembered.... ah, cat got out of the bag XD Darn it.

Had tuition as usual today, had the stupid rain coming down hard after tuition as usual too >.< It always happens on weekends and rains so hard I get stuck at one corner of Popular waiting for it to subside. I came back seriously tired and wanting to get a nice shower, when Damson called and said he was dropping by. w00t!! O.o He came around 6.00 pm and I invited him over to my place since it was raining and we couldn't go to the mamak downstairs. My whole family met him -___- I have no idea what my parents are thinking right now...erks~ But it's nice to see him again, it's been a rather long time, should inform Barat about this and go out together before he returns to Teluk Intan soon. I missed my dinner too.... am so hungry now... it's already past midnight....

Did I mention that Masa-chan has got back his internet connection? yayness!!! XD XD *glomps* Hope everything ish fine with you too!! I don't like seeing people sad T___T please cheer up soon? XD

BGM : Ni he Wo - Wang Lee Hom

Mah nii-san is in a reality tv show? yeowch

2004-11-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

What on earth is Mah nii-san doing in the papers? XD OMG, he's going to be on TV too! Wow. Finally~

Was reading today's paper, The Star Two section and read the article on Nescafe's Kick Start program and came across Mah Guan Cheng. Dropped the toast I was enjoying too ^^x; I never knew he was an aspiring actor of that sort, took me by surprise na. I called my onii-san awhile later and the conversation went somewhat like below.

Me : Errr..ko? Did you know Mah Guan Cheng is in the papers?

Him : Huh? For what? *yawns* <<--- damn you >.<

Me : Some sort of reality show programme, there's an article on it.

Him : WHAT THE HELL??!!! *Kaede distanced the phone miles away*

And apparently Mah nii-san had just stayed over at his place, and was still with him when I called. Woot~ He yelled and forgot to cover the mouth piece, goodness my ears.

Him : MAH!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN THE PAPERS?!
Me : ..... *sweatdrop*

I swear I could hear muffled sounds at the background, must have been either Mah nii-san or Cherry, when suddenly I heard booming sounds O.O Yea, it was Mah nii-san thundering down from the upper bunk of my brother's double decker bed. I remember creating the same volume of noise the last time I jumped from the same bed XD Anyway from what I can gather, Mah nii-san told him before he joined the programme but my dear brother totally forgot about it. And since he doesn't read the papers... *lol* His reaction was priceless though, I can just imagine his stoned face. They began talking again, sometimes laughing and totally forgot about me U.U

Me : eto...ko? ko....? I'm still here~ woi~~

And then, all of a sudden.*click* And I hear the dead tone. WTH! He just hung up on me like that, that blardy good for nothing.....*rolls up sleeve* He's so gonna get it from me tomorrow when he gets back, especially if he doesn't bring Cherry back ( yes, I adore her XD ) and my Photoshop 7 installation cd. *AND* my Naruto cds. Yes, I demand too much as well. Oh yea. AND! The playstation2... I'm a wreck without it, my moods go haywire without it.

Anyway, tune it to 8tv tomorrow evening at 9.45 to catch Nescafe's Kick Start. Support Mah nii-san!! Support Mah nii-san!! It's been a dream of his since little I guess, but we never got to see any of his acting stuff cause he was in N9 and we were everywhere but in N9.

BGM : Joushou Gaidou - Miyavi

the shittest

2004-11-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

Argh, the blardiest thing to happen at the blardiest time. Stupid blogspot erased my post attempt for the day. Damnation TT___TT

Now I feel too lazy to write, I simply refuse to write everything again. Just a few notes to remember, like, don't even bother reading the post below, cause they're just a bunch of junk. I wasn't thinking sanely when I typed those. I think without my brain, and I don't think when I type. See? My psychotic moods appears once in awhile when I'm groggy and half awake. Absalutely nothing to worry about ^^ I'm fine. And I'm not *cough* lying. I'm sorry to have made you guys worried.... and thanks for calling Xiong Ie. I really really appreciate that, but there's still nothing to worry about. I'm...sorry you had to call and worry over nothing >.< gomen......~

I need to write more constructive post often. Cannot afford to turn this place into a ranting hell O.o Apparently I can be quite good at that, getting into what you call it... bitch fits? XD Crap, I just watched White Chicks, bear with me. When the world seems to be flying around in circles... no wait... it is. Ah, whatever.. when everything seems bad, the best thing to do is lie down and enjoy a manga. XD I just got Fruit Basket 15 and Gouhou Drugstore <<-- it's yaoi XD Maybe Furuba isn't the right manga at that time, cause the chapter on Yuki's past was tear inducing. And he feels for Tohru not like a gf, but for a mum, that's.....sick -___- and his hairstyle reminds me of Fuji from Tenipuri. Go read for yourself, I'm tired and too lazy to describe anything else.

Oh and before I end the post of the day..... I just found out that Souichirou Hoshi is actually the seiyuu for Lucia Rareglove in Rave. O____O

BGM : Blow winds - Saiyuki

2004-11-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

I changed my blog layout again. Whatever. It's dark and and I like that way cause I'm feeling very moody lately, right until I got a good lecture from both my parents. Whatever. I really can't describe how I feel right now, just too many dumb things thwirling around my messed up head, happens when you're too free and stuck at home like an idiot. I just realised I've been such a selfish bitch, so blardy inconsiderate and self centred I dread looking at myself in the mirror. I kept reflecting and hovering moments of self-pity that I failed to see the people around me, it'd never struck me that I've always failed to be there for anyone.

I hate keeping this I'm fine don't worry happy-go-lucky mask anymore. Given a choice I would rather have how I feel shown to the world all the time ( which is rather dark ) I don't need pity from anyone, me giving pity to myself half the time is pathetic enough. I have fierce moods, and my pride. Sheesh my self pride rockets sky high. I'd like to be left alone for now, but I want to be there for the most of you too. If you think I'm doing so just to amend my mistakes, go ahead if that would make you feel happier. I'm just sorry I was so blind to see, so caught up with my own friggin'ly over exxageratted problems that now looks like a speck of bacteria. Perhaps I'm not the right person to care at all. I don't know how, I'm afraid to even confront and comfort. I'm afraid what happened before to a friend would repeat history. I'm really sorry....

It took me many sleepless nights to think about myself. Holidays do have effects on me. I always thought that I'm that type of independent girl that doesn't need anyone to live, and I was wrong. I've been searching for someone to depend on all this while, selfishly doing so and not offering myself to anyone else. Most I do is say some bullshit like Oh, Don't worry everything would be fine and then I myself fear. I just need a place to be and feel comfortable. Somewhere deep inside of me, I feel like if I don't get what I want, I won't offer what I have, or what I can give.

To everyone who's expected me to be there before ( perasan-ted >.< ) , who time and again I've failed, I'm truly am sorry. I'll try not to be so darn irritating and annoying and pretentious. Wee Li, Michy... Xiong Ie ... Masa-chan ... I'm so sorry for being so dumb ass. I don't know how to comfort anyone of you anymore. I know I should be more of a friend to care, I really do but it seems I can't show. I'm sorry~

WTF, I don't even know what the hell I just wrote.

BGM : Long Road - Winds

2004-11-22T10:07:00.000+08:00

I got the pics of myself in cheongsam like shin-aniki wanted ( might post it later ) I didn't know I had so many taken, but dad was in this nutty must snap everything in sight mood, and kept dragging me into his shots. Both my cousins Shuet Rene and Shuet Wen attended the dinner in cheongsams too XD Suddenly the attention all turned to the three of us instead of the bridal couple.... *sweatdrop* Had people I don't even know snapping pics.... scary. I don't know what was there to take anyway, knowing that my self confidence plumetted right down after looking back at the pics

"Gawd Kaede you have blardy fat legs"

Nobody believes me when I say I'm fat. Ceh.~ Right whatever. I'm here to report my leg is supposed to be getting better by now, but it ain't XD All thanks to wearing blardy high heels that night, my legs hurt even more. Don't worry I'm not limping yet. And guess what? I had to run under the rain after class yesterday in Petaling Street, wow. YAY~ I'm so going to amputate it soon~~ Mnn..I might go see a doctor later in the evening or something... after my classes later that is... *thinks* then maybe not X3

Later at night we had another small family gathering, had dinner together. Aunt Soo San's treat. I think she has something against me... half the dishes she ordered had prawns in it, one was so well hidden I almost didn't notice. Then my ototo just had to be itchy fingers and began poking the catfish's eyeballs, that didn't really help my appetite. Not to mention Shuet Wen suddenly going hyper and rambling on about her Bio class dissecting frogs last year to disturb our mentality. Never realised dinner could be such torture.

But I came back home a satisfied anyhow since the computer is ok now, hence the blogpost and major spams everywhere. I made a stupid mistake though. I accidently permenantly deleted half my files. Luckily not all are important. My Yami to boushi to hon...whatever anime series are gone, and my King of Bandits Seventh Heaven. Now that hurts cause I spent a lifetime downloading that and haven't even started watching it yet. *sigh* This sucks.

This sucks too. My aniki took back the PS2. NYOOO!!!!!~~~~ I feel like strangling him. How could he do that to me *sobs* He just took it without a word. Great, Shadow Hearts is left dangling goodness knows where, barely even started FMA. And Spongebob is lost somewhere in the memory card. To think I was planning to get MGS 3 today....*sobs* I think he's already purchased MGS 3...that's why he "stole" back the PS2 to play first.

*stabs everyone*

BGM : Days - Shela - Hikaru No Go

so many things to say XD

2004-11-20T09:54:00.000+08:00

No, I'm not finally back ...yet~ Currently at my cousin's place, and made use of his computer while everyone is downstairs receiving their respective ang paus. Gawd! What am I thinking!! X3

How long have I been away from the computer? Not long I guess, but it did feel like an awfully long time. I'm actually lazy to update what happened on each day, and so I guess I won't! Yay~ that was easy enough XD Yesh, I'm being mean, to myself even. I wanted to post about the stay over at Seiji so that I myself wouldn't forget, but the computer busted on me, too bad. I know I had fun, and dark rings around my eyes the next day. Thanks for letting us leech at your place and create one heck of a havoc XD TWICE! Omg~

How am I doing lately? Not very well thanks. Don't ask me why I'm answering myself, it seems that everyone is asking how am I doing lately, I thought I'd just answer it here. Why? Cause I think too much. I know, Ezel... I can't help it. And most of you probably know what's bothering me, either that or you're pretending. All of you are such great liars.... X3 Darn, I'm a liar too, especially if I say I don't care one bit about whats happening lately. I hate it when I think too much, I can't sleep, I get moody and then I make everyone around me feel uncomfortable... WAAAHHH~!!! GOMENASAI!! GOMENASAI!!!!~~~

I'm not sure if you read this Hisashi, but I'd just like to say thanks for talking to me yesterday. I felt like... gawd, I felt better I guess, I finally got things off my chest. BUT! I'm still not happy with whatever's going on. It's not fair. T____T I need another hug su..... I don't know how you got me to admit so many things man... you're just scary XD But I like talking to you, though I hope whatever, won't change anything. It's too precious for me, and you know that, don't you? XD And you too Aiko-chan, thanks for the nudgings hahahah~

Ah yes, and Chris-sama XD Gawd thanks for fetching me up and down yesterday ... I feel so bad, so guilty. And Xiong Ie... I made a mess out of your plannings.... gomenasai su.... U.Ux' Me bad...bad~ girl~~ I totally blundered everything kyaaa~

Yay.. my right leg REALLY hurts now. I knew I shouldn't have pushed myself so far yesterday on the EZ2D. I never learn XD Gee I'm so clever. I thought it was fine yesterday at Seiji's place, it wasn't THAT bad, but I woke up this morning with this darn excruciating pain and can't even get off my bed. I think I need to stay away from certain activities now... drats. No roller blading, no chasing people down 13 floors by the stairway, no more EZ2D, no more fights with ototo, no basketball, no fun.....

Life sucks when you're injured.

Life sucks even more when you don' have your computer to kill time. Life sucks even WORST when Metal Gear Solid 3 is out and you've not got your hands on it XD Yep, MGS 3 ish the out su!!!~~ Heard from Atticus and Heal yesterday, and went completely nuts knowing I can't get it until at least Tuesday. Guess I have to be contented with playing Shadow Hearts 1 and 2 for the moment, and FMA in between..... I don't understand FMA at all, I just enjoy the graphics. My japanese is still way under par.... *sobs*

BGM : some...weird... chinese song I've never heard before in my life.. -___-

Downloading Gackt

2004-11-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

One reason why I prefer to ask my dad if I can go out than asking my mum is because he's not so tight on the reign with me. As long as he deems it's safe, and in this case it seems to satisfy him, I get to stay over night at a friend's place.

Today is the first day of a two month long holiday, and I did nothing but glue myself to the computer, literally! Finally got the mood to scavange back all the lost J rock songs I once proudly owned, starting with Gackt, Hyde and Miyavi. I super love Gackt!!! XD I don't understand why people just don't know how to appreciate his songs a little bit more. Jess even said he looked scary, is he? Of course not! He was voted as one of the most beautiful men in Japan's entertainment industry, alongside with Hyde *yay!* and Ken Hirai. How can he be scary looking?!! Hah~

And I just downloaded a few chapters of Star Ocean. Haven't gone to start reading it yet, but the artwork ish very nice, might decide to go get it at Kinokuniya once I have enough okanes.... currently I need lots of donations XD Any givers? nyooo~

Latest newsflash --->> Prince of Tennis boxset 7 is out!!! I was planning to get it tonight when I bring my ototo and his Ipoh friend Ivy around town and Petaling Street. The both of them decided to forget about it last minute and stayed at home.... *bah* Might consider getting it tomorrow, along with Full Metal Alchemist ( YES! I KNOW!! I'M SLOW~ ) but considering that I won't be able to watch it either until at least late next week... might as well buy it later.

I think I also need to get something nice to wear for my counsin brother's wedding dinner in Muar on Sunday... mum is insisting that I get a dress for once. *sweatdrop* Why is everyone trying to force dresses on me, especially when they know I dislike them and don't look good in them. I even feel uncomfortable in my own school uniform for crying out loud!!~ I *was* thinking about wearing the cheongsam mum bought for me in China, but it's rather uhm.. short for comfort and I don't have the proper footwear to go with it ~____~ I hate dressing up for the occasion. If I'm mean enough I might even forgo the dinner, but since I'm so close with him and such... ( he dots on me alot XD ) Most of all, I don't enjoy shopping for clothes. Good lord, now I don't sound like a girl *sweatdrops*

BGM : Lust for Blood - Gackt

2004-11-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

A little Mynah flew into my old hamster cage when I left it out to dry after cleaning it and the maid just caught it, and stuffed it into the cage.... which has now turned into a temporary bird cage. I'm extremely upset about this matter, I don't like seeing that bird in such a pathetic cage when it's not even supposed to be there. If I hadn't known better I would have screamed my head off at the maid for even thinking about catching it. Mum still isn't keen on letting the poor bird go, and I totally lost my cool on her, which ended with me refusing dinner. Dad came back and he too didn't like the idea of caging that bird, who by then had quiten down. The whole house felt like it was toppled upside down with it keep screaching and banging on the cage while staring at the house's windows. Finally mum agrees to let it out tomorrow, since it's raining pretty heavily now.

On a lighter note though, I finished watching Senkaiden Houshin Engi ( thanks again Wee Li XD ) Nyaaa~ it's a rather complicated anime. The reason being I don't understand the subbings and the anime is only a portion of the manga. So basically, the anime is like SDK but of better quality and slightly more logical?? Heh. I don't think I'm even gonna start on giving a short sypnosis cause I definately have no idea where to start XD

I have a weak spot for blue-haired bishies *grins*

This ish probably the most underated anime character in the anime. Fugen's like, one of the bishie-est and he appears in the last two episodes doing nothing but holding a globe like ball -___- *PLUS* the seiyuu is Megumi Ogata. How can they do this?!

Youzen is the good but bad then turned good guy. Blue haired bishie XD Seiyuu ish Ryotarou Okiayu *melts into kaede goo* He's a damn cute bishie. Nuff said ^^ Oh, and his lil Lassie like doggie ish darn kawaii~

Actually, I don't like this guy one bit. That is until the last few episodes. Through out the anime he's being potraited as a stupid and friggin'ly useless emperor that is better off dead. I felt like strangling or just killing off that blardy character myself. In the last few episodes the anime showed the real emperor before he was controlled by Dakki, and I actually felt a tad bit pity for him. Seiyuu ish Koyasu Takehito XD Just for the heck of spoilers? He died in the end.

Heck, everyone died -__- There seems to be lots of short and brief dying scenes everywhere. They kill a partially important character and that's it. No big deal.... the only scene that made me wipe a tear was when the Jeneral of the West opened the plate and teared while still locked in jail by Dakki. Though they didn't show what he saw, my guess is it was the head of he first son ( also another blue haired bishie XD )

My conclusion though, is that if you don't watch the anime, you probably won't miss much. Though, chances are the manga is way better, so I'm getting the manga soon. There's also a game for it....somewhere.

BGM : Night Deluxe - Lead

Raihana likes kitsune O_O

2004-11-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

I feel, it's about time I slow down and stop going to TS too often. *sweatdrop* Went there on Saturday, then yesterday ( Sunday ) and today ( Monday ) and now I'm freakin'ly tired and seriously needs a good night sleep.

Hisashi asked me out to TS yesterday, and having nothing better to do, I agreed. Then a few ex-classmates of mine invited me out for a movie at Midvalley late Saturday. I was like, dang! What am I supposed to do! I really want to go meet Hisashi, and I've not seen the girls for 4 years!!!! In the end, I opted to meet my childhood friends before meeting up with Hisashi. So I went to Midvalley after class, and realise one major thing. It's been 4 years of no contact, I have no idea how they look like, and goody! My hp has no credit X3 It was also at that time when Sandy texted and practically yelled over her message that Suncomic in Sg.Wang is selling Seigaku's jacket, jersey, tracksuit, shorts, Ryoma's cap and student's card together in one pricing. Huh...take a deep breath......

KKKKIIIIIIYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~

I openly admit I kinda screamed at the hp in the middle of nowhere too. Now I don't have to go find a tailor to do anything, and the cost of getting all of those is actually way cheaper than me getting just one jacket. Unfortunately it's supposedly super hard to order. If you're late, well, that's just too bad. Fortunately, Sandy *hugs her loads* knows very well that I'm dying for the jacket, booked it for me first. X3 I so love you!!!!~~~

LoL. Anyway I couldn't find my friends at the McD in front of GSC, and decided to wait at McD, and doodled abit. You know sometimes you can feel if someone's beside you? and STARING? Yea, I felt that too, turned around and saw Guest18/Aoi staring at me. O_O He was like, WHAT are you doing here? And I was like, WHAT are YOU doing here? Apparently he was waiting for the AM fellas, who coincidencely didn't show up either. In the end, he offered to drive me to TS to meet up with Hisashi since he had nothing better to do. Oh, I should mention that he langgared someone ( an old man to be exact ) in the morning when going to MV from Kid-chan's place and got "robbed off" RM50, which was like, all the money he had left? Well, he had another dollar left, and we found 30 cents in his car later.

Yes! We went Kg.Baru-ing! Well, not quite lar, but we kinda didn't know where to go and Aoi had this habit of going hentam jer la~ and then turn into a junction and stuff. O_O Now I know why he keeps getting lost. We ended up in Bangsar for awhile, but everything else went find. Thank goodness. Hisashi was late due to his work, and Aoi was kind of hoping some of the AM people would be around TS, so we checked out the arcade and met Chris there instead, who then joined us for waffles. Hisashi joined us later. The three of them, are practically the world most dangerous trios a girl should ever go out with. For one, they're extremely hentai XD Aiko please watch over that boy of yours. XIONG IE! Stop letting Aoi touch you!! EWWWW!! Everyone freaked out when he said he touched...... eto....he's a plastic ruler huh *lol* We sat there for hours after the waffle, just chatting. It's the first time in my TS history that I didn't spend more than 10 minutes in the arcade? XD

Aoi offered to fetch me home too after we found out that we both lived in Cheras, and Hisashi tagged too since after that they planned to drag Xiong Ie out to yam cha. <<-- at that time, I kinda felt it was actually dangerous for Xiong Ie to go out with Aoi X3 but Hisashi assured me he'll look after Xiong O__o and he even texted me late at night saying he's still safe. -___-||| eto..... Oh, and it rained, joy oh joy. Aoi parked his car kinda far away, like neared to Pudu Plaza instead of nearer to TS? And it poured hard. We all just took our own sweet time getting to the car since we're already wet. Thanks for the jacket though, Aoi, and Hisashi who kept insisting I used his jacket too ^^;

I couldn't get any sleep last night because I had a stroll under the rain, and suffered rather badly thanks to it. Got *slightly* better this morning and went to school, cause I'm a good girl hehehehhe~ Raihana then wanted head to TS after school to buy Pn.Rahimah's present and dragged a very reluctant me along. That until I remembered Kitsune had mentioned he's going there today. Finally got Pn.Rahimah a sayonara present, because she's moving to Putrajaya and has transferred school along the process, leaving us behind T____T It's a round radio clock. Kitsune couldn't wait at the arcade for me anymore, and headed out to look for me. Waaahhh~ gomen gomen gomen!!!!! *kowtows* We met him, his ototo and Iris-chan!! *huggles* Raihana says Kitsune ish cute ^____^ Hanged around the arcade for awhile, waiting for the rain to subside, then we walked together towards the Hang Tuah LRT and Monorail station.

Now, Raihana wants to get a bf who has the same ... what was that word she mentioned ... character as Kitsune. Actually, it's pretty obvious she's taken a liking to him *laughs* Scary, cause now she's talking about Kitsune non-stop ^^;;

Ah, and Shin-aniki? Don't worry, I've recieved all of your text messages even though I can't reply you yet ^^x Suman ne~ and yes, I'll burn a cd for ya. Just don't blame my taste later eh X3

Lastly, I'd just take a portion of this blog-space to express my condolence to the family of Nur Dilah, whom passed away yesterday after she lost her battle against Leaukimia. May her family have the preseverence to continue their lives without anymore tears and sorrows.

BGM : Mune no Kodou - FLAME

cramped post

2004-11-06T22:30:00.001+08:00

僕は雨が大きらい！！！　かさがもっと大きいだけど。。。

Here's my attempt to cramp in 3 days worth of blogpost in one.

Thursday - I don't remember a thing, cept that I went to school and had the longest drawing session with Wee Li and Michy in school. Borrowed Houshin Engi from Wee Li too.

Friday - Skipped school. And according to Wee Li, got threatened to be 'fired' by Pn.Salinah for playing traunts XD Spent the whole morning watching the anime I borrowed. I screamed in delight at the very beginning of the first episode when I heard Akira Ishida's voice, and then screamed in horror when I saw his character. Was planning to go to Kuen Cheng 1 for the Children's Day event, but then backed out and headed for Add Math's class instead. I went to pick my sister ( who's studying there ) and met Janell.... after 4 darn years!!!! OMG!! She's so big now!! I couldn't recognise her! She's so pretty XD XD Spending a hell of a time with her nowadays remembering good ol' times. There's a lot to catch up with after 4 years of no-contact. Another big surprise was Craymel. I saw a little dude running towards me and was taken aback to find Craymel there. I never knew that he was a Kuen Cheng 1 graduate. XD This world ish so small indeed.

Saturday - Got forced out of bed again and headed for Add Math class groggily half past dead. Was supposed to go to Kasturi tuition instead but didn't.... and after Add Math ended up in Times Square alone. ( Add Math class is stupid by the way ) Spent what seemed like hours there, and then met up with Lai Pui and Kai Mun. They're going for the S.H.E concert tonight.... bleh~ I'm not interested in S.H.E .... much. Ah and I found something else to play in the arcades XD I actually spent more time on the Pop'n Music machine than EZ2D. I think I'm already bored of the dance machine....... ;3 It was raining hard, and still raining when I wanted to go home, reached home safe and soaked, and shivering. Gawd I love the rain.... NOT! My ototo just bought MAR vol 6 today, and yea indulged myself in manga-ness / bishie-ness again. I want MAR vol 7 T____T

I want to chat with Masa-chan too T____T It's been so long. I want my mum to take off this dumb 12.00 midnight ban gaarrr!!!! I want to have a Flip Flap ( the mini articile in Gempak today made me yearn for it more ) I want to have more sleep but still suffering from sleepless nights. I want the blardy rain to stop already. I especially want the blardy rain not to fall tomorrow when I go meet Hisashi. If it does...I swear..... I might get wet again XD XD

I don't even know if I'm well enought to go out tomorrow..kyaa~ Clever me made myself sick again, Cheers to late night cold cincaus, now I have a sore throat and dry cough. Cheers to walking under the rain and getting drenched over and over again, now I have flu XD I'm so proud of myself. *sneezes*

BGM : Lang Hua Yi Duo Duo - Richie Ren

Out with Iris

2004-11-03T01:15:00.000+08:00

Gee, thanks for waking me up this morning Xiong... I wouldn't have overslept and forget all about today XD

Mum had asked me to accompany her to Ipoh yesterday, but changed her mind late last night, which was about the time I agreed to go out with Iris and her friends. This morning mum changed her mind again ( fickled minded XD ) and asked me if I wanted to go. So yes I was very torned between, but decided to join Iris instead, because Xiong Ie wanted to join as well, in contrast of what he said yesterday. ( Fickled minded XD ) I was force fed lunch by mum before leaving the house. Urgh... I hate whatever that dish was..... Can't even recognise what it is @____@

Walked around town trying to locate the lost boy, and ended up lost myself, and somehow ended up in Low Yat checking out figurines again while waiting. I want Flip Flaps TT___TT I want FLIP FLAPS!!! Then met up with Xiong Ie after what seemed like ages, and then headed to Sg.Wang to meet up with Iris and both her friends Ah In and Ah San.... Or at least I think that's how you spell their name ^^X' You have no confidence in my sense of direction at all huh..... ~__~ *lol* We bumped around here and there before settling down at Redbox. Went into another figurine shop and.... I WANT FLIP FLAPS!!!! T__T On another note, that's about my first and most probably the last time I ever go to Redbox in the near future. It's cold too... Remind me to bring my drawing stuff too next time I get dragged into Redbox so that I can just sit at one corner and draw instead of singing like Xiong Ie today XD Managed to get him to sing one or two songs at last. You ish a big fat LIAR!!!~~~ LIAR!! LIAR!!!!~~ *takes out signs and rallies* LIAR!!!~~ Iris can sing XD She and Ah San and Ah In all can sing. I, on the other hand has not practised my chinese for ages and has not listened to chinese songs for quite awhile, so I'm rather rusty. Bleh~

Left that place at 6.oopm and went straight home. Xiong Ie was nice to walk me to the LRT station... which actually is really just on the way la, but thanks all the same ^^ I reached home with the intention of getting some peace at last, which I did until Xiao Ying called. Ok she is JUST SCARY! I'm being bombarded with weird questions again. Why is everyone asking me weird questions lately? Why is everyone saying the same things over and over again lately? Gosh even Iris is doing it. What is going on?? Is this a conspiracy against me or something??! Why is it no one would tell me anything when they keep asking everything about me? Why can't I know something that's going on about me...... TT___TT I feel so lost. I feel so messed up. I don't know what to think or how to feel anymore..... help~ How am I supposed to explain how I feel when someone asks me like that so abruptly.... eto...~ I'm afraid of answering questions already! I'm very afraid that what I say sooner or later will affect what I already have! I'm afraid to offend anyone, I'm afraid people will start thinking weird stuff again!! So please.... stop asking >__<

One fine day when the weather is bright and sunny, I'm going to strangle people and demand answers... right now, I'm not in the mood to do anything of the like. I'm just going to throw myself on the bed, tuck my face into the pillow and sleep. Erm, not like I can sleep anyway. For the past few days I've been staying up until very late too... so much so I lack of sleep. Insommania? Perhaps. I just can't sleep. Thinking too much? Perhaps. I should take Ezel's advice, don't think too much since it doesn't matter, things will twist out just as screwed. LOL Thanks XD

BGM : Scarlet - Ayashi No Ceres

Kitsune-chan @___@

2004-11-01T18:19:00.000+08:00

I just noticed I have a bad habit of delaying my blog posting even though I had the intention to do so. I was not in the mood to blog yesterday I guess, and no Kit-chan, I don't blame you for any of that ^^

I went to the KL Library with my uncle yesterday afternoon, which explains why I didn't attend Graffiti's birthday outing. Sorry Max ^^X' Anyway, I found sanctuary in that place!! It's perfect for my taste, and I look forward to spending more time there. Just have to remind myself to bring extra long sleeved tops or a sweater on the next trip. Genting's weather is no match for the blistering cold I felt there... Brrr~~ Thanks to Shin-aniki, I began to have a rather fond interest of various religions and am trying to find out more about them, and I found two WHOLE Rows of it. Yep, leaping in joy I got a book and sat down to indulge myself. My uncle was seriously taken aback when he noticed the book I was reading -->> Polygamy Marraige in Islam. Raised a few eyebrows too I presumed XD Eh...no I don't have the intentions of marrying a married guy or anything..*sweatdrop*

We barely spent 2 hours there I think, cause the library only opened half-days on Sundays. We would have been there way earlier, but my uncle then decided to go Kg-Atap-ing. Yea, instead of Kg.Baru-ing, my uncle landed himself in the middle of a massive Kg.Atap traffic jam. Thankfully, the ride home was smooth and quick. Reached home at around 4.30pm and found both my parents gone for the day to Port Dickson. They forgot about me -___-|| I did mention I don't mind going since I wanted to play tennis again. I called and they said that they couldn't wait cause they knew I was coming home late. Baaahh~~~ I want to play tennis...... So I had to stay at home and the most I could do was sulk. Bleeh~

Went on a scanlation downloading spree at Obsession through bittorent *grins* and Kit-chan called right at the moment I finished downloading. It was about 6.00pm and he asked me out to Times Square. So I did, and just as I stepped out of the elevator it began to pour. It wasn't very heavy, very mild actually, but I feared that it would get heavier. Me and my ah what the heck attitude walked under the rain for awhile, thinking that it's just a short distance to the LRT station, only to find the rain stopped after about 50 meters... What the.... Anyhow I still reached Times Square late due to the SUPER LATENESS of the LRT train to Sentul. Kit-chan was already on the Ez2D by the time I reached the arcade, and that irritating Tommy-guy was there as well ~___~ He grabbed me by the hand again when pretending to apologies when Kit-chan wasn't looking and only let go when I kicked him hard on his foot and knee. Later on when Kit-chan wasn't looking again he grabbed me from behind and I think I injured him a little too much ... I remember elbowing him on the chest about 3 times ... ka, and swung my leg from the side and hit his back. Ouch, must have hurt *grins* I would have gone down and swipe my leg to hit his to make him fall and make a total fool out of him, but he was grabbing my arm the whole time so it was hard to move much. For a skinny guy that para-paras like a squid, he has strength I hate to admit.

I got slightly injured too on the arms, I can still see mild scratch marks as a result from my violent struggling. And I flunked at EZ2D, nyaaa~~ The both of us, Kit-chan and I then left the arcade when we finished our tokens and got a drink at Tutti Fruiti downstairs. Went looking for a suitable earring for him as well, couldn't find it. The salesgirl was surprise that we were getting him one instead of me *giggles* We then left TS after getting rations at McD, Kit-chan decided to walk me back to Hang Tuah LRT station XD *hugs* And we talked alot, questions and answers that we've never talked about, or perhaps, never dared to talk about before. But after yesterday night, many things were cleared up, and yea many new thoughts are popping up in my head ~____~ I offered to accompany him at the monorail station until the next train came, so we sat at the corner of the station chatting while waiting. The next train came, and Kit-chan decides to board the next one. Then the next train came, and he begs to let him board the next one. So the next one came again, and he swears the next one he'll board. *laughs* He did in the end, and I went home alone. Gosh my first time walking home alone in the dark!! It was very scary.... so dark .... I decided to follow a malay family that was walking back as well so I'd be safer, and at peace knowing that there aren't any ghost around...

I got home and remembered that I forgot to have breakfast and lunch, which then solved the mystery of my growling stomach. Had a quick dinner then called Kit-chan to continue where we left off earlier. He was cycling while on the phone and dare lie to me saying that he was walking home. I found out when he almost hit a cat... grr~ Now, I am a very messed up girl after talking to him. I have no idea what to think anymore, and can't even ignore what I've trying to push aside all these while. Come to think of it, it's pretty hilarious... things he said. I'm sorry la Kit-chan, but I can't see myself in that light ^^X' After that I went online, supposedly for awhile, cause my ototo wanted to use it later. I ended up using it until 4.oo am O____O Chatting with Xiong Ie while going through my scanlations. I couldn't sleep, as usual. Got a fever now as a result of my lack of sleep, BUT! BUT!!! I'm not regreting it, you can't make me Shuu!! Stubborn I am, it's in your grandma's genes. XD Since mum isn't back yet, she doesn't know I'm sick, and I made sure no one tells so I'll be fine.

Mn should go back to my drawing again. I have to start finishing the request tonight or I'll never pass up anything to anyone. Yes, I've been a complete bum last few days. *don't* bite meh. XD

BGM : Aoi no Requiem - Tsubokura Yuiko - Samurai Deeper Kyo

It is over. Truce

2004-10-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

After 3 long days of not talking to my mother, dad got fed up and made us sit down to talk. It was a very long talk. I finally got her to listen what I've always wanted to say all these blardy years, and she's finally willing to listen. So yea, I feel like a mega burden has just been lifted, and I have a rather relieved, happy mood right now. Hopefully, no more cloudy days for the times to come.

So there, Shin-aniki, You've got your truce, earlier than I expected. ^^

But I'm still not sure if I can make it for tomorrow's outing at MV. I should give Kit-chan a call first tomorrow morning or something.... it's rather late now.

BGM : Teru-teru Momiji - Fruit Basket - Momiji

bored ish my life....woe ish me~

2004-10-30T15:21:00.000+08:00

I've just completed my downloading spree and can't think of anything else to do to pass my day. Uber thanks to Lydia, who managed to give me that small kick into signing up in GENDOU to get the wonderful collection of anime MP3s there. I absalutely love it there, I managed to scrap back most of the songs I lost aeons ago when the computer crashed. Heh, even the songs that existence I've totally forgotten.

Went to watch the airshow somewhere near the Subang Airport this morning. Wasn't as great as I expected. Love the jets though, but it got a tad bit boring after awhile, and my neck hurts loads. I woke up early in the morning on a SATURDAY for nothing. Went online, and thanks Rei for the Gouhou Drugs scanlations. Now that I'm very sure I've seen it somewhere before, I'll go find it soon along with the doujins that the forumers had mentioned. Something happened to MSN though, couldn't get on it since earlier until now....

I've managed to complete another drawing I started yesterday while being surrounded by irritating little buggers ( my ototo's friends to be exact ) today after MSN crashed. I'm kinda happy with the end results, it's a bishie! And yes, bet you guys have noticed I've changed my layout *again* I like this layout, though I'm not very familiar with chobits, and it's *rare* to see me with a feminine layout. Actually I didn't have plans to do this, yet. I was surfing for skins with my ototo yesterday night for him, since he switched to xanga to blogspot. *gasp* HE BLOGS!!! And he wanted a chobits skin. We found two that we both liked, but he wanted the darker version one...so I have no choice but to take this one, which is also nice, so I'm not complaining.

Is there something going on with Kit-chan and Xiong Ie? That's something I would like to know too. X3 X3 *miaw* It wasn't only Lydia-chan who popped the question to me, in fact loads of people are asking me cause I'm supposed to be closer to them both?? @____@ Then Chris-sama asked if there's something going on between Kit-chan and me. There ish??? @____@ What's going on?? I have no idea who's spreading rumours around... but that ish... weird.

This is even weirder though. I think the boredom and stress from the boredom is getting on to me. I didn't have a good night sleep yesterday night. I had the freakiest dream ever. I dreamt I died. And guess what, Xiong Ie died with meh...... *sweatdrop* Gomenasai... I killed you in the dream too ..... eto... I'm not sure if I'm worried about the dream...... Perhaps you should take care of yourself.

BGM : Let Me Be - Gensoumaden Saiyuki

2004-10-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

*water splashing sound* <<-- Atobe in the bath *kyaaaa!!!*

Hametsu e TANGO! Hametsu e SAMBA! Hametsu e MAMBO! Yappari Hametsu no Rondo de ikkou.....

So this is rather screwed. X3 Was laughing my arse off listening to this mini clip that was taken off from an episode of Rajipuri. You can download it from Tsubasa Gaeshi if you want. Good luck in trying though..... hehehhe~

I got these from Lydia@Megumi through MSN. It's from D.N.Angel, a small part of a drama clip.

Dark : Minna wa ore no fan desu yo X3 <<--- he rather means all the gals hehe

and another Dark goes .... MINNA!! Aishiteru ze ~ After teasing Daisuke nonstop about Riku... or was it Risa....~

Ah yes, before I forget. *ehem* A few friends of mine began to set up a new anime forum. It' new, I emphasize on the word new... it's barely two days old @____@ We need more members, more topics as well.... Hopefully it won't crash as fast as Craymel's attempts, but will expand just as well. The link is already there at the side bar, so check it out. Don't ask why it has a funny name, cause I came up with it. X3 So that should be reason enough.

BGM : Kau Ilhamku - Man Bai

Thursday just suck. end of story

2004-10-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

Welcome Thursday!!! Got into a rather bad fight with mum early in the morning before we even step into the car =________=. She was doing all the screaming/yelling/abusing while I sat like a piece of wood right next to her. I did my best not to tear, cause I rather hate that. Anyway, we're not on talking terms again. The aftermath? I missed both my afternoon tuition class and night class, yay way the go~ Suyin you stupid dumbass....

For that, I found out that of all the place to lean on, the prefectorial board people are not on the list. I just found out today how cold, and inconsidered these so called friends are. Screw you all!! It wasn't only me who was in a bad mood and they noticed but didn't give a damn about it. Fazrina was crying, Vicky was sick and Raihana was running around trying to control the whole school while these great "prefects" lazed around in the Prefect Room. And did they even blink an eye? No~ Now I know, hah!!~ Gawd I was so blind before..... Sure they're around when you're having fun, but these people can still sit around chatting like nobody's business while another is right by their side crying their eyeballs out <<--- that would be Fazrina. I didn't even have time to whince even a flick of self-pity due to all the things that needed care pronto and Raihana looked so kawaiso running around. You guys down right sucks rock bottom.... Anyway Fazrina was a pain in the butt, she just can't help drowing herself in self-pity and begging for attention with crocodile tears. And hooi, she can come up with Uber excuses before you can say NYO?

BTW, thanks Raihana for taking over the pledge leading today. It's not that I didn't want to do it, but when I tried to talk to Raihana today in the morning, I was actually choking on my own breath and words, and totally broke out in front of her. Gawd it was embarrasing.

I got slightly better when on duty call with Sze Yin, we talked alot about everything. From her going to Form 4 next year to our alma mater, that is Kuen Cheng 1 XD Chien Han and the both of us went to the same primary school around the same time, considering our age gap is so small yet we never knew each other.... eto.... Well, my mood DID get better until I saw Wee Li so pale and weak by a corner later on. She looked really sickly, and made me worried. Then I saw a tear splat on the floor, yea I almost freaked ^^X' Thank goodness she's fine now. Took the oppotunity to spend some time with her in the GK room. Just the both of us, no interference... how peaceful ^___^

So I missed the Konsert Penyayang. So I don't care. Whatever. I did, however watch the Form 5 Gemilang girls choir. They chose rather sad soppy songs, and thus made half the Form 5 batch wet with tears. Everyone is rather teary today... must be the weather. Everyone went for recess later and began hugging sessions everywhere. Sandy..of all people was hugging the fat lazy school cat instead...eto... Yea, she makes me smile. Even though she didn't know what happened and stuff, she can just cheer people up.

No school tomorrow, and I can't believe I'm saying this but I so wish there is. I can't stand the thought of being home alone with my mother for another sec, let alone a whole friggin' week. I don't hate her or resent her or anything, I just feel uncomfortable being around her, cause she just turned into a stranger in my life. I don't know her anymore. I didn't want to go home today, dreading every moment that ticked by that would spell that school was out. Half begging for Raihana to take me under her roof for the night .... heh~

Mood got better once I dragged myself to the computer though. Went back to Tsubame-Gaeshi.com, and GAWD FINALLY!!!! I can download the subarashi mp3s there!! Sandy was laughing her butt off when I told her I couldn't download the PoT songs from there for some reason. But LOL! Now I can!! I'll rant more about it tomorrow when my mood ish better. Cause Masa-chan too is having some personal problems. Everyone that crosses my path seem to have problems......

Thursday just suck. End of story.

BGM : Daijoubu - Boys Be - Aki Maeda

mirage of blaze is a waste

2004-10-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

Was planning to blog yesterday, but somehow ended up not doing so X3

I went to that tuition centre like I mentioned after school yesterday. Had no particular idea where it was, cept that it was around Jusco in Tmn.Maluri, so I went Kg.Baru-ing. (LOL, that's Jared's latest word in his dictionary ) Yes, I was afraid that something fishy might be going on.. you know, stuff. My plan was to just check it out, and if I didn't like the entrance of that place, I would split in a matter of seconds. Blasted tuition centre was on the third floor -__- I only convinced myself to go up when I saw another secondary female student going up, apparently for class, and yea, the place looked kinda decent ^^X" I got worried for nothing la~ There I met up with Frankie, my supposed counselor... He talks a lot >___<

The only gain I got from going there is buying the first volume of FMA manga downstairs XD And yea, Kg.Baru-ing around Tmn.Maluri and exploring. Went back home by LRT from there, by then the only thing in my mind was HARAHETA!!! and TSUKARETA!!!! X3 Ah, and I bumped into Wan Amir inside the LRT. OMG this world is so small XD It was nice to see him again, nicer still that he remembers me ^__^ I just can't wait to tease Hashimah about this, since she has like, the biggest crush on that cute guy, LOL.

Came home, chucked my bag somewhere and got about to finishing Mirage of Blaze. I should have listened to Sandy -___- It's SUPPOSED to be yaoi, and sadly, that's the one element that it lacks. Sure there was, but it's a side element and doesn't have much to do with anything.... drats~ Not only that, I don't have A SINGLE CLUE on what's going on in the story. Sure all the guys are bishies, but the animation is kinda stiff. To sum it up, it's not worth the money . The only thing that eased the dissapointment was the fact that Seki Tomokazu and Sho Hayami were the seiyuus for the two main characters. <<-- who were supposed to be yaoi-ing around but I don't see any of that AT ALL!!

Now I'm trying to finish up my collection of Naruto before my aniki comes back with his other load of Naruto episodes. Apparently he's getting it dirt cheap from his friend who's selling his collection of burned VCDs for only 1 dollar per cd. O_____o Aniki promised to help ask what other animes he has, and Cherry (his gf) offered to help me get animes I want from her roommate too, since her roommate is also an anime freak. YAY~ I love them both X3 *huggles*

I want to change my blog layout again.... but I feel so lazy to do so ~____~ I've been lazing around lately, that's not good yea I know that. I have a long list of pending friends who requested for my artwork...(call it fanservice la X3) and I've yet to touch a thing

WAHHAHAHHA!! Get this, blogspot doesn't even have the word 'blog' in it's own dictionary... lol~ that's dumb~~

BGM : Meteor - TM Revolution

Life is back as usual

2004-10-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

I'm officially allergic to pink colour. >___<>

I never knew that we have LOADS of permanent marker pens with us in the Prefect's room that were confisticated through out the year. If we had done some clearing a week before, I wouldn't have to worry about what colour to get for Masa-chan's shirt... coz colours were plentiful -__- Ah well... We cleared most of the things that were confisticated today, and some smarty pants just wasted my fave Getbacker's pin-up ..... That's such an insult to Ban and Ginji... I felt so hurt even though I already have the pin up and the poster X3 So I'm over-sensitive, so sue me. X3

Finally had a chance to sit down lazily and have chats with Wee Li and Mei Yi ... the last time I did that was like ... ages ago. I felt so bad not being able to accompany Wee Li to MidValley yesterday, cause I went to see my grandma instead. Well, not that I really saw her... cause I immediately went to sleep in the room when I arrived, erm... didn't sleep the night before ^^X" BTW, thanks for accompanying me throughout that night Xiong, or I might have died of boredom...

Went out with Raihana to Petaling Street after school and bought flowers for the seniors tomorrow. Raihana went nuts at the very sights of pink stuff @____@ Damn, I felt so weird walking around carrying a bouquet of flowers. People staring and stuff..... errkks... Good news is I managed to purchase Mirage of Blaze and Yesh!! It's yaoi!! and NUU!!! I am not corrupted!! Right, I know most of you are biting your lips and saying yea right, especially you *points* Leave me be!!! X3 X3

OMG that freaky survey guy, Zac.. or whatever his name ish, just called again >___< He sure is damn DAMN persistant... Anyway, I agreed to check out the tuition centre tomorrow just for the heck of it, since I might need to change tuition centre anyway..... eto.... He just won't give up ~__~ I should change my number soon.... Who the hell calls back from a dumb survey months ago????!!! Is that tuition centre that desperate for students? .... yare....

BGM : Carry On - Fuji Syuusuke Image song - Prince of Tennis - Yuki Kaida
(DANG! I Love this song X3 )

Masamune's outing

2004-10-24T01:22:00.000+08:00

It's about 3 hours since I came back from Masamune's outing. Tired...so very tired, and YESH!! So very very happy X3 I've never enjoyed myself and laughed so much for quite awhile. I guess this means a rather long blogpost, half requested by Jared too who wants to share his...*ehem* driving experience X3 We'll get to that in a minute.

I woke up really early today, much to EVERYONE'S amazement ( yea mine too -__- ) and sorta did some last minute preparations before heading out. I knew I forgot something, but still couldn't point out what yet. Mum brought me to the KTM Station near my place, and I kept cajoling her saying it'll be ok if I took the KTM. Hell it was NOT OK! I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO TAKE THE BLARDY TRAIN!!!!! I really main hentam at that time, and miraculously managed to reach KL Sentral, followed my instincts and landed in the right train to Subang Jaya ^___^ What luck. Had Xiong Ie pick me up from the KTM station.... kyaaaa~~~ I still feel bad about that..... you really could have just called...ne...~

Went straight to Sunway from there, and was pretty early I guess. Xiong wanted to check out the ice-skating ring first, and so we did. I saw lots of o chibis skating like pros..oh wait, they are pros ^___^ Xiong Ie knew most of them, cause *yea...mega gasp please XD* He's been for skating lessons before, but stopped after awhile. Those o chibis were damn cute.... so ... so... Chibi!! LOL. I have no other words to describe them, they kinda reminds me of Craymel last year. X3
We then decided to find the forumers at the entrance again, there was no one there. Thought that they might have gone to have breakfast or something nearby, and went looking. I finally know where One Academy ish!!!! >___<>___<>

Guest18 charged into our group looking for Kid-chan, and then went panicky looking for Iris after he found Kid-chan. Apparently he had dropped her in front of the entrance but couldn't see her. Not for the next hour or so when we grouped up either. Masa...Joshi... came and hung around there for awhile, then the whole lot of us moved towards the ice-skating ring, and settled down at the kebab shop. I felt dizzy for a while after having Masa-chan spinning me around twice @____@ Xiong Ie got worried over Iris, and so we both went searching for her, while Guest18 went around alone looking for her. Xiong Ie was a bit mad at Guest18 for his irresponsible attitude, I was just worried over the girl. Couldn't find her anywhere, but with a little help from instincts, found her IN the ice skating ring. Huh~ I was super SUPER relieved that she was fine, smiling sheepishly even!!! X3 Headed back to regroup with the rest, and began to start the 'sign my shirt' mission XD I love everyone's drawing!!! It's so cute!!!!~~ We even got Masa-chan to sign it so that he won't get suspicious, don't know if he knew it all along though ^^

Most of them decided to ice skate, I didn't though. Not this time.... sat at the coffeetable by the skating ring with some others like Lewis, Guest18, Xiong Ie, Ezel and G ( forgot his full nick ^^X" GOMEN ) Everyone started to doodle again...duh~ I wanted to at first, if it wasn't because I was suffering rather badly from the blistering cold. I can't believe this, I was OUTSIDE of the ring and still freezing. There's..no logic to it! Saw the works of tensais, and I only doodled a little, I can't draw >___<>

Later, they ALL wanted to go to Times Square. Was supposed to hitch a ride in Guest18's car with Iris, Ciel, Xiong Ie and Yumi.. but changed last minute and went with Shoji, Jared and G instead cause they might be a little bit cramped in Guest18's car. KYA!! Shoji has a yellow Volkswagen, beetle...bug...whatever, and Jared went behind the wheels instead of Shoji!! XD XD The car is so authentic looking.. omg, and Jared..well, just can't stop his excitement over the car. Felt like we were in Ban's car. ( GB ) Engine died before he even managed to reverse the car out of the parking lot. All together it died at least 3 times XD He was kinda jerky at first, trying to get used to the different way of driving, goodness my stomachache got worst by every jerk the car made... Gastric XD Happens when I refuse to eat the whole day. Moving out of Subang towards KL was pretty easy enough for him, but we began to feel a little lost once we reached KL <<-- hah! And you're reading this from a KL girl -__- Jared can sometimes drive like a road-rage XD Took the wrong turn ( the beginning of our "we're lost" adventure ) and got stuck in a small jam going upwards the ramp. Something happened, Jared couldn't control the car from sliding down the ramp for a split second O____o which freaked out everyone, including the green car behind us ROFL!!! Then, the green car stayed at least a car's length away from our yellow beetle, all of us roared with laughter XD Awhile later while we were on the road, we noticed that the same car has gotten loads smarter, and stayed at least 2 to 3 cars away from us XD XD We were still lost. Went past Merdeka Square, ended up near Sime Darby..past Sogo, then Parkson awhile later...and loads of other random places.... actually I really have no idea where is where too.. eto... somehow managed to bypass Dang Wangi and landed in Kg.Baru. OMG We were in Kg.Baru!!! That's so far away from our supposed destination! Jared took the turn into Kg.Baru, and from there it was snail pace into the kampung XD We were actually very tempted to just stop the car and buka puasa there ^__- There were stalls everywhere. I think we've circled the place completely, playing hemtam at every split ends. Jared asked where to turn most of the time, and Shoji and I would answer, he then said listen to the girl >___<>

I couldn't stay long in Times Square cause mum wouldn't allow me to do so, so Xiong Ie and I quickly got the rest of the forumers to sign the shirt at the arcades X3 I'm so happy~ There were so many signatures there!!! XD Most of them that I can remember....are... Fenix, Raincloud, Joshi-kun, Natsumi, Iris, Prince Lui, G, BMJ, Shoji, Sizer, Xiao Ying, Teh-O, Atticus, Tenzan, Kit-chan, Xiong Ie, Angel, Yumi, Ciel, Lewis, Joshi-kun's sister, G, Kaizeru, Kid-chan, Kindoku, ArcAngel, Juufan, Sparda, Graffiti, Bunny-chan, Setsuna...and....the rest (wahhahah gomen, can't remember so many people @___@ ) Finally managed to give the shirt to Masa-chan last minute before I leave at McD XD I'm so glad that he was sporting enough to actually wear it in public and take pics *mega-glomps* Went back home right after that...am now dead tired XD But can't sleep either. Nyah~

I really really had fun, despite many mishaps XD Just for the heck of it, to clear things off, Xiong Ie and I just HAPPENED to wore the same white colour tops and black pants. End of story XD Thanks for the outing Masa-chan *glomps* Thanks for everything Xiong Ie... can't really list out everything, cause there's so many things..*glomps* Thanks for getting us lost too Jared XD *glomps* Thanks for recruiting meh into your doujin group Lewis *glomps*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN MASAMUNE-CHAN!!!!! XD

BGM : Youthful Days - Prince of Tennis - Minagawa Junko

Date with Sandy

2004-10-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

Blardy blogspot died on me!!!! Now I have to retype the post again.... grrrr~~~

Skipped school today, which was planned. Went out today, which was not planned. XD I'm a bad bad~ girl..yesh I know. I don't care either XD XD

I woke up early and waited for Aiko and Chris to drop by my place first, since Chris wanted my Domino's membership card. It's been a long time since I've met them XD It was a great 10 minutes of hi and byes. Then I called mum and told her I wanted to go out, half hoping that she would ferry me around. She was busy, but seemed to have enough time to stop me from going...

First she was reluctant to let me go out alone, but I told her there was nothing to worry about, which was true. I'm going to the same place I go EVERY WEEKEND, that is Petaling Street. I can even walk around there blindfolded!! So what's the difference if I went there on a Friday? Mum finally said yea sure, but called back in less than 5 minute's time with another ton of reasons why I don't have to go and shouldn't waste time going.... I went anyway. I HAD to go, not that I want to, but I HAD TO.

It began to pour like nobody's business once I boarded the train... I hate the rain -___- It was not only raining, it was storming. Wonder if Stealthfire's roof is still intact.... So I changed my plans and met up with Sandy in Sg.Wang instead. Drats, she wasn't wearing a shirt or a dress like I had hoped for. I'm dying to see her in one XD She promised to accompany me for my hunt, but we somehow forgot about it while checking out figurine shops and Suncomics XD We then decided to head to TS, but made a detour to Low Yat first. Visited both the figurine shops there, and met up with Ah Seng, Sandy's friend from Suncomics. Only then did we head out to TS.

Went to the XL figurine shop in TS, and got spotted by teh-O XD Xiao Ying and Ten-chan were there too!! YAY I'm so not surprised!! X3 We didn't join them though, I think they headed to the arcades then, while the three of us dropped by at Animetech. I don't think Animetech will ever allow us in again... not after all the chaos we created in there ^^X Headed to the figurine shop next to Animetech, and saw the most kakkoi super must get Dante figurine. It's beautiful!!! One of the best of Devil May Cry figurines I've yet to come across so far.... waaaahhh I WANT!!!!! But it cost a whooping RM490 TT__TT Even if I can afford me, I'll have both my parents chasing me with an axe dead bend for my neck....

Teh-O called, and said that they were at the arcades now, with Masamune and Joshi-kun O___o It's a bit early to meet Masa-chan, but I went up to the arcades all the same. Saw Joshi-kun on Ez2D dancing to the Star Warz theme.... errks.... kowaii... Sandy attempted to beat the hell out of Masa-chan for getting Xiao Ying a StarOcean figurine, even though they're practically strangers...no wait, they ARE!! OMG.... that's just...her. Sandy's way of warming up to people XD

Sandy freaked when Masa-chan and I glomped. I don't know why, she just did. LOL! She was trying to break us off!!~ X3

Said bai bai, but was still stuck in the arcades cause Ah Seng was still on Virtual Cop, and he just CAN'T DIE! Then he said he still have a few tokens left, so he... err...we Taiko-ed again. We cause we were using the other 2 sticks and disturbing him. I noticed Tommy... sotong guy, and out of boredom snitched his bag and ran off. Bad move -___- For a sotong, he can run rather fast, and sure hell isn't nice with girls. Both my arms are hurting now thanks to him grabbing my from the back in attempt to stop me from running, twice even!!! OUCH~~ GRRR.. I'm going to beat the crap out of you the next time we cross paths!!! Sandy was of no help, unfortunately... she was siding him >__<>

We left the arcades, and Ah Seng left for home. So the both of us went for Kebabs. It was then mum called, and was yelling over the phone for me to get my butt back home. She then called 20 minutes later, and did the same thing, just that on a louder scale. The sky was SO DARK when we left TS too, even though it was kinda early.... no wonder mum is so jumpy. I got jumpy too wondering if Sandy was safely home....heh *rubs nose* XD

At last!! I've got what I went out for, though I didn't really get what I went out for. Don't understand? Doesn't matter XD I think Xiong Ie would understand, just don't let the cat out of the bag ne? Thanks. XD

BGM : Tonde! Mawatte Mata Raishuu - Prince of Tennis - Caps to Bin

OMG THIS ISH FUNNEH!!

2004-10-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

OMG I just downloaded the cutest japanese-english tutorial eva!!~ XD Kinda short though... but really cute!!

Maybe it's because it's Kaida Yuki (Prince of Tennis) doing the teaching, maybe it's because she can speak excellent english. Or maybe it's because what she teaches is simply hilarious XD XD

Boku wa ringo ga suki desu

I like apples. Repeat after me. I like apples.

Then she goes....

Fuji is older than Yuuta ( Fuji's ototo in PoT) Repeat after me. Fuji is older than Yuuta.

My fave part ish the last part. Step 4.

Tezuka is older than Fuji.

Repeat after me. Tezuka is older than Fuji.

Repeat after me! Tezuka is OL-DER than Fuji.

REPEAT AFTER ME! TEZUKA IS OL-DER THAN FUJI!

REPEAT! AFTER! ME!! TEZUKA! IS OL-DER!!! THAN! FUJI!!!!!

I had a hard time controlling myself XD Was rolling all over laughing. My family members thought I had momentarily gone nuts -_____- eto...

Something worth getting for every Fuji Syuusuke fan XD

BGM : God hurts Those He Loves - WEISS KREUZ - Takehito Koyasu

Gomenasai U.Ux hontou ni....

2004-10-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

Eto... I'm sorry I made everyone worried with my sudden outburst U.U I was really mad at that time, I don't deny that, but felt tons better after posting. eto.......

Mum and I are cool again now. Come to think of it, our silent wars all these years never lasted more than a day ^__^;; I think I forgot to mention that..... eheh.... Thanks everyone, for being there for me nyo. I'm sorry I can't give ya the cds tomorrow Shin, and prolly will result in you having a non "yaoi" anime vacation uhhh.... gomen~~ I'm sorry I had to rant out in school too, poor Wee Li and Mei Yi had to put up with my bursting behaviour U.U gomen to you both too.... *hugs*

As for the birthday outing, I'm still not so sure if I can make it Masa-chan.. I most probably will ^^X' Something this big, I'll be damned if I can't join in the fun ( just hoping mum forgot she said she's grounding me .... ) And no, Xiong-xiong, I have not, did not and will not shout at mum over these matters, no matter how much I wanted to at that time. Or else I won't even be blogging here -____-;;; Besides, she ish my mum in the end, I love her nontheless X3

Kaede ish a bad girl!!! XD Didn't go to school today even though I didn't plan to skip class. I just woke up feeling tired, (not sleepy) and told mum I didn't want to go to school. She was VERY OK with it. She went like, yea sure whatever, and then went back to sleep herself.... eto....... ^^X; Checked my tempreture again when I woke up around 10.00 am, mum says I have a slight fever, must have been infected by my dear imouto-sama >___<

BGM : Hitotsu - Hikaru No Go

I'm in a foul mood coz I'm grounded >_<

2004-10-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

GAARRR I hate my life >___<

I feel like a useless crap right now. Usually I feel like this when something shitty happens, and something shitty happened. Come to think of it, it's downright dumb and illogical.... grrrr~

I am now officially GROUNDED -_____- And the stupid stinking reason is because I stayed up late yesterday night refusing to leave the computer because I wanted to complete my BM essay in time. Mum went ballistic when she found me still with the computer and not asleep late last night. Hey, at least I wasn't secretive about it, I TOLD her about it -____-

Why the hell she doesn't ground my older brother who's never home? *grumbles*

Come to think of it, I wouldn't give a NYO about it if it was any other day, but the birthday gath is just a week away and holy, she decides to ground me yesterday. Thinking about it just frustrates me. ~____~ Mum and I aren't on talking terms right now. In fact, we've not spoken to each other at all. No, I don't plan to either -_______-

Why? Coz for the first time I am SERIOUSLY OFFENDED. I hated the way she screamed like a lunatic at me across the hall, in the middle of the night even. Then she went on nagging saying that I NEVER listened to her, NEVER obeyed her, NEVER abided the rules. Oh FINE THEN!!!! (I wish I had screamed too, but my senses got the better of me) What she said totally hurt me, cause I myself know I've taken great measures to make sure I don't end up like my brother who abuses his freedom <<-- I'm beginning to understand why he does that -___- I make sure that whenever I go out, I inform her and tell her if I'm going to be late, and what time I'll be back. I make sure that she knows where I am and whom I'm with. I do almost everything she asks me to without a word of grumble or comparing why others can't do it.

The nyo, I'm so sick of doing all these little things and not feeling appreciated, which is still fine until you bloody hell accuse me that I am not, what? Up to your expectation? That's just too much for me. She has no idea what being rebellious really mean and she dare label me as one. Gawd she should see the world more, I see and understand what kind of stuff rebellious kids do and she should very well be thankful that none of her kids even thinks about following suit. I hate the way she magnifies small errors and mistakes so huge it can cover the moon over and over again. Haven't you heard that to err is human, and to forgive is devine? Guess not.

Coz you never forgive, do you?! You always keep those small things, and bring them up the next time you plan to shout and nag at us. You're the one always nagging and complaining, not us, and you say we're being ungrateful. We're not, you are. You're never grateful for small things we accomplish either. -_____-

I don't even feel right ranting on and on about my own mother, but I need just somewhere to vent out instead of cooping it inside and blow up goodness-knows-when. I don't even care if she's reading this either ( mum know's I blog, and knows the add to this blog ) I'm so mad now I might even blow up in school if anyone rubs me the wrong way, and Monday has never been my fave day of the week.

I almost thrashed my handphone onto the tar road when dad rang while I was walking towards the LRT station. I didn't tell anyone I went out for class already, because THEY ALREADY KNEW I was going out, damnit. He scolded me over the phone and asked me what was I trying to do. HAH! I was trying to get to tuition in peace -____- I didn't make it for class anywayz.

AAAAAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AXN EB aftermath

2004-10-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

OMG I can't believe this freaking this happened!!!~ >_______< My latest post somehow didn't turn up... gaaahhh... too lazy to rewrite everything again. I'll just leave notes then.

1. Met up with Shoji, Tofu, Cray ( these two sounds like a screwed up food set XD ), Stealth and Miyabi with her 2 friends... who were pretty darn late.....

2. Took ages to decide where to go or what to do, ended up in TS...duh~

3. FRUIT BASKET Vol 15 IS OUT!!!!!!!!!! NYOOOOOOOO!!!! Okay, I know this is rather irrelevent to today's post.. just let me be X3

4. Hogged EZ2D and Taiko-ed... Cray and Shoji pwned me over Taiko... embarrasing.. I know... *hides in one corner and refuses to budge* Bumped into Lai Pui and other schoolmates. Don't know what they will say on Monday... they saw me alone with 4 guys ( Miyabi and friends have been hiatus ever since we reached the arcade -___- )

5. Went to makan at McD downstairs, went back up and Atticus, Jo-chan, Teh-o and Xiao Ying daughter-chan were already there. Made clear a small mix up too. Teh-O is not my grand niece, she's my granddaughter XD Then headed to Low Yat after Tofu, Stealth and Shoji left. Yeah, Shoji almost pwned me again in Taiko before he left -____-;; almost.... huh....

6. Wondered around Low Yat aimlessly, bought an anime game which I have no idea what it's called other than in chinese, and sure have no idea what it's about either. Only reason I was willing to cough up 10 bucks for it is because it's UBER gorgeous art. I mean, it's sooo utsukushii!!~ <<-- that practically spells beautiful bishounens..X3 Went into a figurine shop, and had a good laugh over a collection of Ultraman figurines. Why? Because there was Ultraman serving tea to monsters, Ultraman sleeping in the shinkansen, and gawd, Ultraman playing pachinko @_____@

7. Went present hunting with Cray after we split in TS and went arcading again. I'm kinda sorry I had to drag Cray along...gomen ^^X; had to walk the whole of TS with me... I know I'm fussy. But I HAVE to be...in this case yes. Anyway, in case you haven't figured it out, it's for someone who's birthday gath happens to fall somewhere next week. Cray brought me to a shop which I never noticed existed. I salute to the M'sian goverment for allowing such a shop to operate.

Name of shop? PorkChop & Friends. What do they sell? Well, duhh....PIGS!!! Loads of them!!~

Now, whether we left the shop with something or emptyhanded, well...that's for Cray and I to know and for you guys to wait. So there XD

I wanna go do some sketching again, after playing a portion of the game I'm so damn motivated to draw. But I have to finish my essay too... I think I'll be burning the oil tonight ...until really late into the night to finish it up..... >____<

Off to AXN EB

2004-10-16T09:51:00.000+08:00

Oooo my head hurts ~___~ Must've been very tired yesterday, I intended to just lie down on the bed for a few minutes before starting my war with my brother over the computer around 9.oo pm yesterday. Instead I slept through the night, waking up around 4.oo am in the morning, and plonked back to sleep until this morning.

Was really groggy when I woke up, like someone had shot me some tranquilizer yesterday. Had to take a rather long bath to feel awake X3 Then went blogsurfing to kill time. I feel like changing my layout again, but at the same time I feel kinda lazy. Besides, I still have a 2500++ words BM essay to be completed. It's not that hard, except that it's in BM >___<>_< ouch. Didn't realise such a harmless... and meaningless word that popped up all of a sudden from whoever's head had another deep...dark....secret XD Ah well, the Nyo.

Oootto...It's already 10 am. I'm already late for the AXN EB, no wait... I have no idea what time it starts. @_____@ My hp is credit dead too, have to go reload downstairs before leaving the house. I'll blog again for the full report of the day, XD

Note : Blogspot's dictionary doesn't even have 'blogsurfing' in it =3

A little poem in the dark of the night

2004-10-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

Here's a little work piece that kinda stuck me while I was still lying in bed and not being able to shut my eyes, and my mind for that matter.

Do you see that tree by the riverbed?
underneath that tree a wise man once said

Rain and thunderstorm may tear it
downgushes of riverwater may wash it away
earth covers it deeper and deeper
come a little shine though it'll warmth the ground
winds of change brings a better day
little mammal friends, the tree's little helpers

So you see life isn't always that bad
no amount of weariness can break you
if you refuse nothing can change your mindj
ust take a look, life ain't that sad
all you have to you is believe ; stay true
and always in us, friends you will find

Didn't take me long to pen down this one, come to think of it I wasn't really thinking when I scribbled this down. I have a lot of things in my head I guess. Currently listening to Double Dear by Weiss Kreuz + Saiyuki. Ahhhh there's nothing like a 8 bishie combo track. I love Hoshi Souichirou XD XD

I can't draw today >____<

2004-10-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

Before I start, I'd just like to mention that even though I've been in the dumps this morning, as many of you noticed, I'm not going to elaborate on it at all. I'm sorry for being such a sour face this morning, and for being so quiet it made some of you worry. I'm better now, things have moved on, people have moved on, and if they don't need you around, you can't do nothing about it. Perhaps it's best this way for each other, I'm just not satisfied that you are willing to throw something I had treasured so much away like that. But I still want to be there when you need someone to talk to. I hope you realise that I'm not the only one who feels this way, everyone you know around you cares. Unless you plan to save yourself, we can't save you. There's no use throwing in the lifejacket when you refuse to grab it and wear it. Then again, I wonder if you will ever enter here and read this....

Today passed on with the usual snail crawling pace. It was agonizing since there isn't anything worth looking forward to now. Given a choice, I would have packed and left school grounds right after the pledge, which is the only reason why I came today. Thankfully though, I'm blessed with really caring friends at school, not many, but I know who to treasure now. Wee Li, Mei Yi and the awfully sleepy Jiah Yin kept me company in school. Wee Li kept banging the table ( a rather notorious habit of hers might I add ) when she got excited and made Pn.Chen stare at us.

Seeing her ( Wee Li ) draw gave me inspiration and spirit to follow suit again, only to realise I can't draw today. I kept fumbling and gosh, my hands kept trembling when I connect lead with paper. I guess I can't concentrate today, cause everytime I do other things that hurts floods the mind like unwanted spam. I managed to finish a drawing, but it's kinda messed up and gives off this very down feeling I plan to chuck it into the bin later. >_______< I can't draw even to save my life.

Came back home late today, and realised Kit-chan was trying to reach me for awhile, and that he was already in TS O.o I couldn't go, so I kept him company via phone-call. I was supposed to go TS with mum, but it rained and mum decided she doesn't want to go after all, which was fine with me since Kit-chan had already left -____-; I called him back and chatted with him until he reached his station at Shah Alam.... don't even remember how long was that. Stealthfire then came online and we talked a bit, reviving sweet old memories of our first EB and stuff. That was hilarious. Later he pulled in Raiden ( haven't chatted with Raiden for eons! ) and The Ref. I realise that random nonsense can actually make you feel better. I realise that you don't have to make sense if you want to smile XD I look forward to meeting him again ( and beating him )on Saturday. Come to think of it, the last time we met was 1 1/2 years ago. That's AEONS!!!

I'm not doing much now, cept having Masamune accompany me on MSN. Listening to lots of random music to cure my boredom. Jupiter by Ayaka Hirahara is really nice, been listening to it over and over again. And another, Sayonara wa mirai no hajimari by Megumi Ogata is just gorgeous. Listening to Born Again from Getbackers now, sounds cute...sounds like Ginji... hmmm~ Anyway, I'm just trying to listen to more uptempo songs instead of slumping into the dumps again. I don't have the energy to cry like last night again..... huh~ tired ~_____~

Will sign off now. Just another note, added in Masa-chan's blog link and Shen Yee's one as well, erm, just in case you guys didn't notice. I know someone who's rather eager to check out Masa's blog, ne? XD XD Jya... suppose to go for dinner now.... but I just ate.... a bunch of chocolate.... nyah~

2004-10-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

Yesh!! It's FINALLY, FINALLY OVAHH!!!~ I can't express how utterly overjoyed I am X3 Today's last paper, Physics Objective wasn't too hard, except for 3 questions which I really had no idea what it was, and gave up in the end. I spent the rest of my free time scribbling and doodling, then simply coloured the blank areas for the 3 questions in the last second. Smart eh... XD

After the exams, I managed to sneak out with Raihana and a few more prefects. I don't remember what was the main reason we were supposed to be out with Raihana, but in the end we didn't fulfill it XD It was freezing outside. So I quietly popped to the Prefect's Room, and realized that the form 3's CPR idol was about to start. Naturally I stayed to enjoy the show nyah. It took a hell of a time to start the show though, and everything was a total mess -_____-

Only 11 students took part, but it was pretty good for a first try. Michelle went up first with her rendition of Britney Spear's Sometimes. Not bad for a first timer, though she was jittering so much I could see her knees shaking. Yea, she was that tense. The judges *ehem, our teachers* must have noticed too, because she didn't really receive any positive comments from all 3 of them. Come to think of it, Sandy was even worst XD XD I never thought that TEH SANDY would actually be hyper nervous and starts freaking out by jumping up and down the stage (and basically everywhere) But I must praise her for choosing Winds by Akeboshi (Naruto ending) Its not an easy song to cover and timing has to be right. Pn. Edah (our first jury) commented she wasn't serious enough (ekhem, when is she EVER serious? XD ), wasn't prepared enough( not true, she's memorized the songs for eons already ), and the song was boring. ( ARGGH I'll kill you for that!!!! )

I didn't pay attention to the competition after that, just lazing around in the prefect's room which is actually at the back of the stage, with Sandy and listening to some tracks of her cd. That's wrong and against the rules, I know that XD Anyway we were busy listening to Fukisusabu kaze no nake de whilst chatting that we became a hazard to everyone else, blocking the way and such. Something is very wrong with that gal. She suddenly starts asking if I'm going dating after the exams and such. O.o? Nyah??? I wonder why she absolutely refuses to believe that I don't have a boyfriend @_____@ Is that wrong? Now she says that there must be something seriously wrong that I don't have a boyfriend, the NYaH! She said something like, she can't believe that I, of all people don't have a boyfriend. And on earth is that supposed to mean?? Anyway, she knows I'm not yuri since we fight over Tezuka day in day out XD Forget it, head hurts.... It's pretty heavy, I guess I haven't totally filter out the exams questions yet.

We stopped our *serious* talk when we heard Pn.Edah's comment on the last contestant Syamien. <<-- I don't like her by the way. She said that she felt like sleeping when Syamien sang. O_O WOW!! That was harsh, but a really good reality check. Syamien then walked in to the room and began to rant all over about her poor performance and gave like, thousands of excuses. Oh, grow up >__> In the end someone won, definitely not Syamien, not Sandy either, Gosh, I don't know who. And guess what, I don't care either! XD XD Then the problems started to crop up one by one. One of the Discman went missing.

Then the whole P.A system body went disarray and somehow managed to drag me into the mess, just because I happened to be at the wrong area at the wrong time. It was missing, and the tiny area was jam packed with students. Suspects were flying everywhere. Well, not exactly flying...uh..you get what I mean -__- Pn.Edah then came to know about it after all the fuss and no discman around. She immediately pointed the blame at us prefects. Damnit! She ALWAYS does that. She did that yesterday too, although the shit that happened was obviously her fault, but that's another story. I was there to back up my juniors that were handling the P.A system, and Pn.Edah kept glaring at me while muttering to the other teachers about our lack of performance. We couldn't hear her, but could very well see her. Damnit I can read lips!!!~ GRrrr~Not very well but I can and she became such a sore to the eye when she kept mocking to the other teachers : tu lah, pengawas buat kerja tu.~

First things first. It was NOT our fault in whatsoever way. How could she just accuse us without even checking out the real situation here, huh? Then she made the dumbest decision possibly in her entire life, to spotcheck every student's bag. No freaking idiot would hide it in the bag if it's stolen -____- It will only trigger the student's fear and hide it somewhere else, which makes things even more difficult for us. Besides, she made things so unorganised, when the students heard the announcement they fled to hide their other illegal belongings >___<

To cut the long story short. We couldn't find it, don't know if it was Syamien who took it, or someone else in the prefect board ( I won't mention her name to save her some pride at least ) or whatever. Our prefect's reputation have gone down the drain, no thanks to Pn. Edah Mustapha here. She just loves to degrade us. Now Raihana is making the situation turn like it was our fault for being there in the first place, the nyah..... My super genki mood just turned very ugly in less than an hour.

I feel like taking a day off from school, but Raihana will then skin me alive -_____- even worst since tomorrow is a Thursday. Want to ponteng Friday and accompany Sandy to KLCC, but again Raihana threatened to kill us if we skip Friday.

Now I have a runny nose that ish sneezing non-stop. Of all times to get sick.... kyaaaa~

I'm not concentrating on ANYTHING!

2004-10-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

Jeez... this is just GREAT!!! I'm not concentrating on ANYTHING lately -_____-x' Yea you've guessed it, I can't concentrate on revising my Chemistry. I know I suck at it, but my twisted mentality just refused to budge in sitting down quietly and study. I've been doing everything today except concentrate.

AAAAAAAARRRGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'd doubt that I will even sit still if mum threatened to pull the trigger and fire right through my bloody brain. No, I don't need a break. I've been breaking like forever, I need to find a way to concentrate >____< color="#ff0000">FAIL. Serves me right anyway. KIYAAA~~~

I think I'll go take another bath to freshen up a bit ... but my imouto has been hogging the bathroom like...forever >___< ( I don't like the master bathroom )

Perhaps it's because I'm dissapointed. I'm dissapointed because I couldn't go watch the 3 on 3 street-basketball match in TS. I'm dissapointed because I couldn't take part. I'm even more so knowing that no one would want to take part with me and play >___< What ish the matter with girls nowadays?! Weak...... ~___~ But I so wanted to see the finals, but no~~ had to stay home and study. Ha, yea right, like I even did read anything. It took me at least 3 hours to cover the easiest chapter, with mega long breaks in between.......

Ah, imouto-sama ( sama because everything HAS to go her way ) ish out. My turn... jya.

Prince of Tennis postcards

2004-10-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

You know, the only reason I enjoy going for tuition class is that I get to browse around for anime after that n_- And I did, today. Went to the usual comic shop opposite the petshop (still don't remember the name of the shop even after eons) I couldn't resist the temptation of walking in even though I know I shouldn't be.

But I don't regret it nyah!! I bought Prince of Tennis postcards XD Nyaaahahhaha it's sooo cute!!~ XD Yesh! I'm going on a PoT collectibles rampage, since it's becoming pretty commercialized, loads of PoT stuff are for sale XD XD Lucky~ ( on another note, rumour has it that there's a PoT movie come next year, look out for it XD )

And mum has since balik kampung, leaving on my younger brother and I. I would have prefered to be home alone, but she left when I was still in class, and somebody had to stay behind to open the door U.Ux The last time she forgot, I was locked out for almost 2 hours... anyway, she's not around, meaning that I'm not studying. I haven't touched my Chemistry at all.

Talk about slacking off big time -____-x

To Wee Li and Sandy, you guys have got it all wrong. What on earth is the matter with you?! I am not nice!! I do not deserve you guys mentioning in that questionaire that I'm nice. Gawd!! Open your eyes!!~ WAKE UP. I'm all but nice >__<>.< Best personality. HAH! Yea right *mutters*

Here's another note about the AXN Eye Ball..I mean EB. I'm going!! Yesh... I know it's a 180 degree change of mind. One reason is because Miyabi personally invited me, she took all the trouble to email me about it, and that I found out dear Nabbie is going too!!! Oh and that Stealth is leaving for NZ soon, but I still haven't beaten him up for what happened the last time. So yea, I'll be going. Just so you know, everyone is hoping that you would come too, Shuu-chan. Bring along your SSS for a treat nyah? ;3

Getbackers talkshow!!

2004-10-09T11:34:00.000+08:00

Oh goodie lookie here! Something to cheer the soul up XD

Getbackers has their own talkshow~!! Just like Saiyuki and Prince of Tennis. I think I'm the only one in this whole wide world to know about it so late, but I'll rant and celebrate nonetheless XD XD *throws confetti a la ginji style*

Special thanks to Starry-chan for spilling it out for me, even after I had swore my evil plan of torturing you silly when you come up in Form 3 ;3 *mega glomps*

Ah yah..before I forget ^^x' Here's the site that is currently distributing 2 of the talkshows, one with Kazuki as the guest *KIYAAAA!!!!!! XD~~* and Makubex in the other *NYAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!! XD~~* I want one with Akabane TT____TT

paramax
User info = maou
password = yuuri

But there ish a downside to this ^^X' The webmistress's site is rotational, meaning if you want it you have to be quick. And erm...the next rotation should be today ... etoo~ anyway you guys can leech it off me or something if you can't get hold of it XD It's really cute!! Cept that since my japanese is rather limited, it's hard to understand what on earth is going on sometimes as they talk too fast @______@

Enjoy!!

I would beat the crap out of you

2004-10-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

Right, I'm in a very foul mood. I've been so since two nights ago, and thought that things would change for the better after today's papers, how naive >_<

I almost yelled at my younger sister and my mom yesterday, and certainly lost my temper with the form 3 students today. I know it's not their fault for being mega excited that today was their last paper in PMR, thus the noise volume rose to a rather annoying level that I couldn't stand. I shouted at 3 Budi, I think, and had the WHOLE class glare at me angrily, I just killed the somewhat thin agreement of peace settlement between us in less than 5 seconds. Way the go~ idiot >_< Not that anyone listened after me raising my voice, countless of times anyway. Ceh. Yes, I was very tense with Physics paper today and knowing that I have to jam in Accounts paper alone after school as well didnt really brighten my spirits.

I trashed at both. Now not that I really care -____-

All I know is that I was dead hungry doing my Accounts paper. The school's staff and teachers that were feasting and gossiping like nobody's business in the office didn't help much either. I HATED the air-con there, it's waay too cold ( plus it rained, i hate the rain too ) And Pn.Salmah. OH GOD! She can't help herself from poking in and out of the room checking on me. She's so worried that I don't know what to do after I've finished my paper, which is to pass it to the Afternoon Discipline Teacher who's really hard to miss, because she herself kept poking in and out. Damn, that was irritating enough, but I still had to force up that smile and pray inside they would hell leave me alone. They did after awhile, lucky ;3

I went home only at 6pm. Mum was late ( she kinda forgot actually ) and I spend the whole 1 1/2 hours doodling, of all things, our school cat and Shuu-chan( complete with cat ears and tail ) *packs her belongings and hides from Shuu-chan far away in the northern mountains* My mine kinda lightened off when it was jam-packed with ideas on drawing a Shuu-chan doujinshi. More like a la South Park... OMG! You killed Shuu-chan!! You B**tard!!( more commonly known as Kenny in SP ) Right.. That's not really relevent, forget I said that.... *mumbles*

Speaking of which anyway, I would really beat the crap out of Shuu-chan if I ever meet you, boy. I'd beat the daylight out of you until you see the brighter sides of things and stop wallowing up in loneliness and refusing people's love and care. You know what? You think too much, and I thought I think too much.... if this next statement cheers you up, it should. Compared to your current situation, I am by far much more lifeless than you are, and probably more than anyone else that's reading this blog, so there. No wait, if you are reading this blog in the first place, you ARE lifeless... ahhh that feels better. ;3

To my original ototo, I would also beat the crap out of you if you don't SHUT UP when the lights are off and when I plan to get some sleep. STOP TALKING TO MEH!!!!

And here's another note. I'm not sure if I'm going for the AXN outing, MIGHT consider Masamune's outing <<-- I really want to meet my step-musuko-chan. Miyabi had asked if I was game, I said sure, now I'm not so sure. Firstly, I don't know if I even want to go anymore. But then again, when was the last time I met Rin-chan? Misoka? Najwa? Hey is Najwa going??? I kinda miss everyone, everyone who's somehow left AXN forum and made me leave too. I'm too lazy ( I would use the term busy, but I'm being frank here ) to check out the AXN forum anymore.

I've got to stop now and tutor my sister on her Moral, which is coming out God-knows when. Hah! How ironic, I feel like I've already been drained of whatever moral values I have left. I'm not a saint, I can curse and cuss whenever I want, damnit. XD

2004-09-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

YAY~ Happy Moon Cake Festival minna-san!!!~~ XD ( Though, it kinda makes no difference for me -___-;;; )

Exams started yesterday. So far I've only tackled BM and English paper.....another 9 more to go... uuwaaaahh~~~ *faints* Having History and EST tomorrow, not going to study EST, because like English, the standard of it is rediculously low >__< Today's English paper was FILLED with obvious errors. Elaborating about it will only ruin my school's already pathetic reputation nyaaah~

Thevini realised that her wallet was stolen this morning, just 15 minutes before our first paper started. Yea, panic!! She went all pale and kept begging me to accompany her to look for it before the paper starts. I believe we've circled the school a few rounds non-stop within that short time frame -__-;; With all that exercise wee in the morning, it's a miracle I didn't fall asleep during our English paper <<-- which by the way, was really boring. Sat for more than an hour doing nothing but doodling Li Min who was sitting in front of me.

Later, Pn.Rahimah ordered all of the Prefect's and ex-prefect's bags and belongings to be checked. She forgot to check mine -____- I was so busy checking everyone's bag I forgot to check mine too XP Anyway we still couldn't find it. That's too bad, it was her own fault anyway >___< who on earth in their right mind would chuck her wallet into the bag and just leave it lying around? It's practically waiting to be taken. I didn't study for my literature, and never got a chance to do a last minute revision too due to that super bad timing problem T___T

Right, I should be studying right now, but I'm not >__< I can't seem to sit down quietly and study History today. Spent the afternoon watching the House of the Flying Daggers ( except for Takeshi, the show is crap ), falling asleep after revising chapter 4, 5 and 6 (or I think it was...),struggling to read Loveless....it's in japanese. Can't understand a word of the kanji >__< chatting with Kit-chan via sms and now blogging, with mum still yelling for me to get off the computer while my cousin and his fiance who's come to visit chuckling behind my back. I can't even blog in peace nowadays..... nyaaaaaa~

I need a break

2004-09-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

The days are getting really screwed lately. Take for example yesterday. It was pure disaster. It was my turn to lead the pledge in morning assembly, and thanks to yours truly not thinking when she's holding the mike, she blundered wonderfully like an idiot -____- In front of hundreds. Pn. Norizan turned 195' and stared at me wide eyed while I tried to stiffle my own giggles. -_____- Heck it was really embarrassing. Worst still, I came out of the hall a second later and the whole of my class, 4 Gemilang turned and watched me walk sheepishly to the back of the crowd, with Thevini at the side going 'WHAT HAPPENED?' THE NYAAH!!! I slipped my tongue during the pledge, that's what happened! Do you HAVE to ask??? ~_____~ And Sandy was trying real hard to stop sniggering too, but that hard enough. Nyah~

That in turn made Nik panic, since she's supposed to lead the pledge on Fridays. (today) She began memorizing like crazy yesterday to avoid the same...incident with today, even though her lines are like, way shorter and easier than mine >_<

Oh but that's not the best part. The best part is when it rained cats and dogs, and our school was flooded. No seriously, it was FLOODED! Our class was stuck at the lab, which was a step higher than the ground, and we watched in amusement as the water slowly came up. It was like watching the high tide coming in by the sea 0.o By the end of class, there was no place to walk along the pathway, the only way you can get to dry land was to get wet first. I thought I'd wait for the rainwater to subside first....bad move. Instead the water level got even higher -____- And with my 'Ah, What the heck' attitude, I jumped into the water, making a big splash. I'm not exxagerating nyaah~ And the water went splosh splosh as I crawled to dry land. I just had to wear baju kurung yesterday >_____< Yap, not long after that I felt like I was wearing sotongs instead of school shoes. Squishy~ To top it all, I was hungry ~___~

Luckily today's weather is rather fine. Only downside was that I had to go home with Raihana. Urgh, I can't stand her anymore. For the whole of her life, her communication topic will revolve only around herself, and devides into 4 sub-topics, Yvonne-sempai, Yen Fong, the two guys she likes, and the prefectorial board (but mostly about herself as the head >_< ) Lately she's been yapping on and on about the guy she likes that's in Seremban, then about the head prefect of Setapak Indah she met a while back. THEN she has the nerves to haughtily tell me she dislikes girls ( directly pointing to most of the indians at my school ) gossiping about their boyfriends/ male friends. I could have taken a brick and slapped it on her face. The NYAH!! She's so full of herself I'm getting so sick of it -_____- She's ALWAYS, ALWAYS talking about herself.... oohhh woe is me.... have to work with her every freaking day...every cursed second of my school life ... arrrgggghhhhh.... Having her as a classmate, prefect collegue, BM groupmate, neighbour, supposedly 'good friend' in her eyes has got to be a sick joke in my life...... *groans*

Ah yes....2 days countdown to the finals........ *goes and dig her own grave*

Anyway, thanks Sandy Your really sweet e-mail brought my spirits up again, at least XD XD *hugs* I've never felt this appreciated before nyaaahhh~~ If I have a someone like you in school, I guess I don't really regret going to this sick school after all XD

Freaky survey guy -_____-;;; eto...

2004-09-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

Came back from school half past dead today, thanks to all the boring science subjects that happens to cramp in every Tuesday >__< Kit-chan called just as I reached home and that kinda brought me back to life, for a while. Kitchan = my second son, who happens to be Matsu-chan's twin since he's also 7 years old...XD XD OMG I just found that out.... It rained after he hung up. It RAINED!!! I dislike the rain, more and more everyday -_____- I know Matsu-chan would most probably get me for saying this, but I dislike the rain. I couldn't get a shut eye too thanks to the rain.... eto....scared of thunder.....^^X"

Later in the evening, I got a call from the survey guy in Kota Raya, the one who was surveying for the dunno-what-crap-tuition-centre he was promoting. The thing is, he wasn't talking like he was promoting his tuition much, and definately didn't talk the way a promoter should ( formally that is ) He asked if I remembered *him* (not the survey O.o ) and honestly speaking, I didn't until he reminded me by asking that, so naturally I fibbed la. He asked if I was free to go to the tuition anytime to have a look, I delayed by saying I have my finals soon ( which is so damn true ) Heck, that guy sure is persistant.... The nyaaah.... I had joked that I was pretty interested in Japanese, and gosh he could still remember our every conversation!!! He remembers that I mentioned I'm confident in my english and chinese... gawd even I don't remember uttering those words.... The mess I landed myself in ~___~ I tried to find an excuse not to go to that particular tuition centre by saying that I have my exams soon ( which is true... ) and immediately he asked when my exams end, and when will I be free... WHAT THE NYAAAH?! I couldn't bring myself to inform him i don't need anymore tuition.....even worst, I can't tell him that I was plaining wasting his time with that interview -______-;;;; Lastly, I told him I can READ and WRITE Japanese, hoping he would get the message and buzz off, he didn't -_____-;; He said he's gonna call back soon after my exams to *discuss* about it again.... and I can't trace his number since it's a private one....gaaaarrr~ kowaii >___< Seriously, I do not want to speak to him, EVER!

Ok, so now I regret being so playful...... sheesh~

And Sandy just texted me, saying that PoT alarm clocks are on sale now. NYAAAHH!!! ALARM CLOCKS DESU!!!!~~ TENIPURI NYAAAHH!! I WANTTT!!!~ OMG~ Unfortunately, it's not in the Malaysian market, and chances are never will be T___T It's being sold in Hong Kong though...damn!~ And should I want to get it, it'll cost me about RM214 minus the 20% shipping payment, and that I have to pay online TT_____TT But I want it.... It comes with Tezuka, Fuji, Kikumaru and Atobe's voice nyaaaaahhh~ Tezuka will go something like : Are you not awake yet? 200 laps around the garden NOW!! XP So cute!!!~ Anou...anyone going to Japan or Hong Kong soon??? *hopeful* ^^;;

For now, I only have my Getbackers poster to keep me happy. Yess! I've waited for this day for ages!! There has never been any GB posters around, until I got one yesterday at Petaling Street. There's Kazuki *hugs* Akabane, Ginji and Ban XD XD It's now proudly above the other posters on the wall XD XD I'd die of happiness if they have one full Kazuki poster.....That is, after I finish screaming my head off in the manga shop with joy like yesterday when I first spotted it... Scared everyone there XD What's wrong with that student?? ( I was still in my uniform ...XD ) nyaaaahh~~ I can only daydream. Eto...I'm going to redraw my Misha drawing now... the one I drew yesterday got stained by my younger sister -____-;; Lyana said Misha's hairstyle resembles Sakura from CCS....nyaaah~ *Wriggles off and dies*

2004-09-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

I feel tired. Very tired. Physically, mentally..... just so tired ~___~ I only realised that I was when I passed out, and slept in the evening. It wasn't much of a sleep though, I just can't get out of the bed. In other words, I feel lazy nyaaah~

Anyway, I feel slightly better than this morning. I still can't get to Jess, I think she went out to her grandparent's place with her family. Thanks nyah, Matsu-chan for attempting to cheer me up earlier ^^X' I appreciate it. *hugs* I promise I'll be fine soon. XD XD Daijoubu.

I wanna go to sleep, but can't get my head over Physics... It's practically the only subject I've touched today, and still am not satisfied with my baka-ness in it nyaaaah.... >___< aaahh whatever, continue tomorrow... jya

Oh no.... it's my younger brother's birthday tomorrow....YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH~~~~ I forgot......

Blog Revamp

2004-09-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

As you can see, I changed the blog layout *again*, goodness knows which version it is now since I never keep track -_____- Didn't take me long to tweak a suitable table and crashed everything in, just a matter of cut and past. Yea it's all dark and morbid looking, the exact reflection of my emotions lately. Was listening to Mr.Deja Vu (akabane's theme) while tweaking this, and so I stashed in Akabane's pic for the effect XD I kinda like the end results....nyah. As long as my mood stays dark, so does this blog.

It's going to start raining soon... I've lost my mood to study. Jess still refuses to come out from the house, according to her sister. >___< She's blaming herself more than I am... sigh. Now I totally loath the rain. damnation....

seriously, what is up with the rain man?!

2004-09-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Boy was today tiring or what ^^X'

Woke up early today, mainly because I couldn't sleep AT ALL the whole night. Was chatting with Hon Kuan late last night ( the first time since the Merdeka thingy ) Yea he's quite a nice guy.... XD Anyway, I watched my whole doing last minute packing and mum being the usual busy hen again. They were all going for the Family Day somewhere... the WetLand near Cyberjaya... I forgot the name -______-x; I had refused to go a few days earlier, and dad was pretty fine with it. In the end, Cherry ( Aniki no kanojo! ) went in my place, as me XD So now there's an incest
relationship wahahahahha!~

I left home soon after they did. My initial plan was to met up with Vana and some other forumers, then hit TS with them to meet up with Lai Pui and Chia Wei, then Shinnoir, Xiong Ie, Xiao Ying and the latest, Chris-sama. Let's just say my whole planning were screwed XD XD

Since I was early, I dropped by at S&M Plaza to buy the PoT badges. They had all but FUJI! I was reluctant to buy an incomplete set, but was afraid that the next time I come, all would be gone~ So I bought it anyway. Then shopped around for Shinnoir's birthday present. ( WAAAAAAHHH GOMENASAI!! HONTOU NI GOMENASAI!!!!! WASURETETA!!!!! *cries* ) I had to walk the whole of chinatown before being satisfied. Tiring nyah. Then I walked all the way to TS from there.

Lai Pui and Chia Wei were already there, so we hit the Ez2D first. Vana and the rest were somewhere.... I dunno where. In the end we never met TT___TT. Zannen. Lai Pui has improved quite a bit, while Chia Wei simply refuse to try, ceh. Then Shinnoir came, followed by Matsu-chan and Xiao Ying ( mengejar hutang nih! ) Anyway, Megumi-chan, if you're reading this, I've already paid your share for the Cosmas fee. We danced a bit more...ok, so we danced alot more...^^X: And OMG~ Matsu-chan played Virtual Cop XD XD Damn, his face looked so serious when he was playing, but then turns all haywire when he dies in the end XD Wish I brought the camera nyah~ I wasn't long before we ALL felt hungry, so down to a pizza place we went.

It's only then I'd realised that I belong to a UBER SCREWED UP family. I don't even want to elaborate on the details >___< All of us sat down, and after awhile someone spotted a cockroach, right on top of my head even!!! What else? I freaked la!~ I hate them, I openly admit I have a major fear of cockroaches >______< Now they won't stop bullying me and my fear, which in turned heated up the disgusting eatery topics. Nyah~ EBIL PEOPLE!!! Almost lost my appetite if it wasn't for my growling stomach. And did anyone noticed that we were discussing really sick topics that are not proper for mealtimes? Like...weird food... weird people...yaoi pairings....wait, that's ok XD

And my how time flies, by the time we were done eating, or should I say...By the time Matsu-chan was done eating it was already 2.00pm. Class starts at 3.00pm. Luckily, Chris-sama had already arrived from Bangsar, so we went back up outside the arcades and met up with him. AIIIKKOOO-CHAAANN!!~~ Thanks for the prezzie nyaaah!! I love it!! It's so cute!!~ XD XD Oh, this is the first time that Matsu-chan met Chris-sama too, if I'm not mistaken, his erm... *pardon me* step-gay-father. *burst out laughing like mad* Chris-sama was going to Pudu Plaza to purchase bus tickets to Penang ( balik kampung XD ) with his friend, Ng, so I tagged with him considering we're heading the same way. So from the arcades, we bade goodbye and separated.

Boy was it HOT HOT HOT or what.[ note to self : never EVER wear black if you plan to walk all the way from chinatown to TS, and then back to chinatown again. ] Went to tuition class, and Wye Ee almost tore my head off for wearing Ryoma's cap ^^XX Then she almost strangled me dead when I showed her the PoT badges I just bought. She can be really intense at times....scary~ Anyway, we were in class and talking our heads off about random anime, made quite a stir as well actually. We're noisy people when it comes to anime, even though there's only 3 of us XD

From majorly overheating tempretures, it can turn dramatically into flash floods -_____- I'm beginning to imagine that the Malaysian weather has something against me. It rained so freakingly heavy I had no idea how to get home. Meeting back up with the others were way out of the question. I couldn't even walk to the next block without getting soaked all out. I HATE THE RAIN. Miraculously I made it home in the end, but had to wait at the lrt station for quite awhile before the rain subsided a little. Fished out my sketchbook, which still has 3 blank pages and started to draw again...standing while breezes of rain keeps getting on to me. I was totally, and I mean totally wet from head to toe by the time I reached the guard house. My pants had changed into a darker colour thanks to the rain water. And I just washed my cap >__< I passed by the guard house and saw Kuro-chan ( the stray black cat I'm kinda looking after ) shivering at one corner of the house. I ran towards the lift, placed my stuff down, then went back under the rain to get the Kuro-chan. She wasn't exactly pleased with getting wet, but it's better that she's in the building. I had a hard time trying to shoo her away from following me entering the lift.. poor cat~

And you know what? The rain stopped almost immediately after I stepped into the house. I'm telling you, the weather is toying with me here!!!~

Come evening, got pestered by Matsu-chan to go online to join in a small family reunion, as I would like to call it XD XD Ah, I finally managed to install Mirc in....baka me ^^X'I got to meet Masamune too, the infamous guy whom I keep hearing about but never met ( and to think he's my son! and GAWD! he's calling me oka-san too!!~~ *faints* ) Now I have 3 bishies as my sons .... XD Should I be happy or should I scream in horror.... It was fun while it lasted, because the next trauma that happened totally spoiled my day.

I recieved a call from my neighbour downstairs. She was at the motorcycle carpark, apparently taking a look at the litter of kittens that Maru-chan just gave birth too lately. The both of us were looking after them in a way, and Kuro-chan too since she's pregnant...*again* The kittens are dying one by one T______T She quickly reported that one of the black one was having difficulty breathing, and couldn't move much, so I rushed downstairs, half cursing the lift for being so slow, but it was too late. It had died before I reached the litter. TT____TT That's the second one this week. What puzzled me was Maru-chan was no where in sight... usually she was around. I didn't know if we should bury it before Maru-chan arrive or not, but then we decided to bury it. We got some old newspaper near the dumpsite and covered it, before bringing out to one of the garden lands and dug a hole........ >___<

Passion of Christ

2004-09-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

It's no wonder Passion of Christ is banned in so many countries...... I doubt it's because of it's religious theme, but the really bloody scenarios can ripe you apart >_______< I don't think I can ever make myself watch that show again. I'm not a Christian (despite popular beliefs that I am), yet that didn't stop me from wanting to watch the show. Aniki had brought it back a few days ago, and I managed to steal sometime to watch while mum was away. It was totally in a language I don't understand, what was it? Hebrew? Most probably.... Rinche, our housekeeper is an Indonesian Christian, so I didn't dissaprove of her wanting to watch the show as well. This is probably the first, and only show that managed to make me cry from the beginning till the end, and after the end. I admit that no teary anime can EVER be compared to.

Until now, hours after watching the show, I can still feel my body tingling with weird feelings while flashbacks of the whipping of Jesus comes flooding in..... oooowww~ I have a gut feeling Rinche is still crying in her room now >.<"" Though, there are questions I still don't understand, should go dig someone up and ask a bit. Mum had refused to watch the show after seeing me cry like nobody's business when she came back halfway into the movie.

Kudos to Mel Gibson, but next time, I shall opt for a comedy. It's too emotional. TT_____TT

Went to night class soon after that. Lo and behold, it started to pour again. >.< Stupid rain keeps coming down at the wrong moments. I had to face the stupid weather, and entered class half drenched. The air-conditioner was super cold as well, as always, and that added a bonus to me freezing down till my spine.

It was still raining after class, 2 hours later, and I for-go my intentions to get to S&M plaza. Had wanted to get the PoT badges for Sandy and myself actually. I went to my fave shop to 'lepak' after class. I saw that the shop was already selling Ryoma's famous [R] cap. I could have kicked myself!! Before this, I've already went to have it done specially ( and expensive too!) while now, NOW they're selling it!! Though, I guess my cap is waaay more detailed and is correct in porpotion, compared to those that are massively produced. Cheapskate ciplaks. The shop also sold PoT figurines, which is seriously VERY UGLY~ And they dare charge 50 bucks each for shitty plastic fakes. ~______~

Ah, but my happiest moment is when I bought Ryoma's wristband. It's the blue one with white strips that Ryoma has in the anime XD XD OMG, at this rate, I might as well just cosplay Ryoma!! It's not really sensible to cosplay Fuji at the end of the year when I already have all of Ryoma's accessories. Then again, I prefer Fuji, his hairstyle....and I don't wanna wear shorts ^_^;; NYAAAAHHH~~~ Dou deshou~~~

Erm, that's it for now I guess. Have to sleep early because there ain't gonna be any rest for me tomorrow. Hafta go straight to my aunt's place in Subang Jaya. She's agreed to tutor me on Accounts for the time being until I get my screwed up brain straighted a bit. Then perhaps I shall go get my Munak 'sampan' hat ~_________~ . Ja, oyasumi-nasai.

2004-09-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

I hate the rain...there's something about the rain lately that I dislike....>___<;

SATURDAY

Went to Times Square just before tuition class on Saturday. I met Himi there, who suprisingly was behind the wheels of the Initial D. O.o At first I thought Cypher was only joking when he mentioned Himi is getting hooked on the game as well. I played a few rounds of Ez2D, Himi and Cypher left, and so did I a little while later. Yen Fong told me today that I have been 'spotted' again at TS by a friend of hers whom I have no idea who =______= Apparently he seems to remember me quite well.... What the nyaah~

I spent RM10 in one shot, something I've not done in a long time, and plan not to do so in the near future. Must save up for Seigaku jacket!!! GOsh I'm so flat broke TT____TT . I made a mental note to start saving as soon as I left the arcades. I went down to the hypermarket downstairs (forgot the name! XD) to get myself a snack on the way to tuition. And boy oh boy, I found the joy of having mini ramune sweets XD XD I broke my vow as soon as I made em, and the sweet wasn't cheap either (Since it was shipped from Japan). I think if anyone of you watches FMA, you'll know what I'm talking about. It's so cute!! I kept the mini plastic bottle. I couldn't find the larger, original ramune (which is actually a drink) at TS, and the only place I know that sells it is KLCC =___=

Got out of TS, and it began to drizzle. So I thought it's not so bad, the rain is my friend (trying to brainwash myself here) and went ahead by foot towards Petaling Street for class. The rain got heavier >____< I was a wet duck in class, though not the only one XP

Sunday

I had to wake up early in order to accompany my younger brother who was having tuition at 9.oo am to Petaling Street. I packed along my maths homework, and went to the quiet foodcourt upstairs of UDA OCEAN, my fave hang out place to read comics, draw or do revisions before tuition. My conclusion on the drinks there after a few glasses over the past few weeks is : Vanilla coke cannot go with vanilla ice cream, ice cream soda goes, coke goes, rootbeer and chocolate ice cream does NOT tally. It was yucky, even worst than the vanilla coke + vanilla ice cream...urgh~

Finished my work, and walked down to the Nagoya shop downstairs. It's a pretty huge place, but doesn't even have the materials I'm looking for, for my jacket TT____TT I then headed to S&M plaza, to get myself the Microsoft Office program, and hoping that Getbackers or better yet FruitBasket is out already. I found Ayase-chan instead *lol* She was looking for materials and chains for her Kurapika costume. Having nothing to do and another 2 hours ++ to kill, I tagged with her. We had so much to talk about that before we knew it, we had circled S&M plaza a few rounds.

Later we left the building to various textstil shops to search for both our costume materials, but mainly hers since I was doing it half heartedly -______-

Ayase is a Sukisho fan!!!~~ I was jumping up and down happily realising that I wasn't the only around. According to her, there's a Sukisho anime (which is rather sucky, but I DON"T CARE!!!) a few mangas (Which I want but can't get it in Malaysia <<--- CURSE YOU STUPID PUBLISHERS!!!) and a drama-cd. She's promised to lend it to me next time we meet XD XD AWW THANKS!!! There's a few games of Sukisho too, but so far I can't get ANY Of them here at KL. T_____T We headed back to S&M plaza again, then each took our own ways around 1.00 pm because my tuition was starting.

I came out from the Kasturi building in less than two hours and freakingly cold rain was splashing on my face, greeting me. It was a very heavy rain. Wye Ee and I paced under the rain towards Popular, and I left her there to wait for her dad while I moodily walked under the rain until Watsons when Lo~ It turned into a slight drizzle. I dashed to s&M plaza again, for dunno the hundredth time that day and got myself two more posters, one of Kaoru Yuki's work and another of CLAMP's. Was walking out of the building when something by one the shops near the floor caught my eye. POT MINI BUTTONS!!!!~ They're so cute!!!!! I wanted to buy the whole set on the spot, but since they sold it separately, someone had already taken my beloved Fuji T___T and there wasn't any extra stock left. So I told the guy to keep a whole set for me and Sandy ( I can bet the whole of my 7 years allowance that she'll be dying to get her hands on those)

It totally stopped raining by the time I was out of the building. I was like, yippiee!!! and looked forward to go home. Then some guy just had to stop me, passed me a leaflet and I went "darn it, terkena pulak!!!" One glance at the leaflet and I knew they're promoting some sort of tuition somewhere. Clearly I had no interest, but decided to play along anyway. Firstly he asked me what do I think of my english. I told him my english is just fine, thanks. He kept pressing on my view of my english standard that I told him off I'm very sure of my english commands, and certainly don't need tuition. <<-- err.. I didn't tell him the later part, but sure wish I did! And clearly I don't need any Mandarin classes, I was conversing in mandarin with him just nicely, and I'm sure he knew that as well. Among the 3 languages his tuition provided, the last was Japanese class. I almost laughed out loud when I read the leaflet. That guy asked if I was interested in taking foreign languages, and I was like....yea....maybe...like Japanese.....XP So in all, I had myself entertained and completely wasted his time. Satisfied, I left for home via LRT.

Monday

I told you Sandy would go bonkers. I was right. I think she went far over-bonkers. She went even nuttier when she told me she had already gotten and watched POT Boxset 6 <<---dah habis PMR trial nih....>_<;;

Had English class today after recess, and I sure wish to express my deepest condolence to our 'beloved' teacher. NONE of us was even listening to her in class. The few of us, Wee Li, Shake, Mei Yi and Liyana at times, plus yours truly here, was busy chatting and doodling on the same piece of paper right smack in front of our teacher's face. Her apparent annoyance was clearly shown on her face, yet she made NO attempt to stop us whatsoever. Now this is a good teacher X3 Of the very few times I paid attention, I noticed her eyes kept on looking at us, then our 'beautiful works of boredom' on the paper and then back at us, while trying hard to concentrate on the essay she was asking us to deliver. Poor...poor teacher.. WAHAHHAHAHHAHHA~ XD

Same thing happened in EST class, when she reached the state of helplessness as at one point, she stopped teaching and noticed the whole class talking among themselves. I was the only one staring blankly at her and vice-versa. She was annoyed, dismayed nonetheless, but did nothing again. Once in a while she made Rashvinda keep quiet, but that was all.

Aniki came and picked me up, which was a nice surprise since I was expecting my mum. He had patiently waited for 20 minutes while I took my own sweet time walking slowly with Chow and arguing about the bishies in Hana ni NAre *again* ^^XX""" My aniki didn't say a word of annoyance at all!! W00t?~ We reached home just in time, to get soaked. It began to pour, and heck that sure was a heavy pour. My brother actually took one whole round around the car park just to put me down at the indoor carpark, then take another round to park his car under the rain. All just so that I don't have to get drenched with him. I was like, OMG!!! My brother! He did that for me??? OMG!! He DOES care! XD

Guess the rain ain't that bad after all.

Random quiz

2004-09-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

Another random quiz I plucked out from hi5. Boredom is really getting on to me.

coffee = I don't like coffee -____-

vanilla = goes well with coke XD

yellow = erm...banana?

pink = Raihana

josh hartnett = Not bishie enough

popcorn = TGV

summer = beach

moon = Neil Armstrong is a hoax *curse*

memories = the only happiness XD

sushi = My sushi sux >___<

sorry = World most common word, said without sincerity.

enemy = bastards I dislike

dog = cute cute cute!!!!~

country = Malaysia...XD

love = universal bond~

cameras = xiong ie and his paparazzi days -_____-

liars = idiots with low self esteem

Sean Paul = some guy with that name -__-

WWF = not doing their job, they can do WAY better >.<

Jealousy = when shit happens in the relationship XD

bed = My fave furniture when tired.

LOTR = Sam and Frodo is gay *gets killed XD*

thanksgiving = the food beats the purpose of it

Aloha = Lilo and Stitch

march = one of the months..duh~

friendster = used it, don't use it, won't use it ;p

movies = stupid place to date

chocolate = can't live without ne!

butt = everyone has one, do you? XD

shoes = roller shoes ...

music = The matrix soundtrack is cool!~

green = Inui's first juice was green.....

balls = basketball

rock = very very large stones

kiss = kinda gross come to think of it XD

school = Ebil place that breeds mutants

life = is how you look at it.

honey = sweet ; goes well with popcorn

first date = intense fear

Harry Potter = over commercialized

hurt = when you are alone

friends = I love all of you reading this blog XD

guys = are actually really weak inside ;3

christmas = over commercialized the true meaning has faded

stuffed animal = animal abuse ...huh!

handphone = annoying gadgets in the cinema

holiday = I need one.....bad~

mood = going in loops lately

milk = goes best with cereal

gym = stinky place...eeew~

queen = What my sis thinks she is

Regret = when it's too late to undo

heterozygosity : scientific watnot...=P

hunger = practise by going for puasa XD

homework = given to test the limits of sanity

tv = haven't watched a thing in days!!!!

orange = you know, orange and carrot does NOT go together

z = add z with = equals =Z <<--- I have no idea --''''

law = made to be broken

exam = 2 weeks time....DIE!!!!!!~~

idol = Megumi Ogata.....XD

computer = having fun! helps a lot! and lots more....

Fave song of the day : Chop Suey ( The Matrix OST ) *p/s : Stupid, STUPID name for suck a great song*

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
Here we go
Ceate another fable
(You wanted to)

Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
(You wanted to)
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
(You wanted to)
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
(You wanted to)

Well I don't think
You trust in
My self-rightous suicide
Why cry when angels
Deserve to

Die
(Growl)

Wake up (wake up)
Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup
I just crossed the feeling
With a shakeup
Why'd you leave
The keys up on the table?
Here we go
Create another fable
(You wanted to)

Grab a brush and
Put a little makeup

what the nyaaah~ where's my pencilcase?!

2004-09-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

EEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

I left my pencil case in school =________=

I didn't even realise I didn't bring it home until earlier at night when I wanted to do some doodling, and finish up the drawing I half promised Thevini today. ARGH! My favourite o.7 mechanical pencil , my trusty erasers are all in THERE!!

I don't understand it, I thought I had checked everything before leaving the class today. I vividly remember scanning the desk to see if I had left anything behind before zipping up my bag. I turned my school bag inside out and still can't find it. AAAAAAAAHHH~~~ I just hope it's still in school, and no idiot is planning to snitch it away..... TT_______TT

I just tried starting the drawing for Thevini. She wanted me to draw a pic of a guy and a girl together, which I assume she plans to show her boyfriend. I managed to get the guy out real nice, but totally screwed up the female -______- I can't draw with comfort with any other pencil. >___< So unprofessional hehehhe~

Lately I've been a serious blur case. I keep forgetting and misplacing things around in school and at home. I should go get myself a check-up and see if my brain is still functioning at a normal pace. Guess I have too many things stuffed in my head right now.... yaih ~_______~

2004-09-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

Here's a few spoilers for those who still keeps arguing and insisting that Akito is a guy. And also to those who can't accept the brutal truth and blames it on photoshop's editting and stuff, please hover your mouse over this link and click it. The manga scan is in japanese, but I'm sure a picture spells a thousand words. You don't have to be a genius to understand it, trust me. I got it off from comic fiesta, so the credits in getting this info goes to the forumers there. XD

manga scan

spoilers + details of chapter 97

If Kureno is not a juunishi, then WHO is he? Ah, if you look closely (I don't think you need to since the manga scan is so freakingly big) you'd realise that Akito just hugged and kissed Kureno....half naked -_____- If Akito was a guy, I'd be really happy TT_____TT

Now I'll just go back and humour myself with downloading scanlations... been doing that a lot lately....

2004-09-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

Woke up rather early today without as much as a fuss (which came quite as a surprise) I was still sleepy, thanks to the late night chatting with Xiong Ie and Shen Yee while downloading scanlations.

Main reason I got out of bed today was that I still haven't balanced my accounts sheets since yesterday. I keep getting extra amounts here and there on my answer sheet and got frustrated yesterday. Mum said I'll make a lousy accountant ;P Perhaps she's right hohhohoho~ >.< Goodness knows how I keep ending up with an extra 20 bucks and 200 bucks.

Having about another half an hour to spare before I left for Accounts class today, I decided to have a read on the scanlations. Yesterday I managed to download Kaoru Yuki's one shot piece Boys Next Door. (YES, It's shounen-aish) For any other shounen ai lovers, you can get the scans from Sakura-crisis *points to link at the side bar* I recommend it ^__^ It's basically about a mentally disturbed serial killer teacher who murders young boy prostitutes, the reason behind his insane killing is his somewhat brutal and bloody past. He then meets a young boy (Bingo, another *ehem* XD) and falls in love with him. Of course, he ends up murdering Lawrance as well, though it is by mistake, and is driven by Lawrance's (the boy) pretence. In the end, the teacher was sentence to jail and not death (as what he wanted) and commited suicide.

I cried my eyes out in front of the computer. It's so damn touching TT_____TT It took me less than 10 minutes to finish reading it and I was crying by the buckets.

Mum then yelled across the house for me to get ready for tuition. I had to quickly wipe my face and get loads of tissue to wipe the computer table. I grabbed my bag and headed off for class alone by walking to the LRT. Mum and Dad had offered to fetch me but I was kinda put off by their teasings that I decided to walk instead ( I can get very twitchy in the morning XD )

Mr.Bong had us to complete an Accounts question paper within the exam's time limit. It's actually the first time I've done something like this, since I didn't sit for Accounts exams in school. None of us could complete it in time -______- Mr.Bong placed us under Penalty - instant death. (He's a footie freak) At least, I managed to finish all 3 papers by the end of the day and the figures came out balanced and accurate. Yattaaaaaaaa!!!!~~~ *dances around with paperfans* I blame the slowness in our work on the very very cold air conditioner. My hands totally froze and turned yellowish due to the cold. It's so numb and I swear if I stayed inside the classroom any longer I could've gotten frostbites =____=;;

Wye Ee, Mun Yee and I were the latest to leave class, and when we finally did, I couldn't help but declare to myself I love the sun XD XD. We then headed to Popular while waiting for their respective families. I just hung around to keep them company. Got to know Mun Yee a little closer today, and I just realised that she and Carina was in the same school. How stupidly blind of me not to notice it before. Turns out she knows Carina pretty well too.

Carina - my primary school friend who happened to be the one who help shaped me into who I am today. It's been 4 years since I've last met her T___T I started liking basketball because of her.

Wye Ee left first, then Mun Yee. I was still stuck at P.Street alone and decided to head to the manga shop to check out Furuba. ( AKITO IS A GIRL!!!! AIYYEEEEEE!!!!~~ *faints*) No Furuba. So I headed to S&M plaza and got myself a few more posters and a small chocolate bun, my lunch. A pathetic lunch. The posters I purchased were way more expensive than that miserable RM1.00 bun. Went straight home after that because I'm going to be flat broke soon and that it started to drizzle abit.

Came home and immediately revamped my room. It's now loaded with posters again XDXD I love my Araiso poster. I love my Gundam Seed poster. Most of all, I love my Target Nights poster. I stuck two Target Nights (a yaoi game XD) posters on the door XDXD My family still thinks it's just a normal boy x girl poster. Let's just keep mum about this nyaaahh.... heheheh....

Lun Lun and his fiance, my youngest uncle (and my aunt, errrggh!!) came over to our place for dinner. We had Asam Laksa and Sarawakian laksa specially prepared by mum. Dear Aunty Maggie just HAD to brag about herself and declared to mum that she will show mum how to make the original Sarawakian laksa. =________= She's being a bitch again. I don't hate her, I just loath her mouth. My uncle promised to bring me around town soon to shop for a scanner and hopefully, a better set of headphones and microphones.

Eto..I should go complete my maths homework now -_____- I still haven't finished it gaaaar~ It's suicide. Unlike two nights ago, when I had a sudden rush of adrenaline to complete most of my homework, my maths is still left hanging in mid-air. I'm really gonna get it from the teacher if I don't complete it by tonight. First two period tomorrow if I'm not mistaken.

ja....

2004-09-05T02:13:00.000+08:00

I'm happy to annouce that my mood has turned for the better today XD

Mum had to force drag me out of bed this morning for tuition. Was especially tired since I only had a mere 3 hour's sleep. Luckily, I didn't carry and bags around my eyes for class XDXD. Mum and I then went around town to pick my lil' sis from her tuition class to her ballet class ( I hate ballet =____=;;) and pick up my bro from his St.John meeting to tuition.

I was about to blog about my aunt and her adopted kids when my mother just butted in and prevented me from doing so, claiming that I shouldn't blog about it even if it's my blog. So I'll not elaborate further.

After class, I took my time and made my way to Times Square. The last time I visited TS was about a month and a half ago. o.o Some smart friend of mine told me that the EZ2D machine had crashed, and it was. -_____- Great. I went around Times Square and got myself a KSD Character album. (Muaks, I love it!) Almost bought Saiyuki Reload the PS2 game when I remembered I already have one of my own.

Just goes to show how I chuck my games in a corner to collect dust and forget all about it.

I went around hunting for a Korean show called Volcano High as well. I only managed to watch a portion of it on the ferry towards P.Redang during the holiday. Unfortunately, despite having tons of shops around town, NONE of it has EVER heard of the show. Crap. Defeated, I headed back to the arcades and waited for Kitsune.

I had only expected Kit-chan to come, since he told me about it yesterday, but by the end of the day, there were loads of them. Street Soldier, Xiao Ying, Xiong Ie, CielJacques, Guest18..... were all there. Surprise surprise, why am I not surprised XD Street Soldier got me to sit beside him while he played the 18 trailer truck game, and I had an entertaining session of pressing the irritating horn XD Xiong Ie, as usual had his super dangerous camera was lurking about taking pics of unsuspecting victims. Managed to book 2 tickets for Cosmas from Xiao Ying as well, just need to give her my details later.

Xiong, I want that pic you took of me DELETED!! you hear me?!! Delete it ASAP!!! I would've looked better in a mugshot than that pic >_______<

Wanted to stay back a little later, but since it was getting dark I had to leave early. Gomen ne Kit-chan ^^X; By the time I had reached home, my legs ached the crap out of me I couldn't walk for hours. I pulled a muscle and was biting my pillow to contain the pain and prevent myself from shrieking out loud. Have to change my pillow before going to bed, lotsa saliva heehhe~

Am listening to my KSD character album again. I love Hoshi Souichirou!!!!!!!!!!! *shrieks madly* He sang for Akira's theme song, he has a sexy, sexy voice XDXD Oh yea, something else that made me went HOLY SHITT!!!! earlier, Went to comic fiesta's forum and checked out some of the post. Get ready for this,

Fruit Basket's Akito is a GAL. I went both hysterical and ballistic after seeing the proof with my bare naked eyes. Somewhere in chapter 97, there's a pic of akito half naked, (her) upper half has breast. T__________T My Akito.....~ ~ ~ And to think I was glee with joy after finding out Akito kissed Kureno because I thought (she) was a (he) <<---- yaoiness... XD There is no doubt after this that the mangaka for Furuba is mentally twisted and enjoys torturing her loyal readers with such a shocking turnabout of gender O.O This also means that Hatori knew about it all along considering that he is Akito's personal doctor. For a woman, she sure is sadistic. -______- I want my male Akito back.... (Am currently arguing with Xiao Ying over Akito's gender)

*faints into Ayame's arms and dies*

I hate me

2004-09-04T04:12:00.000+08:00

At 4.20 in the wee hours of the morning, my mood just plumetted to the ground. Perhaps it's also due to the eerie silence that's surrounding me as I'm facing the computer and typing this, but I feel like a terrible loner at the moment.

Thinking back now (yea lots of time to do that =_____=) I realised that most of the actions and things not done by me seemed truly insignificant. I cannot find a reason for my existance, and sometimes end up worrying that I shall never find even a lame excuse for it. To put it in simpler way, I feel that my life is empty and it sucks.

Truth be told, I hate going to school lately. The emptiness inside is expanding faster than the black hole. I cannot grip the reason as to why I feel as such, but every where around me there are no smiles that I can see anymore. There are a lot of friends of mine out there in that school. But the burden of my tasks in school is taking it's toll when day after day, I cannot spend even a few precious minutes catching up with their lives. >.< I'm terribly sorry things had to turn out this way.

From many's perspective it seemed like I have abandoned people for my post. Come to think of it, it does seem that way. No one knows how guilty I feel deep down, or my yearning to return to the good ol' days where I could just sit and listen to them joke. Ironically, I feel like I've been abandoned instead.

But I must be lying if I said I liked this school. My biggest regret, until now was ever enrolling into this school. Perhaps it would have been better that I continued in AMC instead, but my selfish side knows better. I would definately leave AMC to be back in K.L. I hate myself -_____-

It just hurts. I don't even know what really stabs the most, but the pain is weighing me down tremendously. Overall I feel lonely. I can stand in the middle of my crowds of 'friends' and still feel the same, perhaps even worst. I know I'm yearning for something, somewhere. I'm not as sociable as I would like, I care but usually tend to be too careful not to trip the line of busy-bodyness that I end up being afraid to show how I feel inside for others. I have a major fear of offending people. >________<

I'm not exactly typing what I truly feel inside at the moment either, cause it's rather hard to pen down how I feel at the moment. It's a feeling that can't be explained and unfortunately, can't be undone for the time being. Reading Xiong Ie's blog didn't help much either. I felt so useless and selfish knowing that I was everywhere else except reading his blog when he was at his worst. It wasn't only Xiong Ie, I came to realise to late far many people were down in the dumps whilst I was unaware. How much blinder and inconsiderate can I be? I had every chance to be by these people's side and what the hell did I do instead?

To those I never paid much attention to, no matter how much I wanted to but didn't, I'm sorry. I give my thousand apologies and hopes that somewhere inside you guys can forgive me. Pardon me for having you guys reading such a useless rant as well. But it feels good. I feel slightly better after letting most of it out.

The other part of letting out is the tears. I don't exactly remembered the last time I cried in the dark. I'm not exceptionally proud that I cried. I find it rather difficult to admit that I did, over such a dumb feeling. I feel sick, I'm wallowing in self-pity, something I extremely hate. I never realised tears could trickle down my cheek so fast and so heavily... if I had a mug or something I bet I could have measured it .... but my mind was completely empty at that period of time, it didn't cross my mind. Perhaps if I did at that hour, I couldn't have laughed at myself for thinking silly thoughts and cheer up a little, thus not worrying my mum about me.

Hopefully this will just be a passing fade and things will come around. I guess I have to avoid travelling alone by myself for awhile, especially to tuition classes and such. I tend to think and ask too many questions I myself can't find a logical answer for. Once I couldn't answer myself and I actually texted Shinnoir about what he thought. I didn't manage to ask him the question because I had already reached home..ah well. Not that I remember what I wanted to ask now anyway.

I guess it's time I turn in and get some quality rest. I need them. I seem to be very weak physically and mentally lately. I was on the verge on fainting while taking the pledge on Thursday, which was worst since I was leading the pledge. >.< I know, I don't take care of myself and I don't like doctors. So there.

If anyone's planning to either bombard me with looks of accusations or whatever of any sort for anything related to the random post above, kindly do so..... some other time. I'm too lazy to entertain the lot of you which are most likely to come by the dozens. I needed a place to let out, nothing else.

2004-09-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

Oh my it's been so long since I've blogged.... ~___~ 3 weeks. Sorry la, but I can be real lazy at times. I wanted to go to the cyber cafe a few times, but backed out all the time due to the fact that I dislike those places and feel it's stupid to waste money going there just to blog.

Guess I'm not that addicted to blogging after all. XD

I think a lot of things happened when I was hiatus online. I'm waaaaayy~ darker now even my mum can't recognize me at times. -.-;; Our whole class practically looked like we went for a holiday trip to Hawaii. Didn't do anything at all during the holidays, cept going for a short holiday in P.Redang with my family....

Will post some of the photos here later. XDXD I got some cheeky photos of me wearing that bear hairband Xiong Ie gave. I brought it all the way by mistake. XD

You know, it's only today I realised that our school DO have anime addicts. Not counting the ones I know like Rei, Sandy, Hades of course. Went to do a spotcheck on the form 3 classes today, and hit jackpot when I found a girl who brought at least 5 mangas to school today =_____= Dumbass. Not only that, she brought my FAVE manga, that is Hana ni Nare! and Love Monster to school. Sheesh~ I felt it was such a waste we had to take it away and sooner or later, it will be thrown out. She apparently was a j-rock/j-pop fan as well as there were mad scribblings all over her desk (she seems to have a major crush on jiro-chan) and openly brought posters of Miyabi (the artist, not our mibi XD)

And after today, Thevini and I seemed to be going along fine. She and I had lots to catch up with together considering we were both ignoring each other through out the whole month after that dumb incident. Heck, we're even sitting together now XDXD Rashvinda however still refused to even look at me. But all I can say is this,

AAahh~ whatever! I never really liked you anyway. >.<

None of us mentioned anything about the ignoring and dissing part (she and Rashvin were doing all the back stabbing and dissing) Perhaps I can learn to forgive here, to patch the prefect board up a bit, but I sure will not forget. I still hate the fact that they indirectly hitted me and Hades and through out the whole time we were during rehearsal, kept a look-out 24/7 to check out my 'discipline' just to take revenge. Girl-friends can be so dangerous at times, especially when things revolves around guys.. erks... the root of all problems =___=

*gets stabbed by all the guys reading this*

Just so you guys know then, I'm in a bloody bad mood lately (that which explains why I have not been smiling much ne) I have shitloads of things in my head right now and a bigger shitload of homework to complete over the weekend. I have no idea how to complete my accounts homework ~______~;;;

My mood now though, seems a bit lighter since I'm downloading Tenipuri mp3s by the dozen here XD I've never been happier this week. Went to Tsubame-gaeshi (Sandy and Amanda's recommendation) and found what I've been searching for, Ryoma Echizen's SR Samurai. Plus, I'm going to TS again tomorrow (the last time I went was a month ago =______=) and hopefully meet up with Kitsune (the last time I met him was monthS ago =______=)

And due to hunger now, I can't think of anything else to blog now ~__~ This always happens. To think I just wallopped a whole burger and a bowl of cereal with milk. I think I'm going to make myself a bowl of instant noodle now....

Oh and dig this : the spellcheck in Bloggers don't even have the words 'blog, blogged, blogging' in it =________= what the nyaaah?

2004-08-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

I finally managed to change the flower XD Though it looks kinda plain, I somehow like it this way XD XD By the way that's from Wild Adapter.

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
brought to you by Quizzila

2004-08-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the ride home Michy ^^"

Had our Merdeka Celebration rehearsal again as usual today. We managed to cover the 2nd and 3rd formation, though it was a hellish affair. Wearing long sleeved cheapskate red pajamas like outfit under the hot sun and strict personals in charge is not my idea of fun or experience gaining for that matter. To make matter worst, the tension of what happened on Tuesdays still hasn't cooled down yet, with jealousy and suspicions growing ever intense over the dumbest thing of all -->> guys. Erm, I don't mean that guys are dumb, well most of them are, but that's not what I mean XD

*avoids multiple glares from everyone*

Panda seemed to be rather upset today. He was moody and refused to talk or smile to anyone around, including Polar who was trying to cajole him. Frankly he sulks like a girl -__- I tried to talk to him today but couldn't since everything wa so tight today. At the end of the day I noticed he kinda lightened up a bit when I started to joke with him, defying the teacher's orders to shut up XD Now I wonder, why is everyone using bear names lately?

Yes. There ARE bishies there after all XD XD I only wished we were allowed to bring cameras along, then I could start a real life bishie photo collection XD Xiong Ie would not appreciate that since I would hog him down and get his pics nyooo~ XD

Michy's dad gave me a ride back home *again* Gosh I feel so bad ^^" I thought I would treat myself to a nice long shower once I reached home. Who would have thought I would get locked out of my own house -___-;; I went ahead and rang the doorbell, only to notice the big padlock locking the grill, the sign that shows no one's in. Choiceless, I waited along the corridor for no less than 20 minutes when I couldn't stand the boredom and headed downstairs to call mum using the public phone (which, by the way, eats money faster than any PP I've ever come across) only to find she was already on her way home.

Apparently our housekeeper had a toothache. I noticed bloodstain on her teeth when she smiled sheepishly as she opened the door later.

Mum didn't come home though, instead she went down to Seremban to my grandma's place, most probably to settle the arrangements to get a babysitter for my aunt. So now here I am, roller blading indoors when I'm not supposed to. XD I'm too lazy to go all the way downstairs just to blade awhile and get bored all alone.

And I just finished watching the Next Action Star. I guess it's something you would call another lame reality tv show that makes you an instant celebrity. I think this one is slightly more interesting that the over hyped Fantasia Academy and the likes. I like Jared's acting, and his looks *giggles* While Viviena sure is bitchy enough, but the judges thinks that she has style and personality and kept her in -.- I hate the way she kept touching her own boobs. She would push it up while wearing flimsy clothings just to show them and that is downright cheap. I like her style of acting as well, but she seriously has attitude problem, and can't keep her mouth shut. I'll be around to catch the next few episodes, it's pretty interesting heh XD

Does anyone know where I can download the latest album for P.O.T? It's called SR and the song mostly belongs to Ryoma. I tried getting it from x.seisatsu but the bandwith seems to be down again. TT___TT Please.. I desperately need those songs....

Will update again later when my brain can function properly.

lookie here!! XD chibi tenipuri

2004-08-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

Went around hunting for a suitable layout for the blog and ended up finding these chibi characters from tenipuri....cute-nyer!!!!!!!~~~ XD XD Forgot to upload Kaidoh though..heh ^^X'

FUJI SYUUSUKE

KIKUMARU EIJI

ECHIZEN RYOMA

TEZUKA KUNIMITSU

INUI SADAHARU

KAWAMURA TAKASHI

2004-08-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

Nyah..think happy thoughts think happy thoughts, blog happy thoughts blog happy thoughts.

Dad just came back from Indonesia *again* and brought back loads of stuff non of us eat -_____- He travelled up to Penang and Ipoh before returning, and to my greatest joy brought back bundles of pomelo XD XD Gawd I miss Ipoh so much nyaaahhhh T_____T

Mum on the other hand went solo shopping around KL today and bought back a small hill of junkfood, a lots of chocolates XD for our holiday trip this Sunday. I hereby predict my most accurate prediction ever, the food will not last even until Friday XD

Dad joined us for dinner at home, something that felt like a really long time ago. Then mum told us something quite shocking. My 2nd aunt is planning to adopt two baby girls by the end of the month O.O Now she's looking for a babysitter, and if she can't find one my mum offered to take care of one of the child for the time being ~________~ I don't know if that's good or bad news, but dad totally disagrees with the idea.

I'm going to have two new cousin sisters~!!! I know my aunt has been longing for girls for ages on but I didn't quite believe she was still bent on getting daughters. My aunt used to dot on me with a stern way....*mutters* And I have a feeling the two are going to be twins XD Nyahahah I'm going to slowly teach them japanese and turn them into anime freaks bwahahahhahha~ Their first words are going to be bishie!! bishie!!!~~~

Ok I'm going nuts, mainly because I'm running of of things to think about. Someone just remind me to bring the sunblock lotion tomorrow. I'm getting darker already >.< I can't even recognise myself!